Promises

Chapter Four

I then went down to where the adults were to help them clean the clothes. I think that they forgot that I was there because they started talking about dirty things! Eww! I wasn't listening to the convocation but I could still hear them about something called a vibrator, I don't know what it is but I know that it's a grown up thing. I've heard about it before and when I asked daddy he told me to never mention it again. I didn't really wanna listen to the convocation, I just wanted to help but Andrea didn't think that it was fair. I wasn't really paying attention, I was humming to myself when Ed threw clothes at Andrea.
They all started getting into a big fight until Shane suddenly walked over and a started fighting Ed. I started screaming, I was terrified.
"STOP SHANE!" I yelled and he looked up at me before stopping.
"I'm sorry, Jas." He muttered before walking away.
I just ran up to camp. I had to get out of there. I ran to Lori and hugged her, she hugged me back. "What's wrong?" She asked.
"You'll see" I replied.
She just held me close and stroked my hair. It reminded me of how I imagined what my mom would do, if I was ever upset, she'd stroke my hair and sing in my ear. I wish that she was real. She did it for about three minutes before I got up, slowly.
I just laid on the floor and no one seemed to do anything about it. I guess people were used to it, I did this all the time. I watched Andrea and Amy walk past with a load of fish. I watched them cook the fish. I sat up when I was given a plate of fish. I ate it slowly. Saving every last moment. It was so nice! I wasn't even paying attention to Dales mumbo jumbo.
I suddenly heard screaming. Lori grabbed onto my arm and pulled me up. She pulled me along, she tried to keep hold of me but she let go. A shot when off right next to my ear. I started tilting, leaning from side to side. My ear was ringing, I could hardly hear anything. I followed the adults as best as I could. We got to the RV and I leaned against it, I slowly slid down behind a rock. I saw daddy and tried to get up but I just fell back down. He didn't notice for a bit, he was busy killing walkers. Once they were dead, he started looking around. "JAS! JASMINE!" He mouthed.
I tried to lift up my arm but I couldn't. Then my hearing was back, he was screaming my name. I got up slowly. "Daddy!" I whispered. Then louder. "Daddy!"
He ran over and hugged me. He picked me up and held me s close as he could without hurting me. I hadn't realised that I was crying until daddy looked at me and wiped my eyes. "I promised that I would be back and I am!" He reminded me, I just hugged him.

The next morning I woke up in mine and daddy's tent. I looked around but he wasn't there. Where could he have have gone? I got worried. I jumped out and ran to the RV. He was there. Making sure that the already dead walkers are dead. I see Andrea. I walk over to the group and sat down watching the others burn the bodies. I jumped when Glenn had a little freak out. He scared me.

We were standing there, watching Andrea pull Amy into her 'grave'. I ran to daddy and buried my face into his chest. No tears came out and that was what scared me. I didn't go at first. I stood there, staring at the graves. I only started walking when Rick called my name, I walked with them. Lori and Rick stopped to talk and sent us off ahead.
"Are you sad?" I asked.
"Of course" he replied "why?"
"Because I don't want you to become used to this, I don't want you to change" I whispered, looking at my feet.
"Really? Why?" He asked.
"Well, because I like you" I replied "AS A FRIEND!" I just ran off back to camp.
I completely embarrassed myself in front of Carl. I lied to Carl. I didn't like him as a friend, I like like him. I like his eyes, his smile and his laugh but he'd never like me in that way. I'll always be the girl who survived with him. Nothing more. Not a friend. No matter how much I try to convince myself, I'll always just be a companion.

I didn't listen to Rick and Shane's talk, I couldn't bare it. I went to Daddy's truck and sat there until daddy joined me. I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my chin on them. I closed my eyes and started to fall asleep, until daddy stopped the truck. I woke up and looked behind. They were taking Jim out of the RV. I wanted to say good bye so I jumped out and ran to him. I stood in front of him.
"Good bye" I whispered and wiped my eyes so the tears forming wouldn't fall.
I then went back to the truck before people saw me crying. I went over to the truck and went to the bike. I saw a bag and decided to be nosey. I opened it and there was a gun! I quickly took it and slipped it into my jeans.