Weather You Like it or Not Book Two

Chapter Ten

Chapter Ten
Her POV

I was drunk with his kisses. I know if we didn't stop this something will happen and I won't allow it.

I gently pushed him as I breathe heavily. I looked away from him because I can see his smile and that hits me. Why the hell did he do that?

"Wintz." He called me as he softly caressed my cheek up to my hair. He stroked it as if he's going to leave any minute. I missed his touch. I missed him very much.

But my conscience is mocking and telling me that is these are all wrong.

"Mateo, stop. Please." I murmured as my tears are continuously flowing down on my cheeks. I hated myself for responding to him. I hated myself for letting him do that to me. I hated myself because I'm aware that these are all wrong and that would never change.

"Look at me." He commanded but I didn't look back. "Wintz, please." Hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko at pinipilit na ibalik ang mga mata ko sa kanya pero hindi ko siya sinusunod. Tinalikuran ko siya at nag-isip ng malalim.

Kapag ba tinanong ko siya ngayon, aamin siya? Kasi hindi niya gagawin 'to dahil lang na na-attract siya sa akin. Kapag ba umamin siya, ano na mangyayari? Should I take the risk? Should I? Ang lakas ng kutob ko na hindi talaga siya si Mateo magmula kagabi. Alam kong siya si Thunder at hindi ko alam kung bakit pilit niyang tinatalikuran ang dati niyang pangalan.

Kasi kung natatakot na naman siya ulit sumugal, e, tangina, sana hindi na lang siya nagpakita at hindi na lang niya ako pinaasa na may babalik pa sa akin at muli kong tatanggapin.

Dahan-dahan akon umupo nang nakatalikod sa kanya. I still don't want to see his face that keeps haunting my past.

"Mateo." I coldly said but I didn't bother to look at him. I heard him made some noise as sign that was his response to my call. "What is this? I don't get this thing! Bakit sinasamantala mo ang kahinaan ko sa'yo? Bakit mo ko pinapahirapan? Bakit?" I started to cry again. I felt the he shifted beside me and let out a deep sigh.

"I'm sorry." He said.

"Sorry? You keep pushing yourself to me then you're sorry? Why? I hate you!" I pushed him.

"No, you don't hate me!" Matigas niyang sabi at niyakap ako. I struggled on his embrace because I know that this embrace is from Thunder. I, somehow remember this feeling.

"How are you so sure that I don't hate you?" I angrily muttered and stopped giving him punches.

"Because, I can feel it even if it takes years."

"What?" I pushed him and stared at him. "Thunder, ikaw na ba yan?" Gulong-gulo na ang utak ko sa nangyayari.

Feeling ko lokong-loko na niya ang pagkatao ko. Ang dali niya akong mapaikot bilang Mateo dahil alam niyang kahinaan ko si Thunder. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ako maniniwala.

"I'm not Thunder! Ramdam ko lang na mahal mo ako dahil akala mo ako si Thunder! Pero Wintz, Mateo ang pangalan ko, hindi Thunder." He said and I shook my head in disbelief.

"I hate you!" He'd taken me for granted. He'd taken my weakness from me. I hate him for being Mateo!

"If this the revenge you really wanted to do to me for a long time ago, then fine. You won. Just leave me alone here and get out of my house now. I don't fucking need you as I don't want to feel your presence anymore! I don't want to be your mistress nor your ex-lover. I don't know you anymore. Of course, ikaw na si Mateo Racal. Nasanay kasi ako na Thunder ang tawag ko sa'yo. Pasensya na. So please, better leave this house and don't talk to me ever again. Get married with another girl you love, go away. I don't need you!