destroy yourself

opening up

"First of all, what the fuck is going on between you and harry!"

I giggle and little bit and look down. Harry nudges me and I look up to him smiling. I take this as a hint and so I begin to tell them.

"Were dating. Boyfreind and boyfreind."

"KNEW IT!" I jump but no one seems to notice apart from remus who gives me a strange look.

"Okay, let's calm down sirius, but this is amazing. Harry why didn't you tell us your were gay?"

"I don't know, I wasn't scared just didn't have the right time I guess, thank you though."

"Sooooo, how long" sirius says like he's a 13 year old girl gossiping with his freinds.

"1 month" i reply back.

"This is so exciting, I love it!" Sirius says bouncing up and down in his chair.

I laugh a little bit as Harry scoots closer.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to kill the mood but draco you have to tell us what happened last night. What did your father do to you?"

I just stare at them for a couple seconds then tilt my head down telling myself not to cry over and over again in my head. The thing that makes it worse is now seeing how well remus and sirius as taken to harry coming out.

My eyes start to pool with tear and I feel harrys hand take mine and give me a slight smile.

I know he will always be there and really wants to help but I can't when I know he's been through so much more.

"I don't know, I don't want to burden you or especially harry or think I'm being dramatic "

"You will not be being dramatic the state you were yesterday." Remus assures me.

"Draco, can I tell you something that might help you" sirius speeds up in a less cheerfully way he normally does.

I just nod my head slightly as a tear rolls down my cheek.

"I felt the exact same way as you do right now. I grew up in a horriblely abuse home. I would go home every summer and get beat up, curses hitting me, worked till my knees bled and more. Then would go to school in September and act like the happiest boy in the world.

I would then cut my self"

He directs his head at my arms and just slightly points a finger at it to.

"I promise you I've been there and I didn't talk about it till 5th year when I ran away to harrys dad's house, james, when just like you, I could bearly stand up straight.

It's still one of the hardest things I've had to do in my life but to this day I don't not regret it. Not one single bit, and the reason why I don't is because the people I chose to tell I trusted, I loved.

We're not saying you have to tell the whole world but if you tell even us three, I promise we can help. Please, draco."

I look at him still silently crying thinking of what is childhood would of been like.

"Thank you, I really mean that."

I look at harry one more time then i breath in a gasp of air. I close my eyes for a couple seconds breathing steady and open them again looking back up to siruis. He gives me a encouraging smile.

"I came out. I told my dad I was gay."

I see all there faces drop.

"I told him I like boys and he didn't seem to be the biggest fan of that idea.
⚠️slightly mention of 4bus3⚠️
He first used the cruciatus curse on me then simply beat me up. He always wears lots of big metal rings so I guess that didn't help. You know, punching kicking, slapping, all that. I think I passed out for a bit but after all that he just walked out the room.
⚠️Carry on⚠️