destroy yourself

school

I wake up to harry shaking me lightly. I realised I fell alseep on his shoulder and start to blush a bit.

"Sorry" I turn away embarrassed

"It's okay honey, we're here, let's go!" Harry's always excited to go to hogwarts. Its his real home here. I think it's because before it was a way to get away from the dursleys and he doesn't have any freinds in the muggle world.

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We get to the hall and me and harry have to go our different ways.

"Bye, ill see you later" he smiles

I smile at him and turn to walk away. I hate separating at the hall entrance. It's just reminds me that I'm a slytherin, the one everyone thinks it's bad and mean and he's a gryffindor the 'perfect' house every one loves and adores.

I slump myself on the table and put my head in my hands. I look up and see harry staring at me from across the room. He smiles at me then realises there's nothing on my plate. He mouths to me to eat something but I honestly don't want to so I pretend that I don't know what he's saying.

After about 5 minutes of him looking like an idiot he stands up and walks over to my table.

"You've got to eat something dray. You didn't have anything this morning"he says. Everyone on the slytherin table is staring at us and I hate it.

"Oi! You two like going out or somthing" some stupid guy says while laughing with his freinds.

Harry looks down at my to get my approval. I want people to know. I want them to know I'm good and have someone that trusts me. I want people to know I care for him.

"Yha and what" he snapps back.

Everyone looks around and starts whispering to their freinds. This is what I don't like though.

"I thought you hated each other?

"We did, but now we don't so if you don't mind we're trying to have a conversation and eat out foood" I step up confidentiality.

I see harry blush at this.

"Wow" he exhales putting some mash potatoes and sausages on my plate.

I start to pick at my fingers and shake my legs. I don't feel like eating today after what happend. Especially now everyone's staring at me.

"Please, if not for you for me." He holds my hand up the table and gets up.

"I'll see you in your dorm tonight at 10?"

I giggle and nod my head. That makes me feel a lot happier and I start to then eat my food. The whole meal goes by and I bearly think about what I'm putting in my mouth till I look down and it's all gone.

I'm really proud of myself and then try get harrys attention. Once I get it I show him my empty plate and he laughs back and put a thumbs up.

It's ridiculous but it's still funny. Hermione smiles at me and so does Ron.

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After dinner I walk back to the slytherin common room. Everythings okay until i step through the door. Everyone's staring at me in disgust.

"Traiter!"  "You wierdo dating a gryffindor"    "your gay, that's gross"   "heard what happened to your dad, sucks for you"

That last one really hurt but I contained myself and just went up to my room. I sit and just think for a while. Every thought and no thoughts running through my head at once.

It scares me, I just start braking down crying.

I can't do this, I can't do this anymore

In that moment I realise I don't want to be here anymore. I dont want to be at home, in my dorm, in the common room. Not anyway.

I grab my pen and paper and start to write a note.

Dear harry,

You were always there for me and I'm forever greatfull.

I can't do this anymore but I'll always be there watching over you.

Draco, your love x

I walk out my common room at 9.54pm and stumble my way over to the astronomy tower with tears pooling my eyes.

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I'm standing on the other side if the barrier looking down to the ground the wind racing through my hair. I'm gripping on and close my eyes.

I think if harrys face one more time and prepare myself for silence. The calming yet defining silence of falling.

"Draco!" I hear a very familiar voice.

I whip my head around and see harry there stood frozen looking confused and with tears in his eyes.

"Harey. Please go"

"No! You think I'm going to watch you die. I'm not letting you jump"

"I can't do this anymore. I can't the people in the common room said horrible thing, my fathers good for dead. I'm traumatised and I don't know where I belong, harry it's hurts, like nothing you'll every feel."

"You belong with me. You belong in my arms and I believe in you. And trust me I've been we're you are, right now. I've had someone standing here telling me to get down and everything and the one thing that got me down is what they said to me which changed ny life.

Not everything you lose is a loss, somethings are freedom, somethings are a second chance, somethings are a miracle in disguise, somethings are a long needed detachment, a clarity brought to blurry eyes."

It fell silent for a bit as I stood there looking up at the sky. What harry just said was gorgeous. As the words sink in I'm realising that he's right. This is a second chance. I chance to become a new life without conflict and heartbrake. I needed him in every way.

I step back and run into him arms. We both calapse onto the floor and I just start crying into his arms. We hug for a long time and finally brake away.

" don't scare me like that!" Harrg laughs but i can see the sadness and almost guilt in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, I really am and I'm so happy your here. Your the best thing that's ever happened to me."

He smiles and brings me back into a hug.

"I love you draco, for everything you are"

My heart lifts up and starts beating really fast. I can feel my heart beat rising up and my cheeks getting more red and I start to smile like an idiot.

"You don't have tk say anything back i-"

I cut him off my kissing him. His lips are so soft and warm and I cup him face as he holds my waste.

"I love you too" I look up at him in awe and kiss him again.

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