Little bird with broken wings.(SWS+ATL+PTV)

Anxiety

I sighed and faced the others with a smile. "I've been trying to finish that song for almost a year now."I said, "thank you." They smiled back at me. "Never be afraid to ask us for help. I hardly ever write a whole song without someone else's opinion. " Alex replied and I smiled. "How did you learn to scream like that?" Kellin asked. I shrugged, "I'm just that awesome ." Jack chuckled and we all felt the bus stop at the same time. "Time flies." Jack mused before pulling me into a hug. He put his guitar up as I did with mine and I followed Kellins direction to the buses bathroom and applied some make up and brushed my straight hair before changing into a baggy Sleeping with Sirens t shirt and some ripped gray skinnies with combat boots. I shoved my old clothes in my bag alone with my make up and brush then followed the sound of chattering to the lounge. I found all of SWS along with PTV watching a video on Kellins laptop. I raised my eyebrows. How did they all get here so fast? I was ripped out of my thoughts when I heard the sound of my own screaming and realized Kellin was playing Lydia's song for them. I smiled a little. I opposed the idea at first but, I realized Lydia would want me to share my music and I told the guys they could show the song to others. They seemed to notice my presence and I took pride in the fact they all had glassy eyes when the song finished. "I knew you were good but, wow." Mike stated. I smiled a little. "Thanks." They all made comments about the song as we walked into the venue for sound check and set up.

I hung around backstage and talked to either Tony or Alex mos of the time. All time low performed first then Mayday Parade then Sleeping with Sirens and PTV was gonna go last. I was still buzzed from the other performances when I heard my name being spoken. I watched Kellin on stage. "Well, we made a new friend a few days ago and well all of us decided she needed to sing a song for you guys tonight. Please welcome our very own little bird, wren! " I heard cheers as Kellin paused before adding, " Assisted with All Time Lows very own Jack Barakat." I felt someone hand me my guitar and a mic. I looked up just as Jack came behind me with his guitar and two stools. I followed him nervously out onto the stage. Kellin hugged me before disappearing off the stage with his band. I sat on one of the stools as Jack settled next to me on the other. I smiled shyly at the screaming fans. "Well, as Kellin mentioned my name is Wren. What he failed to mention is I had no idea this was planned." I said into the mic earning some laughs. "Okay now that I've introduced myself I'm just gonna shut up and play. This song means a lot to me, it's called Lydia's song." I sat the mic on a stand in front of me and started the opening chords and once again released every ounce of emotion I have into the song as I sang.

The crowd swayed to my song and sang along the second time I hit the chorus. I screamed my heart out and heard them cheer as I finished my song with soft sad voice. I noticed more than one person with tears on their faces as they cheered for me. I picked the mic back up. "Thank you. That song meant a lot to me," more cheers "I loved sharing it with you so please enjoy the next artist and personal friends of mine. Pierce the veil." The crowd screamed as I exited the stage with Jack and the PTV boys hugged me with smiles before running onto stage. Someone took my guitar and handed me a water bottle. I chugged it and turned to face Jack. I hugged him before turning back to the stage. "Well what did you guys think about Wren?" Vic called and I heard loud screaming. He smiled, "Yeah we though so too. Alright guys lets make some noise." He screamed and I flinched when I felt arms wrap around me. I turned to see it was just Alex and hugged him back. He seemed a little concerned but, didn't say anything before pulling back. "You look a little pale why don't you come sit down with me?" He asked and I allowed him to pull me into a room with a couch. I sat down just as I felt it. The same panic I felt when I used to have an anxiety attack. My anxiety wasn't triggered by the crowd more like by my sheer exhaustion from being on guard 24/7 for the past year. I felt my breathing become short and I gasped trying to get oxygen in my lungs. I felt like people were staring at me and judging me. I felt all the sadness and fear from being alone for the past year. I heard Alex trying to calm me down. "Bird you need to calm down. It's alright." He said soothingly I heard the door open and someone gasped. I started shaking and dropped my water bottle. I heard Alex curse then I looked up to see Jack in the door way. I kept gasping and heard Alex shout at him to get Kellin then in the next minute he was gone. I felt Alex try to give me water but, I was shaking to bad. I tried to count with him like he said but chocked on the words and couldn't say them. I heard running and Kellin was instantly at my side hugging me. I heard talking and someone mentioned if I didn't calm down they would have to call an ambulance. I heard Kellin shushing me and felt him rocking back and forth. I started to focus on his words and felt my breathing slow some. I heard more footsteps then Vic's worried voice and he took my hand. I squeezed it lightly and I started to push myself into a sitting position next to Kellin. I placed my feet flat on the ground and straightened my back. I took deep breaths and felt my heart slow before opening my eyes. I was still shaking but figured I was calm enough to talk. "I'm fine." I croaked and Alex immediately handed me a water bottle which I gratefully took and took slow sips from instantly feeling better. I leaned on Kellin. "Has that ever happened before?" Jack asked and I nodded. "I used to get panic attacks a lot as a kid. I kinda quit for a while but, I think the pain from being alone for so long finally hit and it came back." I sighed, "I will probably have them every now and then for a while but, probably not that bad." I spoke in almost a whisper. I saw everyone relax a little. "Do you want me to take you to our bus until everyone finishes up?" I heard Alex ask and I remembered reading somewhere he used to have panic attacks a lot. I nodded and hugged a concerned Kellin who seemed more spooked than me, and a very concerned Vic. Jack pulled me into a hug and scolded me lightly for scaring him, before he let me go and I took Alex's hand as he led me to the bus.