Trust Issues

Part 18

I walked back into the room to see Jessie and Lucie sat with a box of tissues and three glasses of ice cold lemonade. Smiling, I dumped my bag down on the floor and walked towards them. throwing myself on the chair, my feet hanging over the edge. The two girls sat together on the sofa and exchanged very confused glances.
"Um, you ok Rach?" Jessie asked
"Yeah absolutely fine" I replied, picking up the lemonade and taking a sip.
"Oh it's just we saw what just happened with Josh and I..."
"I'm done with crying over him Jessie, I'm done with always being criticized every time I talk to a guy, Jaymi's my best friend, nothing more nothing less and if Josh can't accept that well...well I don't think I want to be his girlfriend anymore"
The two girls mouths dropped and there was an awkward silence. I finished off my drink, said good night to them and snuggled down into bed, taking my laptop from my bag and opening it up. The light lit up the dark room and I signed into my facebook account. Within five minutes of me being signed in, Jaymi had called me on my mobile, checking that I wasn't locked in a bathroom crying because of yet another one of my failed relationships. I slid the cursor along the screen, unlocking my phone and bringing it to my ear. 
"I wanted to come and see you but I thought Josh would think otherwise"
"I don't know what to do anymore Jaymi, We couldn't date I mean you're with Olly and..."
"I know and that's why I've decided to come out about my sexuality"
"What?"
"It's time people knew Rach, I'm done with hiding who I really am and now that it's causing trouble for you...I...I just think it's time"
"Jaymi thing before you do anything stu..."
Before I could finish my sentence Jaymi had put the phone down, he wasn't thinking straight. He needed to think this through, maybe wait until we left University. I knew he'd get so much abuse and upset over this silly issue, I accept that fact that Jaymi and Olly are happily together, I don't understand why other people can't! My heart was beating faster and the butterflies flying around in my stomach. A loud beep on my laptop alarmed me and I looked to see that Jaymi had posted something as a new status. Clicking on the link, a sense of proudness filled me up.
"So I have something to say and if you guys don't like it then you know where the unfriend button is. I'm tired of hiding who I really am and I know there's been a lot of speculation over my sexuality. Well here's the truth; I'm happily dating Olly, we're very happy together and I hope you will all still treat me the same way after revealing this. Anyways, haters gonna hate I guess"
 The likes on the status piled up and up and up alike the comments. Most people were commenting congratulations to Jaymi, there wasn't that much hate over his timeline which I was very relieved about. I inboxed him saying thankyou and how proud I was. Shutting my laptop, I settled down into bed and drifted off into a deep sleep.

It was early the next morning when the sun came shining through my window. Throwing off the covers, I took a quick shower and put on breakfast for my two roommates and I. We sat around the table, munching on the toast and cutting up the pancakes. 
"You can actually cook Rach" Lucie said with a giggle.
"What can I say, I'm the next Jamie Oliver"
"You can't be the next Jamie Oliver"
"Why not?"
"He's a guy...duh?"
Jessie and I just looked at each other and giggled at how funny Lucie was.  We knew she didn't mean to be funny or to make us laugh but there was just something about her and the things she said that had us cracking up laughing. After breakfast, the girls left me to wash the dishes whilst they went off to get changed. I was in the middle of rubbing the soap all over the plates, singing along to Jessie J on the radio when there was a loud knock on the door, a knock that startled me. Turning the radio down, I made my way over to the door, dancing as the song was still playing around in my head. I pulled open the door to see Josh stood with a bunch of flowers.
"Can I come in Rach?" He asked
I moved out of the way as a signal for him to walk into the flat. Jessie and Lucie came out to see who our visiter was.
"Oh hey Josh" Jessie said.
"Hey Jess" he replied with a smile although I could see the dissapointement on his face when he realised that I wasn't in the flat on my own. I coughed as a little signal to tell my friends to make themselves disappear. Lucie didn't get the hint but Jessie knew what I wanted to do.
"Well we were just on our way to the common room" Jessie said, grabbing her coat and throwing Lucie a jacket.
"We were?" asked Lucie puzzled
"Yes now go!" Jessie replied, pushing Lucie out the door and giving me a thumbs up.
The door slammed shut.

Walking over to the sink, back to the kitchen, I offered Josh a drink but he declined.
"Rach, can I talk to you?" He asked
"Sure" I replied, drying my hands on the towel and walking to face him
"Rach why are you being so nice to me"
"What do you mean?"
"After the way I treated you last night, why are you being so nice to me?"
"I'm done with crying over you Josh"
"Look, I...I should have trusted you, I should have know you wouldn't cheat on me"
"Yeah well like you said last night, your mum said we shouldn't be together so just..."
"So you're breaking up with me?"
I sighed and looked into his eyes welling up, a little tear ran down his cheek and it was then that I realised this time, Josh was the one in the pain.
"I...I don't know Josh"
He handed me the bouquet of flowers and wiped the tear away from his eye. Looking down at his feet he began to tap them nervously on the floor. I could tell that he was nervous, nervous about what had happened and nervous about my reaction. Taking the flowers I went to put them in a vase.
"You know Josh, Jaymi told me he was gay when we first started here at Hope and for you to not trust me and think I would cheat on you...well....well it's really upset me"
"I know but I..."
"I've been crying over you for too long Josh, maybe...maybe it's time we moved on"
"No!" he cried
"Josh please don't make this any harder"
"Bu..but I love you Rach, one more chance please Rach, just...just one more chance"
I looked at his red cheeks, his puffed up eyes and the tears running down his face. The memories shoot through my mind and the good times. I remeber when he gave me a second chance and the only thing I could do was return the favour. His head was facing the floor and his feet tapping to the beat. Placing myself next to him, his head rose and he turned to look at me.
"One more chance Josh" I said with a little smile.
I watched the frown on his face turn into the biggest grin. Although there was one thing I was still angry at him for; I still hadn't had my invitation to be his date to the end of year party. He hugged me tightly, planting a light kiss on my lips and thanking me for giving him another chance. He jumped up, walking towards the door wiping away the tears from his eyes and giggling to himself. I walked slowly behind him.
"Oh and one other thing Rach" he said, spinning around.
"Yeah?" I asked
"I'll pick you up at six" he replied, giving me another kiss on the lips and running down the hallway.
I laughed to myself. That was Josh's unique and very discrete way of asking me to acompany him to the party and knowing that I would say yes, hes now skipped off down the hallway. I closed the door and returned to the dishes when Lucie and Jessie returned.
"So Roshel's back on then?" Jessie asked, opening the fridge and getting herself a can of coke out.
"You could say that" I replied with a little giggle.

That night we sat, trying on our dresses for the party and practicing our make up. I was so excited for this party. I'd been waiting and waiting all year. Nothing or no one was going to ruin this one for me but how wrong am I.