Promises

Chapter Twenty four

I walked back to the cell block. Somehow, knowing the way. I went outside to the courtyard and walked into a weird scene. Rick was laying on the floor, dad was getting into his motorcycle with Maggie.
"Where are you going?" I asked my dad.
"To get the baby some formula." I knew what that meant. Lori hadn't made it. "You'll be okay. Try and get to know the place."
"I remember everything." I told them.
"How?" Hershel asked.
"I beat the man who shot me to death with a pipe." I informed them, "It helps bring back the memories."
"You okay?" George whispered in my ear.
"Get away from me." I spat as I walked over to Carl.
I may be mad at him for not telling me but he just lost his mum. He looked at me and I pulled him into a hug. I'd yell at him later but for now. I needed to be his friend.
Dad drove away and Rick went off somewhere. Me and Carl started walking off to go inside the cell block with everyone else.

I went straight to mine and George's cell and got all of my stuff. I decided that it would be best if I was alone for a little bit so I found an empty cell and moved in.

Why didn't he tell me what happened? All he had to say was that Carl threw me to the side. That he started having feelings for Beth and dumped me. When Carl realised that he wanted me back, I'd moved on.

I got a sniper rifle and went up one of the towers. I wanted to make sure that nothing else was going to happen. From up here, I could see everything. I stayed there all night. I went back into the cell block at one point but the baby wouldn't stop crying so I left. I saw dad come back but if I went back there I'd have to face George and Carl. I couldn't bring myself to do it. Not yet, at least.

So that I wouldn't have to go to the cell block, I spent the night in the tower. The next morning, I woke up and started watching. I saw dad go up to Carol's grave and place a flower there. I could feel tears falling down my face.

I couldn't go back. If I did, I would just break down. I'd remember everyone who we've lost. I needed to get out of here. I needed to go on a run. I needed to be useful. I needed to do something. 

I had got my bag in the middle of the night. I opened my bag and pulled out a pair of scissors. My hair was in a ponytail so I pulled the bottom of it. I quickly cut off my ponytail. I didn't let go of it because if I did then I let go of myself. I dropped my scissors and with my hand I pulled my hairband out. My hair was now shoulder length. The rest of my hair had been dropped and was scattered all around me feet. 

I saw Glenn and Maggie leaving so I quickly yelled down to them to wait. I ran as quickly as I could because I wanted to leave.
"Can I come with you?" I asked.
"Yeah. Jump in." Glenn said as he got into the car, "Like your hair."
"Thanks." I muttered

We stopped and got out to look around. The place looked like it was already taken for everything. As I got out, Maggie and Glenn were kissing and I pretended to puke. Glenn cut open the door and went in. Maggie stood outside the door and used her flashlight to let Glenn see. I was walking around, making sure that no walkers were going to sneak up on us.

"Where is it you good people call home?" I heard a familiar voice ask.
Maggie hid me behind the car door and got her gun out. I didn't trust Merle. I never did. I knew that he had something up his sleeve.
"Merge?" Glenn asked.

I crawled into the back of the car and covered my ears. I knew that someone was going to get shot and I was scared. Glass started raining down on me. I stayed in the car. I was scared to move. But as soon as Merle got in, he saw me.
"Jasmine?" Merle laughed, "Like what you've done with yourself."
"Like what you've done with your hand." I muttered.
"Shut up." He spat and I did.
I didn't want anything to happen to Maggie so I did as Merle said. Merle was in the middle, I was behind Glenn and Maggie was behind the passenger seat. He must know that if he does anything to me then dad would find out. Dad was going to find out about ALL of this...