Forms of peace

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[TW] self harm,

...༻❁🝮❁༺...
Things had been awkward since the incident with aki and you felt the guiltiest you've ever been
You pulled your knee's to your chest and dipped your forehead to lay against them
"y/n? Its time to eat" mei peeked inside the room "y/n?" she entered the room and looked around for you

"y/n~ where are you? Are you hiding from me?" mei giggled
The doors of the closet opened and light came back to you
"why are you all cuddled up in the closest? Are you alright?"

"yeah i just feel a little tipsy, i drank too much alcohol" you laughed dryly
"okay! Well come down if you're hungry" she closed the doors and darkness swallowed you whole again

Everything fell silent and you were stuck with your own thoughts
"he said all those nice things for me yet i couldnt say anything nice back"
You dug your nails into your own arms and choked a sob

"the first time i've ever been complimented and yet i am still the same rude person i've always been"

"why am i so rude? I dont want to be mean but i just..."

You started clawing at your arms, leaving lines of blood
"i'm just so angry all the time but i dont know why, i just am" tears formed in your eyes

"i am a bad person, and bad people deserve bad things. I deserve all the hate i receive"
...🝮༻✽༺🝮...
Madara scribbled writtings on a paper but froze when he suddenly felt a pang in his chest
He sighed and stood up from his seat

His hand reached the sliding door and opened it
At that same moment, koko passed by with a big smile on her face "one more day and y/n-san will be back~"

Madara watched the small child walk by without saying a word
Koko wore a shirt with the uchiha print on the back and a puffy skirt that bounced every time she took a step

It had been barely over a week since he took the child under his care but he has already gotten used to her, as if she really was a child of the uchiha

Even at times he would catch himself relaxing once he had the child in his line of sight
"child" he called out

Koko looked over her shoulder "rara-san!" koko ran to him and wrapped her little arms around his leg

Madara hooked his finger over the collar of her shirt and lifted her from the ground
"can you give me some money to get chocolate? Noya told me theres a sale going on"

Madara pondered in silence "you need money?" koko hummed "yes, two riō! (0.18$)

"two riō only?" madara's other hand shuffled in his pocket as he held koko and walked around the estate

He pulled out a small pouch and handed it to her "get as much as you would need and make sure to buy one for everyone else" he grumbled

By everyone else he didnt mean the whole clan but instead all of the people who worked under him, to be quite truthful there were only three people working for him, one of them being noya and the two others being a maid and a cook

"child" he called out "yes rara-san?" koko looked up to see the ravenette
"what is your most preferred colour?" koko hummed in thought

"pink! Just like my hair!" she giggled
Madara closed his eyes and gently placed koko down "run along now" he ordered before leaving the small child to herself
...🝮༻✽༺🝮...
"what is madara uchiha doing in the toy shop" someone muttered

Madara's eyebrow twitched in embarrassment
I shouldve made noya buy it

The ravenette glared at the people who whispered about him

He glanced back at the variety of plushies in front of him and reached his hand out to the pink teddy bear

He grabbed it brought it closer so that he could inspect it
His thumb pressed onto the stomach of the plushie "are y-you planning on buying that one uchiha-sama?" the worker sweated nervously in the presence of madara

The teddy bears was fully pink except for the stomach and the paw pads, it certainly was soft as well

"yes"
...🝮༻✽༺🝮...
Madara walked out the store and heard fits of giggling an laughter
His gaze wandered around to try and find the source of it and finally landed on a crowd of children

"koko~ why cant you buy me chocolates too? You have so much money!" one of the kids whined as they hugged her "no, rara-san said to only buy for me and the others!" koko pushed them away

"and i do not know you, y/n-san told me not to let strangers touch me! Especially boys!"
One of the kids tilted their head in confusion "rara-san? Y/n-san? Are those your parents? Why arent you calling them okaa-san and otou-san?"

Madara's eye locked onto koko "my child...?"
He watched as koko struggled to refuse the begging and demanding of the children

Madara sighed and walked over to the crowd
Koko was the first to notice him "rara-san!" she gave him a toothy smile

The others turned to him and gasped, fear filling them to the brim "thats t-thats!" one of the kids started crying and ran away

Koko watched as the children started running away
"why are they so scared?" she asked

Madara hooked his finger under her collar and picked her up from the ground
"i am a feared man, child" he stated as he walked to the uchiha estate

"feared? Why? Rara-san is really nice. Why would people be scared of him?"
Madara's eyes widened in the slightest "nice?" he chuckled

"i am no such thing, you are but a child so i will not explain to you why people fear me" he opened the large and heavy gates of the estate with one hand and walked in

"but i think even if people are scared of you if they ever get to know you properly and have playdates with you they wont anymore! You're really grumpy but really nice, the money you gave me today is proof" koko smiled

Madara glanced at her

My child...

[AN] drew madara