SkyView (POETRY)

What I'd Say About Love

to whom would i owe the trouble of taking care of my heart? it's been a pain for many in the past, i doubt this time would be any different. i've felt like a burden to her hand, i recant the days where i felt any blissfulness. i was stolen away like a bird from her nest, those murderers left her little ones to die a cold death while they kept their poor, old mother to be their brand new pet. now, can you imagine how i felt? she took my heart & squeezed it until all the blood ran down her hands. how could i ever say the words 'i love you' again? i feel betrayed. when i went into this, i didn't think that it would be a phase, i didn't even think that it would end at all. this is what i have to say about love.

it all started when i wanted you to give your hand into me, i'll keep it safe forever. through any weather, any trouble, i'll keep it from harm's way. believe me when i tell you i love you, i only know the truth to say. you've touched my heart in ways i can't describe. truly luv, i only aim to be your guide to a blissful life, it didn't take long for me to realize that everybody knows about us, i, for one, never liked the attention. i claimed you as my love w/ my whole heart in front all of them, disloyalty's never been my intention. i show my all, my effort stood tall next to your expectations, your pleasure is my pleasure. you know my heart, luv, you know what i don't like. the constant eyes on our life isn't something i can let glide by. let's run away, farther than their eyes can see, let's run away, let's go today, unload your baggage, let's be free. i don't like constantly feeling judged, i don't care for their opinions, but i'd rather be far away, just you & me. allow me to love you when you come into my world, allow me to welcome you when i come in contact with the light that shines on my soul, i feel it in my bones. i love being around your figure, it calms me down. you always serenade me w/ your prowess, the sounds of your voice make my ears melt into butterflies. look into my eyes, you'll never see a lie, i've caught onto your wildfire, you move vastly to my side. i love you more than you realize. you make me feel whole again, the joys i missed out on as kid, you give me control of them. i don't know what i owe for this. i love all that you are, i never want to stop feeling this. my eyes get larger every time i see you look at me, sometimes it's not your eyes that look at me, i see the things you want me to see. i stand there & daydream about you & me, i'm a sucker for these tendencies, they always feel good to me. your existence's my entity, w/o you i can't be me, w/o your power, there's no holding me, i love all that you are to me. i don't know what changed me, it was all going so well... then you did something that repulsed me & i've been thinking twice ever since. it doesn't matter that your sorry, it matters that you did it, if you can't understand that then i guess we're finished. gone before we even started, but don't question my ability to fight, i've stayed up for long, sad nights trying to make us right. all i want is to feel what i felt when i first met you, that blissful feeling, that loving feeling, that only feeling, you. truth be told i won't ever feel anything like that again, you ruined it, it is what it is. at least that's what i told myself. after things didn't go as planned with us, i went elsewhere looking for the spark we once were, i went out looking for lost love. i came to a couple red lights, slighted by a person i could walk w/ pride, it tore me from the inside. after a while i finally realized, i had very shallow eyes, all along i was the one to fight. i wasn't faithful to our side from the start, that's why our minds started to collide. i swore to keep your best interest but i only knew of mine. i realize i'm the problem, i wish i could rewind time. i'm coming to you now, in hopes i shrink that growing cloud of darkness that buries you into a sinking ground where you think you're better off alone because my love was showed wrong. i'm coming to you now, as someone whose been alone, but it ain't no better than a coffin, i found asylum in you : my home. i know i may have made you feel worthless, & for that i swear to wholeheartedly make amends. i know i may have made you feel repugnant, but this ain't where the story ends. from the birth of our love to these seemingly adolescent stages there's always much to learn, but i fear if we pull back the veil & see what's really there, our isn't even a full 1 year old. whether small.. or whether tall, there is still so much room to grow. i don't want to be alone.. w/o u on this dark, scary road. mentally, i've been scared of being closed off, but as we continue w/ each other there's one thing true. how can one search for love, when that feeling has always been in front of you? it's not about distracting me from myself & it ain't about distracting you from you. i feel if we continue to communicate & compromise, we'll be able to rekindle the fire, we once slew. we're both young, that's true but there's no reason to forget that when one bridge breaks we can always build the next. i'm coming to you now w/ a brain load of regret, hoping to blow away the growing dark clouds that float around you. i'm coming to you now, w/ half of my heart in my hand... hoping to intertwine it w/ yours... because, i love you.

alas, all things must come to an end, forever ain't forever on Earth. i never thought i'd lose my way. i booked my away stay far before i saw your face. i apologize for my unforgiving ways, i wish i could understand love but i'm not so brave. let my hazed eyes tell you, "i'm not okay". this is what i'd say about love.