destroy yourself

house but not a home

I walk up and down the train trying to find an empty compartment. As I'm walking down I pass harrys and smile at him.

He waves his hand signalling for me to come in. I open the door and stand there and he offers for me to sit with them but I say no as I don't want to intrude.

The last compartment on the train is the only free one. I sit there wondering what would happen when I get back to my father. If I just keep my head down and speek when I'm spoken to ill be okay.

I'm just scared that now its only me and him I have no protection, no hope. My mum was my life. I loved her so much and she's gone.

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I walk through the door of the malfoy Manor and get an instant chill. The pain and evil fills my lungs as I breathe in and no father to come greet me, to come say hello. I walk into the office and find him sitting there writing something.

"Hello father, I'm back"

"Draco, finally"

I dont know what to say or do so I just stand there waiting for him to say something.

"Well, go on then, be down for dinner at 6"

"Yes, of course"

I walk away up to my room. It's not very nice room. It's big but dark. I've got dark green walls with a big bed in the centre and a wooden desk that's overlooking the window.

My bed sheets are green silk and its attached to a bathroom that's no different. I have a large woaredrobe in the corner and a few poster scattered around.

I don't know why but I have a really big erge to tell my father about harry and me being gay and everything but It's best if I don't.

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At a couple minutes to six I go down stairs and sit at one end of a long wooden table. If im being honest I'm really not sure why we have it as its only 2 people and even back when mother was here it's was only 3.

We sit in silence for a while till eventually I say something I'll probably really regret.

"Father"

"Yes"

"I would like to tell you something"

"Go on"

I swallow. If I don't say it now I never will

"Well i- im-"

"Spit it out boy!"

"Well I'm gay"

Its dead silent and I start to panic. This isn't good.

"Excuse me"

"I'm gay and you can't change that and I'm not changing."

"YOUR GAY! THIS IS OUT RAGUS! NO ONE IS GOING TO BE GAY UNDER MY ROOF"

I start to feel my eyes pooling up with tears. One run downs my cheek and I can feel a panic rising.

"DONT START CRYING NOW"

He lifts his wand up and makes my hole body drag across the long table towards him. I try struggle out but it's no use. It's magic.

I'm infront of him standing on the table but by magic and my feet are dragged on the surface.

⚠️torcha⚠️
"CRUCIATUS"

I snap back and it sends a shock all down my body. I think back to harry telling me about this curse. I don't think he wanted me to worry because this hurts so much.

Harry has had this 3 times and more. When or If see him again is all I can think about. I need to help him, help him properly like he did me.

He keeps hitting me with the curse then what feels like 10 minutes of extortion, pain and mental drain he stops. I drop to the table and he leans over me and punches me in the face and stomach time and time again.

I don't realise he's stopped until I can hear him walking away, leaving me here to rot. I feel my wand in my back pocket and think of grimhold place.

-662 words.