London, once blue, now red

Truth or dare

All I can think about is Leah. All I want is Leah. I just want to take her home and be with her alone so I can get to know her better. Is this what love feels like? I am consumed solely by Leah, but no one could ever know I like girls. What would happen if they found out Millie doesn't mind But what about everyone else? What would they think?

Beth: "Isla, Isla"
You feel someone's hand squeeze your thigh. I follow the arm to find Leah smiling at me. She leans her head towards Beth. I turn to look at her.
Isla: "Yeah, sorry, what were you saying."
Beth: "Truth or dare."
Isla: "Ummm, can neither be an option"
Beth: "Absolutely not."
Isla: "Fine truth then."
Beth: "Who do you find most attractive at this table."
Isla: "I'm not sure. I haven't really thought of you guys in that way, but if I were to pick someone, I would say Viv," I say jokingly.
Beth: "Hey, she's mine."
Viv just rolls her eyes, not wanting to entertain in our childish behaviour.

The game keeps continuing across the table until it gets to Millie
Millie: "Leah truth or dare"
Leah: "Let's go for a dare."
Millie: "Kiss the person you want to be with the most that's at the table"
Leah looks around for a moment, taking in everyone's faces. I watch as she looks at everyone, one by one, but all I can think about is her soft, warm lips on mine. I want nothing more than to be kissed and engulfed by Leah's touch, but I really don't want to be kissed in front of all these people. Most of them think I am straight. Suddenly, I felt a hand pulling my chin; it was Leah. She looks at my eyes, then down to my lips, and then back to my eyes.
Leah: "Is this okay."
All I can do is nod in response, and my body feels numb. Butterflies are flying within my stomach. Leah leans in and kisses me. It wasn't a long kiss, but long enough; we opened our eyes and pulled apart. Everyone was staring at us. I couldn't take it; I felt so embarrassed.

I stood up to go to the bathroom when I felt Leah's arm grab mine, but I shook it off and continued towards the restroom. I quickly found the first open cubical and closed the door. I feel my body shrink as I slide against the wall of the stall into a ball on the ground. I can't help but cry. I had never wanted people to know I liked girls; I was always scared to like girls because of what people said to me at school, so I just never saw it as an option. Now, I was afraid of what people would think of me.

Suddenly, I heard a knock on the cubicle door
Leah: "Isla are you okay? I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable"
Isla: "No, it's okay" I saw as my voice sounded shaky
Leah: "Hey, what's up? Open the door."
I opened the door and let her in. She looked at me and then closed the door behind her. I just continue to bury my head in my hands. I felt Leah slide against the opposite wall, so we were facing each other. She grabs my head and runs her hand through my hair while I let out sobs. She doesn't say anything; she just comforts me, which I appreciated as I wasn't really sure what had gotten into me or why I was truly that upset; it didn't matter, right I was just scared of what people would think of me. I look up to reach Leah's eyes. She grabs my face with both of her pals and rubs her thumbs across my cheeks.
Isla: "I'm sorry"
Leah: "Hey, no, I'm sorry, I wouldn't have kissed you if I......."
I grab the back of her neck, pulling her lips towards mine while her hands are still cupped against my cheeks. We were engulfed in a slow but passionate kiss. The room is full of lust and love. I feel myself relax within her touch until reality hits me.

I move my lips away from Leah and push her back a bit
Isla: "I'm sorry. I don't know what I'm doing; I can't do this."
Why am I running away? I really like Leah, right? I have never felt so much love for someone in my entire life, and my body is trying to run; why?
I pull myself up using the wall to lean against as the room feels like it's spinning. I want to run away so bad, but I can't focus.
Leah: "Isla, it's okay; we can figure this out."
I can hear Leah talking, but I can't find the words to talk
I can feel the pressure and anxiety of today coming up from my stomach and into my throat. I quickly lift the toilet lid and empty the regret of tonight into the bowl.
I feel Leah circling her palm against my back, but I feel weak as I continue to throw up into the toilet.
Leah: "Hey, are you okay."
I shake my head in response as my body falls to the floor, leaning up against the wall as I can't hold my body any longer.
Leah: "Should I get Millie" "Isla", "hey, what's wrong? Can you tell me"
I can hear Leah talking to me, but I can't stay awake any longer. I feel my eyes shut, and my body slides against the wall, hitting the floor.

Millie: "Hey, are you guys okay? You have been gone awhile."
Leah: "No, it's Isla."
Leah opens the cubicle door, and Millie steps in and shuts the door.
Millie "Fuck Leah, what happened? Why didn't you come and get me."
Leah: "Sorry, Millie, it's just happened, and I didn't want to leave her here by herself."
I feel Millie lean down next to me and shake my body
Millie: "Isla, Isla, can you open your eyes for me"
All I can do is groan in response. I feel too sick to even move my body. I feel frozen with anxiety.
Millie: "Leah, grab her other arm. Help me take her home."
You feel Leah and Millie swing you to your feet with both your arms wrapped around both of their shoulders. I can barely walk as they drag me out of the bar and into a cab. Millie puts you and Leah in the back seat. Leah is sitting on a far seat while your head is in her lap, and Millie gets in the front to tell the cab driver where to go.
I feel Leah's hands run through my hair and caress the side of my face.
I hear her continually mumbling "I'm so sorry" under her breath.
I turn to look up towards her and see a stray tear trickle down her cheek. I find the strength to move my hand to wipe the tear away.
Isla: "Please don't cry" I saw in a whisper
Leah looks down at me in shock
Leah: "Hey, are you okay" "i am so sor~."
I interrupt her before she can finish
Isla: "Im okay; it's not your fault"
Leah: "Okay, try to go to sleep", she says as she continues to run her hands through my hair and down my back.

I feel my eye's start to shut until suddenly, I feel myself being lifted out of the car as Millie and Leah pull me out of the cab towards the apartment's front door. They both drag me through the door and to my room. Placing me on the bed while Millie takes off my shoes and Leah wipes over my face with a makeup wipe.
Isla: "Thank you", I say in a whisper
Leah: "Sshhhhh, go to sleep, get some rest", Leah says as she runs her fingers through my hair.
Millie: "Thanks, le" "You can stay here tonight if you want. It's pretty late."
Leah: "That would be great, thanks, Mills" "Hey, I'm sorry for tonight."
Millie: "You have nothing to apologise for", she says as she wraps her arms around Leah, bringing her into a tight hug, then kissing her on the forehead before she lets go.
Millie: "I will bring some blankets, and you can sleep on the couch in Isla's room. Is that okay?"
Leah: "Yeah, that's fine. I want to keep an eye on her anyway."
Millie brings some blankets and a pillow to Isla's room for Leah.
Millie: "Hey, try to get some sleep; please don't stay up worrying about her all night."
Leah: "I won't, I promise."
Millie: "Goodnight"
Leah: "Goodnight"

—————————————————————————Hey, I hope this is okay I'm still getting used to this whole writing thing and making up a story line as I go. I am doing this for fun anyways but I hope its okay. 😁