Incongruity

her/him

How did I end up here? Falling for her in love with him while falling for him in love with her while she's starting to fall for me too? The triangle of emotions and feelings is both restriction and freedom all at once. Like sitting in the forest trapped in a straight jacket. I love his gentle eyes, his kind demeanor. I love his compassion and his sense of justice. I love his laugh and his blush is so cute. But her- I love her eyes and the sadness present there. I'd like to love that sadness, watch the shadows retreat and see the light return to those beautiful eyes. And her smile that harldy ever reaches her eyes- I'd like to love that smile so that it warms the hearts of those that see it because my goodness is she breathtaking when she truly smiles. And her ability to love through the harshest situations- I've never known anyone to go through nearly as many horrible things and still come out of it able to love unrestricted. I love the way her hand feels in mine, the shapes she traces with her fingers. The short glances that linger a bit too long, the tension in the air. I've never wanted to feel someone's lips against mine nearly as badly as I do hers, and wrapping her in my arms feels like coming home. I can see her becoming the wind when she passes, full of energy and always moving. Unstoppable, resilient, beautiful wind. And the ache in my heart as I watch hers break over a great guy. A fantastic guy, a great guy who's going to get the girl and I'm going to support it because they're both so beautiful and they're both so wonderful and I'm so.. broken. Will I too be loved by the wind, kissed by the sun? Will my beauty make the hearts of others ache one day? At the end of the day I'm left grateful. I'm okay with how things are and I'll enjoy this crush while it lasts. While I last. While I come in last again.