Changes. (Scarlett Johansson x daughter story)

Chapter 44

(TW: Blood)

Maddie's POV:

Where the hell am I? Whose room is this? 

I hear a door being opened and a young, blonde girl walks in. Her eyes are focused on the window. I turn towards the window to see a tall man dressed in all black standing there. 

The young girl screams at the top of her lungs. There's a loud bang and the girl screams stop. She looks down at her stomach and puts her hand there. I walk closer to her and see blood coming from a fresh wound. The girl lifts her hand up and stares at her blood covered fingers. I try to reach out and help her. I try to put pressure on the wound but I can't. The young girl falls to the floor and just stares down at her hands. 

 "Maddie"

 "Maddie"

 "Madeline, baby?"

 I open my eyes to find Scarlett staring down at me. I look down at my hands to see them in my normal form. No blood. I then look down at my stomach and see nothing but my scar. It was just a dream. I'm okay. I'm safe. 

 "Maddie?" I return my gaze back to Scarlett. She looks worried. 

 "I'm okay" I tell her. She nods and pulls me into her arms. I rest my head in her shoulder and start crying. It felt so real, it felt like it was happening all over again.

Scarlett pulls me away and lifts up my chin. She kisses my forehead and makes me cry even more. She pulls me back into her chest and carefully moves us so we're lying down. I lay my head on her chest and just listen to her heartbeat. I've stopped crying now. 

 "Want to tell me what happened?" I shake my head. It was just a nightmare, it wasn't real.

 "Maddie, you can talk to me" I nod my head. 

 "You can talk to me too Scarlett"

 "What do you mean?" I think she knows entirely want I mean.

 "Your hiding something from me. I'm not an idiot Scarlett. I know when someone isn't telling me something" she shakes her head.

 "I'm not hiding anything" I scoff and sit up next to her.

 "Then why aren't you telling me why you left me when I was 6. Don't you think I have the right to know"

 "Of course you have the right to know. I just need to find the right time, I don't want to hurt you" she says sitting up beside me.

 "Was it me? You can tell me, I can handle it. Was it because of me?" I say quietly. She sits in front of me and cups my face. 

 "Hey Maddie. If course it wasn't because of you. It wasn't Maddie, I promise baby. It wasn't because of you." She says tears rolling down her face.

 "Then why did you leave me mama?" She starts crying even more. 

 "I just wanna know. Please. I'm not gonna get hurt, I just want to know" I continue. She sighs.

 "I don't know where to start baby" she says softly. 

 "From the beginning" I tell her. She kisses my forehead and takes my hand into hers. 

"Before you were born or I even found out I was pregnant, me and your dad were going through a break. We needed space from each other. We stayed married but we just stopped living with each other. I didn't want us to divorce because I still loved him and I though that if we took space then it might help us. During our break I found out that I was pregnant with you and I was so excited. I told your dad and we decided to give us another chance and we got back together. I moved back in with him and prepared for you. Then when you was born and you were this cute, tiny baby. I wouldn't let you leave my arms and you loved it. You was a mini me. Then you kept growing and soon enough your were a toddler and a very cheeky one. We lived in England due to your dad's work. I loved England, it was great but I wanted to come back here, I wanted you to be able to see my mom and siblings without having to catch a plane. Me and your dad were often arguing because whilst he had work in England, I had work in America and I needed to be there. I didn't want to rely on your dad for money, I wanted to make my own. you often came with me when I went to America for work and if you didn't then you would stay with your aunts. Your dad was working a lot so he couldn't look after you.

When you was 4, that's when I decided I needed to divorce your dad. We lost our love for each other before you were born and I realised that I was just in love with the memories that we had when we was in love rather than being in love. I also realised that you shouldn't stay with someone who you don't love, it wouldn't have been fair on you or me and your dad, so we got a divorce. It was for the best, we were arguing a lot anyway. We sorted out a routine, where you'd live with me during the week and then live with your dad on the weekends. You didn't like it at first but you got used to it. I started getting more job offers and I knew that I had to take them. The problem was that they were in America. I told you dad about it and he didn't like it. He wanted you to stay in England and he said that it was unfair for me to take you away from him and his side of the family. He said that my work was overtaking my personal life and that you'd be best living with him permanently. I argued and argued with him, I didn't agree with him. I needed you and I knew that you needed me. A weekend wasn't enough time and I didn't want you to have to catch a flight every week to come and see me, especially since you'd probably doing it in your own due to your dad working all the time.

I had made sure that my work wasn't overtaking my personal life. I didn't understand what he was talking about. I think he was just saying things to try and justify the fact that he didn't agree with me. He then tried to take custody of you, which led to a custody battle. I tried so hard to make your dad see some sense and not go ahead with it but he didn't listen. He won the battle. He had more money than me and got a much better attorney. He said that my work was affecting your life and that if I took you to America then it would interrupt your life in England, said that you had friends and family the. He made it sound so convincing like I was a terrible mother and that I was trying to hurt you but I would never do that Maddie, I would never try to hurt you, I love you so much. I would never hurt you.

The custody agreement said that when you turned 13, you would get to choose on whether you wanted to be in contact with me or not. All through me leaving and up to your 13th birthday. I texted your dad to try and get him to change his mind but he ended up blocking me. Becca and Allie would give me updates once in a while but it wasn't the same. I missed so much of your life. I stopped contacting them when you didn't want to see me. It hurt too much knowing that I wasn't a loud to see you. That I wasn't aloud to see my little girl. " she finished. I don't know what to say.

It wasn't Scarlett's fault and it wasn't my fault but it was my dad's. All those years that I spent waiting, begging my dad to get my mum back, all that time he knew all along where she was and that he was the one stopping me from seeing her. My aunts kept it from me too. Everyone knew apart from me. That's why Allie was trying to convince me to contact her when I was 13. That's why she hates my dad so much because she knew that he was keeping me from my mum. I used to cry and cry to my aunt's about my mum. How she left me and how she wasn't there for me when I needed her and they knew all along.

 "Maddie say something please" Scarlett begs. I just stare at her and start sobbing. She pulls me into her arms.

 "I'm sorry mama. I'm so sorry. I should have said yes. I should have let you be in contact with me. I've tried to hate you but I couldn't. I'm so sorry mama" she kisses my head.

 "You don't need to apologise baby. You didn't know. It's not your fault." 

All these years where I've tried to hate my mum. It turns out I should be hating my dad. All these years where I've blamed my mum for everything. I should have been blaming my dad.

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SCARLETT'S TOLD MADDIE. WHAT'S MADDIE GOING TO DO? CONFRONT HER DAD? TELL SCARLETT WHAT HAPPENED TO HER WHEN SHE WAS 10?

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