Changes. (Scarlett Johansson x daughter story)

Chapter 61

Maddie's POV:

It's been a few weeks since me and mum had that chat and things have been good between us. Although  I'm still avoiding talking to my aunt's. 

I know that it wasn't there place to tell me but I still don't get why they didn't try and stop my dad, he listens to them. I just wish that they would have told me or someone would have because then when she asked to see me when I was 13 I would have said yes. I don't want to not talk to them but I can't get it out of my head that they lied to me. They never told me. I think that's what's hurting me the most. Everyone knew except me.

Apart from all of that, everything has been good.I've been attending school more and not going out as much, me and James are good and I'm glad to be back with Jess and Evan. I've been learning new choreograph for dance. My next show is in 2 weeks and that's going to be my last ever competition, so I'm making sure to put my all in the dance. I have a solo and duo. so it's a lot to learn.

I'm currently chilling in my room. today's Friday and boy have I never been more happier that it's weekend. I've decided not to go out this weekend. I think I just need to have two days to rot in bed. 

I'm surprised my mum hasn't come in to see me because usually she does. Ever since I told her about everything, she hasn't left me side and as much as I love spending time with her, It still feels weird.

I don't know why though. I guess part of me is still hurting from the last 10 years. I want to make this work and I want everything to be okay but there is still this part of my brain that's telling me it's not going to work out. I think there's always going to be a part of me that's going to second guess everything and overthink things. That's always been my problem, I overthinks things to the point where I suffocate and it all gets too much. Ignoring my aunt's isn't helping me either, even though i don't like it, I need those idiots in my life. They have helped me through everything and have been my mum's when mine couldn't. But I'm stubborn and hurting. They still knew all along and lied to me.

I hear a knock on my door and mum walks through and sits on my bed.

 "I just got a call from your dad and he wants to know whether you want to stay at his place this weekend?" She asks me. I shrug my shoulders and continue scrolling on my phone.

 "Maddie?" She asks me again.

 "I don't know, whatever you want" 

Oh I forgot, I'm also ignoring my dad. for the same reason as my aunt's, well kind of. I guess I'm giving him a taste of his own medicine. Of what it feels like when your daughter doesn't see you. Yes, that may make me a bitch but I think I get the right to be a bitch. I mean the man took my own mother away from me, didn't tell me and left me alone near enough all the time. So yes I'm going to continue being a bitch until I feel like stopping.

 "It's not what I want, it's what you want. Maddie, how long are you going to ignore everyone for?"

 " I don't know mum, until I feel like stopping. They all lied to me, so I think I get to ignore them for a little while" she sighs and moved closer to me.

 "Baby, they didn't lie to you, well your dad did, but your aunts had no choice. Look, I'm glad they didn't tell you in a way. I would have preferred for me or your dad to tell you because its better that way. I know that your angry with them and I get it but they do miss they're Maddie. I should know they won't stop spamming my phone with messages asking about you."

 I just shrugged my shoulders and hid my head into the pillow. 

 "I'll let you sleep and think about what I've said. Goodnight baby." She says kissing my head. I just mumble a 'night' and hear the door close.

I sit up and take my sleeping medicine out from my draw and take one of the pills. I then text James goodnight before closing my eyes and trying to go to sleep.

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SORRY GUYS THIS WAS KIND OF A SHIT CHAPTER BUT I HAVEN'T HAD MUCH MOTIVATION TO WRITE.

OH WELL! I BREAK UP FOR SCHOOL FOR SUMMER IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS SO I'M JUST WAITING ON THAT 🙏.

STAY SAFE BABES LOVE YA 😘