Forms of peace

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[TW] attempted suicide, mentions of suicide, mentions of death,
...༻❁🝮❁༺...
Madara sighed as he opened the door to his office, he had just finished some muscle training and he was a little sore

His gaze trailed around the room, there was a different energy added to it. It seemed sadder than usual yet sweeter

"Did she come into my office?" He looked around to see if anything was missing or just unusual but there was nothing except a small note on his desk

He made his way to the desk and picked up the paper
His eyes moved as he read the contents of the letter
His lips parted in surprise
"Pathetic" he dropped the paper and walked out of his office
...🝮༻✽༺🝮...
You looked down and saw the distance between the floor and the flat railing you stood on

A breeze danced through your hair

"For once in my life I want to get what I want and for it to stay with me" you mumbled to yourself
As you stared downwards your head started getting fizzy and the world spun around you. Big heights scared you but it was how you wanted to die

You took a deep breath and looked up at the sky, you would've preferred it if it was the sunset plastered above or maybe just the night so that the stars will shine down on you but, you don't always get what you want now do you?

"Watch what will happen to you once she opens this door!"

Your lips trembled, when you opened that door... you saw her die, you wished you had never opened that door, wished that she had never came to visit you, you wished upon the resetting of everything from when madara helped you that one day up until now

It was as if there was an imaginary clock in your head, and every second that went by there was a small click and clack

"You knew... you knew you were gonna die yet you decided to still come and visit me knowing that if you went to me you would be in danger" you chocked out

Nothing would be the same now, sure you still had your other sisters but did they really like you as much as Miya liked you? Probably not, you didn't even think they enjoyed being with you

You had so many things to tell her, to tell madara, to tell your other sisters- to tell your mother before your book came to an end but everything you've ever wanted to say you swallowed

"Do you think I'll see you again Miya?" Tears fell from your eyes and dropped to your chin

It was as if your hearing had gotten better as you could hear the sound of your teardrops making contact with the hard concrete floor

"I'm not going to be loved in this lifetime am I?" You scoffed and shook your head
"No, how can I ask anyone to love me when all I do is beg to be left alone?"

You closed your eyes to have a run through all your memories but you felt yourself lose consciousness
...🝮༻✽༺🝮...
You slid your fingertips along the smooth surface of the large table that was as long as the whole room
There was many empty chairs along the table, there was empty plates... it was sad to look at

You heard the noise of the legs of a chair scratching against the floor and you turned your head towards the source of it

There was a small child with h/c hair and e/c eyes sitting down at one of the end of the table
There was food on her plate- barely, there was veggies, rice and a cup of water on the side

You sat down at the other end and watched from across the table as she ate in silence
Once she was done, she removed her napkin from her collar and looked at you
"What are you doing with yourself?" She asked, her face was glum. She held no emotion on it whatsoever but she looked disappointed in the slightest

"You're supposed to be a woman who raises her chest through a crowd of bad people, a woman who stands proud-"
"I don't know what to do with my life anymore" the child looked at you and sighed
"Become the woman you've always wanted to be"

The child's lips moved as she finished speaking, your eyes were wide

...🝮༻✽༺🝮...
Your eyes flew open, you were still standing on the railing
Your body swayed back and forth
"You are pathetic" stated a grumpy voice

You looked over your shoulder and saw the all too familiar ravenette
"Madara-sama, should I die? Do you want me to die?" You turned around and placed a hand on your chest; over the area your heart was placed

Madara made his way over to you
"What do you want?" He asked

Your eyes went big in surprise but then went back to its normal size. You didn't know what you want

You opened your mouth to speak but then closed it again
"I don't know"
You looked at Madara with tear filled eyes, your eyes were red and puffy

It was as if the air thinned out, it was easier to breathe and all you could think about right now is to hug Madara but you knew he wouldn't want that. He was the Madara uchiha after all and just some common woman hugging him would most likely make him mad

"Madara-sama, how do you think people think of you?" You asked him
Madara stayed silent for a few moments before answering

"You already know the answer to your question"

He was right, you knew that people were scared of him, they didn't want to be anywhere near him and whenever he was out they would talk and murmur about him and how much power he holds

"Well, I like you Madara-sama- I know that deep down in there you truly are kind hearted because me and you..."

"We are alike in some ways, the fact that konoha thinks of us negatively. I can relate to you on that topic and you can relate to me"

"So what I want... what I want is to stay by your side until I can't anymore"
Madara turned his back to you
"Then why are you still standing on that railing? Do you still want to die?"
You got off from the railing and ran to him

Your arms circled around his waist and you planted your cheek against his back
"Thank you" you whispered to him

Madara looked at you from over his shoulder then to your arms that reached his stomach

The both of you stayed like that for a while, for the first time... you were okay with the physical contact with a man and for once Madara didn't mind getting touched by someone of whom he doesn't know that well

"i only appear when you're troubled by something after all"
Madara closed his eyes

You had appeared when he was troubled about not feeling at peace within himself and his surroundings