Maddie's POV:
It's finally the summer holidays. I've been off for a week already and not once have i left the house. I mean I've barely left my room.
Mum's barely been home, she's been working a lot more and I don't really see her much unless it's when she's forcing me to have dinner with everyone. It's weird her not being here as much and to make matters worse rose is in France with her dad, so whilst mum's working I'm stuck at home with Colin. I mean he's not that bad but I don't know him so it's always awkward when I go downstairs into the kitchen and he's there.
I haven't seen my dad for a few days because he's been working as well. Although he has been texting me a lot to make sure I'm ok.
I'm still not talking to my aunts. I'm sort of still talking to Lily and Leo but not as much as I usually do. I don't want to call them and their mum to walk in. They've now stopped calling and texting me as much which is good because they were blowing up my phone.
James and I aren't really talking at the moment, he's spending more time with max, drinking and smoking weed together. I've tried to express my worries to him but he hasn't really been listening and at the moment is ignoring me. I don't know how else to help him.
Today is a Saturday which means my mum is off work. So I'm expecting to have her knocking on my door, forcing me out of my room against my own will. That should be a crime, dragging your teenager out of their room when they don't want to be.
I also haven't seen Lizzie in weeks, she's been away for work but I'm pretty sure she got back like a few days ago but then again I wouldn't know, I hardly know what day it is at the moment.
I can't help but miss England and my routine there, everything was so much easier. I miss Josie, my nanny, I wonder what she'd say to find out that I'm living with my mum, maybe she already knows about it. Josie was a mother figure to me and I told her everything and how I felt about mum not being there so I think she'd be happy for me now that she is here. I should really call her soon.
I wonder what 13 year old me would think right now, seeing me here. She's be shocked that I've let mum in so easily. She'd be shocked at how long I've lasted ignoring my aunts. I think she'd be disappointed too, I mean 12 year old me was so excited to turn 16 and the freedom I'd get. I guess younger me never really noticed that the freedoms I was so looking forward too, I already had. The 'freedoms', instead of being something exciting is just another lonely and painful experience yet again.
U don't know what I'm doing, I'm just overthinking life at the moment and sending myself into a lonely pit of sadness and self pity. I need to suck it up and move on, I can't keep on living in the past. But for now I am going to stay there, for now I'm going to stay as that scared child. Not because I want to but because I'm too tired to change. It doesn't help that my routine keeps on changing, I had just got used to my routine at the boarding school, now I have to get used to this routine and it keeps on changing.
"Knock, knock" mum says before walking in, pulling me out of my depressing thoughts. "Good morning, or should I say afternoon. Time to get up!" She walks towards the Windows and opens the blinds before coming back towards my bed and taking my blanket off me.
"Come on, time to get up!" Why is she in such a good mood? Weirdo. I ignore her and grab my pillow and cover my face with it.
"Madeline, I won't ask you again" she declared before leaving the room.
Madeline? Why is it Madeline all of a sudden?
After 5 more minutes of lying in bed, I slowly make my way downstairs. I walk in the kitchen to find mum, grandma and auntie Vanessa sat at the counter.
"Ah! She finally awakes. Alright kid?" Vanessa joked. I nod my head before grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge.
"You guys are too happy in the mornings" I groan.
"It's 2 o'clock in the afternoon" grandma says.
"Still" I shrug.
"Happy to be off school?" Vanessa asks. I nod my head at her.
I tell them I'm going to go at ready before leaving the room. I don't get dress instead I just get back in bed and go on my phone.
Mum walks in a few minutes later and sits on the bed next to me.
"Nessa and grandma left" she tells me. I don't respond and just continue scrolling on my phone.
"Lizzie's coming over for dinner tonight but it's just going to be us three because Colin and Robbie have work" she continues.
"Okay". There a few minutes of silent before mum starts talking again.
"Are we okay?" I nod my head.
"Yeah. Why wouldn't we be?" I ask confused.
"You seen off, plus your barely saying a word to me."
"I'm fine and what's there talk about anyway" I state.
"I don't know, anything"
"Like what mum? The fucking weather?" I scoff before turning over. Why can't she just leave me alone?
"What is wrong Maddie? Seriously, your acting like a toddler"
"Nothing, you just won't leave me alone"
"Maddie, I have barely seen you these last couple of weeks. Sorry if I just want to make sure your okay, which clearly your not"
"I'm fine, everything's fine, okay?" I tell her getting more annoyed. Why won't she just go?
"Sure, like that's believable." She mutters.
"Your barely sleeping, you haven't left the house in days, you've left your room like twice a day and even then it'll only be for a few minutes. Your just rotting away in bed. so no, everything is not fine and I'm worried." She continues.
"You don't need to be Scarlett, I'm fine" I retorted.
She doesn't say anything else and just leaves the room.
Why can't she just leave me alone? The sooner rose comes back, the better. Then she won't keep on bothering me then.
I'm fine, why can't she see that I'm fine. She seriously can't be worried over me going to bed a little later that usual. Honestly, I'm surprised she left and didn't just continue badgering me. That's very unlike her.
Oh my god! I called her Scarlett. That's why she left! I haven't called her Scarlett in weeks, maybe months. I hadn't realised I called her that. shit! she's going to think I've gone back to hating her. We're going to go back to how it used to be. I didn't mean to call her that, it just happened.
She's going to be fine. I mean it's just her name. It's no biggie.
No she's going to hate me.
I don't care! I went nearly 9 years without her, I think I can handle her hating me.
She's not gonna hate u, idiot! It's just a name, she won't care.
She'll be fine! hopefully...
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