Trust Issues

Part 11

It had been over a month since the break up between Sophie and Josh. He'd become part of the group again after apologizing to us all for being, in his words an 'utter prat'. We'd become a lot closer again, I got to know the Josh that I fell in love with all those months ago but this time, I loved him more than I ever had before. I helped him through the break up and getting away from the popularity bubble because I'd been through that myself, I knew exactly what he was going through. For most nights in the week, we sat together in their room, laughing and whispering to each other, the others wishing that we would just admit we loved each other and get together but it wasn't that simple. I loved the safety I felt when his hands wrapped around me, his smile that lit up the whole room, getting lost in his eyes and his amazing sense of humour. I was now his tutor in English and he started to teach me how to play the guitar which was going surprisingly well. 

I made my way into the auditorium. Once again, it was empty, not a soul around. I made my way down the steps and to the piano, sitting down and starting to play along to the music I had been composing. I played and sang, ending up in my own little world, imagining I was performing to a crowd full of people. When I hit the last note, I put my head down and breathed a sigh of relief. It was the perfect time to sing the song, just to myself, no one else. Well at least that's what I thought. 

The loud sound of hands clasping together filled the room and I looked up to see Josh stood in the wings, a smile on his face.

"You've improved" he said with a giggle.

"Thanks" I said nervously, putting my head back down.

He came closer, placing himself on the piano bench next to me.

"So tell me, who were you singing too?"

"N..No one...I..."  

"Oh come on, you were singing to someone"

" I...I wasn't" I said looking down, a smile growing on my face because we all knew Josh was telling the truth.

 "What's that beautiful smile for then?" He said, looking at me, giggling.

I took a breath. Now was the perfect time to tell him, I knew that but how would I tell him? What would he say?

"Come on, tell your Uncle Joshy"

"Or what" I teased.

"Or this" He said, tickling me.

I wriggled about, trying to get away from Josh but I couldn't, he was too good.

"Ok, Ok! I give up, you win" I said giggling.

He sat next to me, his sweet smell making me fall in love. I could feel his smile and his crystal blue eyes looking at me.

"Come on then, seriously now, who were you singing too?"

It was now, I'd been given the perfect moment to tell him and I wasn't going to let it get away.

"So the song I was singing...."

"Yeah?" he asked

" What would you do if I said....If I said..."

"If you said what?"

"If I said it was about you..."

There was a very long pause, no words coming out of his mouth. Had I just made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Did he not feel the same? Had I wrecked out friendship?

"Wow" He said, finally breaking the silence.

" I've just made a complete and utter fool of myself haven't I?" I said, putting my head down, my face gone red with embarrassment.