Always Hidden

Chapter Seven

Once I heard Michael snoring I hung up the phone and walking into Marcus room, yes Marcus has his own room at Kayla house. "Mommy can I watch tv before I sleep ?" He asked in his innocent voice "no baby I think we need to talk about something" I said sitting on his little bed "ok" I looked at him "do you think mommy and daddy should still be mommy and daddy ?" I said trying to make sense for his little head

"I'm confused mommy"

"Do you think it should be mommy, daddy and Jamarcus or mommy and Jamarcus ?"

"I like mommy and Jamarcus better" he said smiling and laughing fixing himself in his blankets, I smiled "so do you think mommy should leave daddy alone ?" I said laying down with him "we already left him alone mommy" he said yawning which caused me to yawn "Marc I think you should understand mommy and daddy aren't really happy anymore so I'm asking you would you be sad or upset that mommy and daddy aren't together anymore ?"
"No mommy" he said sounding annoyed I laughed and waited until I was sure Marcus was fast asleep I really wanted to sleep with him but that bed was not made for adults. so I got up and walked into Kayla's room and heard nothing but snoring I laughed and walked into the guest room, I couldn't even try sleeping I have so much on my mind I really don't want to be with Michael anymore.

I always felt like I was forced.. well actually I can't say that because it's my decision if I wanted to stay or go. I chose to stay because of Jamarcus even though he doesn't care about his dad but you know miracles can happen. It got really cold in this room fast I walked towards the window and closed the window, I walked half way to the bed when I realized I never opened the window, I ran out the room and ran into Jamarcus room I grabbed him and ran into Kayla's room

"Kayla Kayla Kayla" I said tapping her back

"Leah what is wrong with you ?" She said waking up

"My window is opened and I didn't open it, did you ?" I said sounding scared to death

"Leah I opened it I thought it was really hot in this house, I'm sorry for scaring you" she said sounding annoyed I looked at her and Marcus and started to cry "I'm so scared" I put Jamarcus down in her bed and sat down and wiped my tears "oh no Leah don't cry, why are you so scared ?" She asked rubbing my back

"He is fucking crazy Leah, he will fucking kill me and Jamarcus I.. I don't want to even think about losing my baby" I said trying to stop crying but it really wasn't working. She hugged me and began to cry too "I'm sorry for bringing this craziness here Kayla, I'm so sorry" I said crying harder "shut up" she said wiping my tears "we have to call the police or something Leah do you realize your scared as shit, leah this isn't okay" she said sounding pretty upset

"I know, but I don't want to do that because it wouldn't matter to him Kayla, you don't think I tried it before ? He came right to mom house lied to her told her I called him, came upstairs threatened me, my mother, and Jamarcus life if I screamed yell or whatever he beat the shit out of me Kayla and he fucking raped me and had the nerve to say "I love you Leah" and I didn't say it back so he smacked me I'm not going through that shit again fuck that" I said crying she just hugged me and held me tight. There is so many things Michael did to me and I feel dumb as shit for being with him still I clearly have no brain. I laid down next to Jamarcus and cuddled with him until I fell asleep.