destroy yourself

confession

Time goes by and it's nearly Christmas brake. A couple weeks and I have to go back home to an empty, cold house, no mother, only an abusive farther who doesn't care or love me.

Me and harry finished the project yesterday and we're getting the results after Christmas brake apparently. I think we did really good but we'll have to wait.

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I'm sitting in bed and I just start thinking. I think back to when harry told me everything about his past and how hurt he got and everything.

That's when i realise something bad. What if I do that to him again. What if I hurt him and leave him in that state again, I don't want to that at all.

I start to panic and then I tell myself I just want can't talk to him. If I don't talk  to him then I can't hurt him. I would rather that then having to deal with the fact I did something terrible or my family made me do something terrible.

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It been about 3 days of not speeking to harry and I'm trying to stay in my dorm for as long as possible to not see him.

I'm reading a book on my freshly made bed and perfectly tidy room when a knock on the door sounds.

I get up reluctantly and open it up to see harry there standing looking annoyed and sad at once. He steps in my room without me letting him and makes me shut the door so no one could hear us.

"How did you- whe- why are you here?" I ask surprised that he should up.

I just see him throw his invisibility cloak on my chair and cross his arms in anger.

"I think you know why I'm here!"

I do know, I know exactly why he's here but I'm not going to say that.

"Wha - no, what's going on harry"

"Oh I don't know, apart from the fact that you have completely abandoned me for 3 days and I though something horrible had happened to you!!"

"Look I'm sorry but I have a re-"

He cut me off again and now I'm started to get annoyed.

"I get that we have finished the assignment but I thought we where freinds, close freinds. I told you alot of deep stuff that I haven't even told ron and hermione"

That took me back a bit.

"I trusted you!"

"Well if you let me speek then I can tell you!!" I say in a raised voice. I regret that as I see pools of tears creating in his eyes.

"Look, I didn't want to hurt you. You told me all that stuff and realised if something happens in my family or the war where I have to go or fight against you then I don't want to put you through that again so I left."

"AND YOU THOUGH THAT WAS GOING TO HELP. DRACO I NEEDED YOU THE MOST. I NEEDED A FREIND FOR COMFORT AND YOU THOUGH GETTING UP AND LEAVING WAS GOING TO HELP ME."

I wasn't expecting that.

"STOP SHOUTING I THOUGHT I WAS DOING A GOOD THING"

"THATS NOT A PROPER REASON, TELL ME THE TRUTH"

I knew the real reason but I didn't want to say that, not to him or anyone.

"No!"

"JUST SAY IT"

"I don't want to hurt you again!" I say aggressively

"HOW COULD I GET HURT IN THIS SITUATION."

"BECAUSE I LIKE YOU HARRY! I LIKE YOU AND DIDNT WANT TO GET REJECTED, ITS HURTS"

"What as in freinds?" His voice has gone quite now, earily quite.

"You know what I mean" is all I say in an irritated way. I turn away for a second then I feel harry spin me around and cup my face.

I then feel his lips on mine. I relax into them and then hold his waste. We kiss more passionately. It feels natural, like its ment to happen, like we've been doing forever.

"I like you too" Harry says as we brake away for the sparks of our lips.

"Oh merlin, that was-"

"Good" Harry finishs off for me.

"Yha" I giggle out then I rest my head on his chest and he holds my head. I feel him peck my head and I blush violently.

"So wanna stay here?" I say shyly.

"Thought you would never ask"

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We're both laying in bed my head on his chest and his arms rapped around me. I feel so safe here, in his arms.

"Do you want to go out with me?" He says in a bit of a rush.

"Like boyfreind and boyfreind?" I ask, just to be sure.

"Yha, like boyfreind and boyfriend"

"Yes! I would love to. You have no idea how long I've been waiting to hear that."

"to be honest, same"

I look up and out lips meet again. The same spark appears. We both lean away and he kiss me on the forehead before smilling at me.

We talk for hours about nothing and everything.

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When I wake up in his arms its so comforting.

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He leaves with his invisibility cloak and out the door.

"Wait, please don't tell anyone, if my farther find ou-"

"Don't worry about it love, it's fine"

He pecks me on the check and goes. When he leaves I just stand there for a bit in shock half waiting to wake up from a dream. I can't believe it!

-950 words.
-sorry the start of this chapter was kinda rushed. I have lots more ideas so hopefully it's not as boring as it has been 😭