Changes. (Scarlett Johansson x daughter story)

Chapter 64

Scarlett's POV:

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Today is my last day with Maddie. I don't know when I'm next going to see her, so this is really messing with me.

I think Maddie can sense that something is wrong because she hasn't left my side all morning. I don't know what I'm going to do without her, this whole thing is fucked up. If I hadn't have divorced Matthew, none of this would have happened. How can he have let this happen?

It's 2pm and Matthew is meant to be coming round about now so I can leave. I really don't want to do this, I don't want to say goodbye. Maddie's asleep cuddled next to me whilst I wait for her dad to come. I stare down at my mini me and hold back the tears.

I hear keys unlocking the door and then two voices. Matthew and Allie.

They both walk into the room and I stand up, slowly trying not to wake Maddie yet, knowing it's time.

I softly shake Maddie awake and she stares up at me.

"Where are you going mama?" she asks quietly.

I hold back the tears and give her a small smile.

"You know how mama said she has a big work trip, well it's today, so I'm going to go now okay" Maddie shakes her head and sits up.

"But I don't want you to go mama!"

"I know baby, but it'll only be for a short while okay?" She nods her head slowly.

I pull her into a hug and kiss her head.

"I love you sweet girl" I say before letting her go and making my way to the front door. I don't dare look at Matthew because I think if I do I might punch him in the face and I don't want Maddie to see that.

Allie pulls me into a small hug at the door. And I whisper in her ear.

"Take care of my girl for me alls"

I hear small feet run up the hall and I turn to see Maddie running up to me and Matthew running after her.

"Don't leave me mama! I want to go with you" I shake my head, tears already falling down my face. Matthew tries to grab Maddie but she shouts and tries to fight him off her.

" Mama" was the last thing I hear Maddie about  before I shut the door and get out of there.

I sat in my car and drove out of the driveway before parking up and bawling my eyes out. How the fuck am I going to do this without my baby?

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I jolt awake and sigh in relief. It was only a dream, she's back home with you, I tell myself.

I quietly step out of bed and go to check up on Maddie. I open the door as quietly as I can, I see Maddie fast asleep in bed. I stay stood there for a few minutes. 

It's okay Scarlett, she's okay and she's home. 

but she's not okay and I can't help but reflect on all of the things I've missed and all of the times I should have been there for her and I wasn't. I mean she got shot when she was ten and I didn't even know. what mother doesn't know when they're kid gets shot? What mother isn't there when there kid gets shot? There's so much of Maddie's life that I've missed and as much as I want to live in the moment and appreciate what I have now, I can't help but feel guilty and upset about the things in the past and all of the memories an moments I've missed.

I'm her mom and yet I hardly know what's going on in her life. I hardly know my own child.

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LITTLE BIT OF A LOOK IN SCARLETT'S FEELINGS 👀👀

ALSO NOT PROOFREAD, AND SOZ FOR THE SHORT ONE

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