destroy yourself

grimhold place

Im bearly standing out side the door and weakly knock. I'm standing there for a minute or two cluching my side with blood streaming down my face and legs weak. I gather the strength to knock again and finally someone answers.

It's harry, thank merlin

"Draco?" He says concerned.

I couldn't reply back I couldn't do anything I just collapse into him arms and grasp onto his arms.

I can feel him picking me up but my visions gone all blurry and my hearings not very good.

"Harry? Who's there?"  I recognise the voice as remus's for 3rd year.

"HELP! PLEASE SOMETHINGS WRONG" I hear him cry out.

Remus comes running in and gasps.

"Quick, get him on the table"

I feel harry carefully placing me down on the kitchen table, I can hear him trying not to cry.

"It's going to be okay, I promise"

In that moment it makes me feel slightly better but I'm still in agony. I then hear someone else walk in and see it's sirius.

I forgot that harry lives with both of them now. Sirius walks over to the table to see what all the commotion is.

"Shit! What the fuck happened"

"I don't know! He said its just him and his dad now and he might be feeling angry since his mum passed but I didn't expect this, sirius help"

"Oh no, not lucius. We need to start to clean up his cuts then bandage him up where he needs."

I yell out in pain as the chemicals touch my cuts. I scare my self even.

"We need to take his jumper off to get to his stomach."

That's when I get the strength to try talk. I can't have them see my scars I can't. I've only ever told harry and that was an accident.

"No- i- please don-" is all I can get out. I think harry catched on as he starts to speek.

"Can't we just lift it up instead of talking it off."

"No, I'm sorry but they could be everywhere we don't know."

"Okay" he says through sniffles.

I turn to look at him and he gives me an apologetic look and my eyes start tearing up through pain and embarrassment.

They start to pull me up to sitting so they can take off my jumper. I can tell they see the scars on my arms by the look on there faces but they haven't seen my stomach scars.

They carry on though and take of my plain white t-shirt. They stare for a split second. I think it's at my other scars.

⚠️s3lf h@rm mention⚠️
Before I use to cut I would get a lighter and burn my stomach. I thought it wasn't enough and it wasn't doing me any great harm, that's when i started to cut.
⚠️carry on⚠️

But when I look down I realise that's not the most of anyone's issues right now. I have a massive brush covering my whole left side of my rip cage and a deep cut aswell.

They start to clean it up and put a big bandage on it. They do that to my shoulder aswell and a few places on my arms. On my eye brow bone were it's all cut they put long thin tape on it.

On my cheek they put a small plaster and on my forehead the put a fairly big cosion plaster on. They can't do anything on my lip cuts but they still clean if with warm water.

"He needs to rest. Let's put him in harrys bed."

"Can I stay in there with him?"

"Of course but just let him sleep okay" remus says

"Yah I will"

I don't know who but someone carry me up stairs and places me on a double bed with dark red bed sheets. The room is big but still has a cozy feeling to it. It has records and posters everywhere.

A desk under the window and a big set of draws on the empty wall I look up and there's a tapestry on the ceiling. I look to my right and there's a wooden door that leads to a bathroom.

I feel harry get into bed next me and put his arm around me gently. He kisses the back of my head and pulls the covers over me.

"I'm sorry"

"There's absolutely no need to be sorry. It's not your fault at all, I'm always here when you need it. We will talk about it in the morning when your feeling better but for now get some sleep love"

"Thank you harry"

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I wake up and harrys arm is still wrapped around me. I slowly lift it up and walk over to the bathroom. I splash my face with water and hear harry walk in.

He hugs my from behind and kisses my cheek. I spin around and just tightly hug him my face buried in his shoulder. It hurts but it's worth it, I really just needed a hug from this boy.

"I understand if your not ready to talk about it just get but you need to soon." He said it like he rehearsed it. Like he's said it to others before. He's so perfect

"I know, I'll do it when all four of us are together"

"Thank you"

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After a while we make our way down stairs and siruis and remus are in the kitchen. They are clearly talking about something important because they suddenly stop when we enter.

"Draco... how are you feeling" remus asks me.

"Better. Still some pain."

"There will be and probably for the next couple days but trust me, it gets better."

Remus gives him a knowing nod.

"I think we should talk about it though"

"Okay. Fine"

We all make our way to the living room and sit down.

-989 words.