37 days: Holding on 2 broken promises

37 days

POV
X

It's early in the evening, Friday. I haven't spoken to Millie since Wednesday after the harsh encounter we last had. Today is the day she gets to move into her apartment. Although I'm not necessarily happy about the other night, I'm happy for her. She gets the new beginning that she's been longing for. I think back to Wednesday night, seeing Millie with Nico, I didn't know my heart could break any further than it already had. They were going to the hotel room, what were they going to do? I can't even go there with that fucking thought, it kills me. When I left, she probably nursed Nico back to health and he probably used it to his advantage.

That night, I came home to a clean house, not a drop of evidence to be left behind from Adria. I laid in bed with the sound of that crack playing in my mind, I knew it'd haunt me. I've never killed anyone that way before but my options were limited that night. I couldn't have large amounts of blood in my house so I did it in a way that would keep it to a minimum. I thought about suffocating her, I may be an asshole but I'm not the devil, I wanted something quick. Even though Adria made me suffer mentally, I didn't have it in me to make her suffer physically for minutes on end.

Julian is here in the penthouse lounging on the couch with a drink in hand, I told him about what happened, everything that happened that night. He was indifferent about the whole Adria thing as I figured he would be and told me to keep giving Millie time to figure shit out in her head. If she wants to be with Nico I can't stop her, I meant what I wrote in those 20 answers, I want her to be happy even if it isn't with me. I would rather carry the weight of the pain while she takes a chance at happiness.

There's a light knock on the door and this time I know better than to think it'd be Millie. I open the door and it's Stephanie.

"Oh, hey, come on in, your lazy ass boyfriend is getting on my nerves," I say moving out of the way to let her in.

"You're not the only one," she rolls her eyes and laughs.

"Hey!" Julian says sitting up as we talk shit about him in front of his face.

"Oh, X, I have something for you," Stephanie says pulling out a white envelope from her purse.

"What is it?" I ask confused.

"It's from Millie," she says handing it over to me.

"Do you know what it's about?" I ask curiously.

"No, she didn't say, she just asked me to give it to you before I came here," she explains shrugging her shoulders.

The nervous look on her face either indicates that she really doesn't know what's in here or that she does but it's bad news.

"Uh, yeah, okay, thanks, I'm just gonna go open this in my room," I say scratching the back of my head nervously.

"Okay," she says quietly.

I turn away from her and go down the hall to my room. I'm nervous as fuck, I'm 99.9% sure it's a breakup letter. I almost don't even want to open it but I can't keep myself in delusion.

I sit on the corner of the bed with my feet planted on the ground.

I open the envelope, my fingers are trembling, it feels like there's something other than a letter in here.

I take out the letter from the envelope, there's a penny inside? I'm beyond confused, I hold the penny in my hand and unfold the letter with with my trembling fingers.

"Okay, here goes," I say to myself overtaken with anxiety.

X,

37 days, It has taken me 37 days to dislike you, to like you, to love you, to hate you, and to forgive you. No matter how hard I try, I can't give you up, no matter how hard I try, I can't stop loving you, so the only thing I want to stop trying with you, is fighting myself for what I really want, fighting myself, you. Our lives may be nothing alike, but we are. We have an undeniable love and understanding for one another and without the other half of me, I'm not truly me. My mom always told me that in the rare occasion that when you throw a penny into a fountain, you should always give it to someone else when your wish comes true so that they can have the luck to have theirs come true. So, X, I give you my penny so that your wish too, can come true.

Love,
Millie

Oh, my fuck!

I was not expecting this in the fucking least. I have tears falling from my eyes but for the first time in my life, they're happy tears. I need to get to her, and I have a pretty darn good feeling I know where she is.

I rummage through my drawers looking for a penny. "Got it!" I say to myself as I pick it up the copper between my fingers.

I run out of the bedroom, Julian and Stephanie are sitting on the couch cuddled together, I've caught their attention with my frantic attempts to leave, and I throw Julian the penny.

"The fuck?" He asks in complete confusion.

I chuckle, "Go home guys."

I leave them in the penthouse as I fly down the stairs, the elevator is just not fast enough. I run through the halls until I reach the front door. I turn the knob and rush out the door.

There she is, sitting on the ledge of the fountain wearing my black hoodie. I can't help but smile like an idiot at the sight of her. I run down the steps, two at a time, and by some miracle, I don't fall. I run to the fountain out of breath and stand in front of her.

"Are you serious?" I ask her in disbelief still.

She nods her head and I drop to my knees in front of her, making my fists into a ball to the sky, "Thank you god, thank you!" I say to the heavens.

I stand up again, picking her up and twirling her around with a big sloppy kiss. She laughs at my childish behavior as I set her back down.

She cradles my face in her palms and shrugs her shoulders, "Xavier, what on earth is the point of being alive if you're not really living?"