Dark roots

Chapter 29

ASHLEY POV:

What is happening to me right now, I'm sitting here staring at Jhonny as if I have just seen him in a totally different light. When the truth is, he's always been there for me, he's nice and helps me out, makes sure I'm safe. But never did I get these tingles in my stomach when he touched me, but when his hand brushed my cheek, it felt like my skin was on fire.

This isn't right, I can't do this to Simon. Simon, the guy I'm in love with but who didn't even care to come looking for me. My mind was racing, maybe there wasn't anything between us other then sleeping together, or at least from his side.

Especially now that Chloe has returned. He hadn't even tried talking to me about it, I had to hear about it from Gaz.

I was pulled back to reality when I noticed Jhonny moving a little closer to me again, my breathing became heavy. Was he going to kiss me?

But the sound of footsteps coming closer towards us, made us snap out of it and we both turned to where the noise came from.

A shadow appeared from in between the bushes, once the moonlight lit up the place, I noticed Simon making his way over to us.

I immediately felt guilty, not that we did anything wrong yet but I was about to kiss his best friend and I'm not sure if we would've stopped in time if he didn't walk in when he did.

"There you are, you guys have been gone for hours I was getting worried." He said as he walked over to us, stopped right behind us.

He reached me his hand and I took it as he helped me up to my feet, but I immediately created some distance between us. I took in a deep breath and slowly released it.

Gosh my head was still all over the place from what just happened, how me and Jhonny almost kissed and even worse, how I leaned in because I wanted for him to kiss me. I was imagining what his lips would taste like, what it would feel like.

Jhonny also stood up, having them both stand right next to each other with their eyes starting at me. My gaze switched from Simon to Jhonny and back to the ground. I was ashamed, mostly because I liked it.

"Shall we go back?" Simon asked me before he reached out his hand once more for me to take it.

"I- I want to be alone tonight. I'll see you tomorrow." I couldn't breath, my heart was racing in my throat.

Without waiting for any reaction from them, I turned around and walked back towards the base and into my room. I couldn't be near either of them right now.

I was laying in bed, sure that Simon would come by anyway since we always do that. But not tonight. I should be happy about it, it's what I asked of him but somehow I still felt sad.

I had the most awful night sleep that night, I stayed awake for hours and even had a nightmare after I finally did manage to fall asleep. That my dad would storm down the base and get to me.

Because of this, I stayed in bed for longer then I usually do. I wasn't in the mood to talk to people, nor did I had an appetite. So I decided to skip breakfast and go to the spot I went to last night.

I wasn't sure what I wanted anymore, or maybe who I wanted.

Thankfully we had a day off, and most of them were spending their time in the training area, which meant I was able to have some time to myself.

It feels like I just entered some weird alternate universe, Simon had kept his distance. He seemed to be mad that I told him I needed some time to myself. It's not like I was lying, I needed to get my head straight. Nor have I seen him since he almost walked in on me and Jhonny kissing.