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I start walking to the black lake. I come here every now and again to read while listening to the calming waves hitting the shore. When i get down there I notice harry, ron and hermione are sitting on a rock there just talking and laughing.

Before I say anything I just think about how I wish I could have that and be happy like them.

"Sorry, i didn't know you would be here. I'll leave." I say with my head down in a shy tone.

"No stay, its okay." Harry says which shocks me considering the other two are here.

"Are you sure, honestly I'll go somewhere else"

"Just sit down malfoy." Hermione says abruptly but also slightly comforting monor.

"Oh yah sorry"

"Why you saying sorry" Harry says

I just shrugg and sit.

"You don't seem like your self, wheres all the bulling?" Ron teases.

This kinda annoys me cause I'm not like that anymore. He should know that, I havnt spoke to him in like 6 months.

"I've changed" I put out plainly catching harrys eye and blushing slightly. I here him snigger and it makes me laugh slightly aswell.

I turn to Hermione and see her face light up. I know she's a clever witch but that was fast.

"Oh my" she says with a giggle.

She looks at me then Harry and I give her a nod of approval but Ron still hasn't got it and is completely lost.

"What!?"is all he says

"Draco" Harry pushes on

"Hold on!! Draco! First name basis here" Ron states in an almost panic.

"You tell him, its okay" I reassure him

"Well i- we would like the say something. Not only did we befriend each other to do the project, it also kinda of. We'll this is hard to say"

I look at him in awe and nod at him for assurance and he smiles back

"Well we're dating"

It's nice to hear those words out loud after so long if pain.

"Knew it!" I hear Hermione yell in excitement

"Wha- this is- oh." Is all Ron can manage to make out.

"I'm so happy for you guys, this is amazing!" She says

"Ron... please say something" Harry desperately beggs

He just stands up and hugs him. I don't know ron well but by the look on harrys face I can tell that exactly what he needed from him and that its the better than any words he could if said.

"love you mate, I'm happy for you" I hear him whisper then they brake up the hug and he starts walking over to me.

"I'm glad you got to come out, it was pretty obvious. I'm also happy your making harry happy it seems, but if you hug him ill-"

"I know, don't worry about it, I wont" I say smilling and looking over at harry.

We sit there and talk for a couple hours or so until its time to go the hall for tea. We're about to walk in then harry pulls me aside.

"Thank you for letting me tell them, it means alot, you were very brave for doing that" harry thanks

"No problem, I know how much they mean to you"

When we walk he pulls me back quickly.

"Eat please, at least some veg and meat"

"I will don't worry darling"

As he walks away I can see him start to smirk and can tell he got butterflies. And at that I also smirk.

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After dinner we all meet outside the hall and ron and hermione go to the gryffindor common room. Me and harry decide to go for a walk just around the grounds.

"Good dinner?" Harry asks

"Yha alright" I reply. I think he can tell that somethings wrong cause he takes my hand and comes in closer. I look at him and squeeze his hand slightly.

"What wrong my love?"

"I just wish that I had freinds, especially like yours, I just sit there looking over to you guys having fun and enjoying your time. I think a big reason why I don't eat at meals is because I have no one to talk to so therefore feel judged all the time. I wish I had freinds. I know I have you but your a gryffindor.... sorry that sound rude."

"No, no, I get it, well I don't totally know but I can imagine and I'm so sorry you feel like that. We can always talk to dumbledore to see if you can sit with us in the hall?"

"I don't think he really likes me, I told him to fuck of at the start of the year and a slytherin at the gryffindor table, everyone would hate me there and judge me, I would hate it even more. Thank you for the offer though."

"How about we can go somewhere else for meal time. I know I wouldn't mind it. I get alot of anxiety anyway and it scares me to"

"Yah that would be good. Thank you alot, I know it's cringe but I honestly don't know what I would do if you weren't here right now. As freinds or boyfreinds, you really do mean alot."

"I know. You mean so much to. You have no idea what I was thinking and going to do. You saved me draco"

I smile at him slightly confused.

"Anywa. Why did you tell dumbledore to fuck off" he says laughing.

"Oh right yha" I start laughing aswell.

"Got on my nerves." I smile sweetly at him.

At that we were at the gryffindor common room and we said our goodnight and goodbyes.

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Time skip

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One more day till I go home for the holidays and I'm really dreading it. I don't want to leave, not harry, not ron and not hermione, not hogwarts.

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