prfct {kim minjeong x yu jimin}

16

two months later...

"we officially debut in 3 days. i'm so nervous, but so excited" jimin said, the past two months have been way too active and busy for them. of course, they aren't used to it. they're used to their daily school lives. however, that all changed. they've been living in the dorms together, they all enjoy the company. things are feeling more pressurized now that they're about to debut. they've learned the entire choreography for their debut single, 'Black Mamba' a while ago. now they're all worrying about perfecting it. they want their debut stage to be perfect. no mistakes, just perfection.

"i'm so nervous. i want this to be perfect, i don't want to mess up even the slightest bit." ning said

"out of all of us, you've practiced and perfected the most. you'll nail this 100%." minjeong said, with jimin and aeri agreeing right behind minjeong. it was near the end of the night, they were all about to head back to the dorms, but minjeong decided to stay a little longer. she wanted some time to herself, to work on her moves, to work on her voice, and just some time to think to herself.

if we were being honest, minjeong had been having a lot of struggles. she stays later on some practices because she fears she isn't good enough. the anxiety had been becoming too much. she knew she had her friends that she could count on, but she didn't want to. she didn't want to feel like a burden, so she kept it to herself. the three bid their goodbyes to minjeong, and all headed out. she grabbed her headphones and phone to get some music going, and saw that jimin had immediately texted her.

jimin<3

don't stress yourself too much.

you'll do great

you're amazing

i'll see you at home <3

it was simple and sweet, and it made minjeong's heart flutter. she read the messages from the notification center, but didn't reply. instead she just put the pre-recorded track on and started practicing the choreography. if she messed up, she'd immediately restart. she wouldn't move on until she got it right. she needed to nail this. she did not want to be the weak link, though there genuinely was no weak link.

"come on minjeong, it's a simple move why can't you nail it?" she thought to herself. practicing the same move over and over. it truly was a simple move. she was moving so much, she was drenched in sweat. she took her jacket off, throwing it out of frustration.

"burning the midnight oil?" minjeong heard, and she took her headphones off. it was their choreohrapher.

"i guess you could say that." minjeong replied with a slight chuckle.

"what's going on? i've noticed you stay later then everyone else, but this time it's different. for starters, you're drenched in sweat which we never see" she said

"i just want to perfect this" minjeong stated, which really was the truth.

"you already have, minjeong. you're too into your head. you fear you aren't perfecting it because you're worried about the debut stage. you all have learned so quickly, faster than any dancers i have ever taught in my whole career." she exclaimed

"what if i'm not good enough? is this really right for me? i'm scared we would have gone through all of this for nothing" cracks could be heard in minjeong's voice, she was tearing up, but didn't want to burst into tears.

"you don't go through hardships for nothing. it's never nothing. it's always a lesson and experience. sometimes we succeed, sometimes we fail, but the biggest take away from it all, is that it was never for nothing. if this debut doesn't go well, that doesn't mean you are terrible. it doesn't mean that you're a failure, it means that you took a leap, not knowing the outcome, so you could experience more, such as finding out if it was right for you or not. life always works itself out." 

"i just.. i don't know, i've dreamt of this my whole life. i don't want it to crumble." minjeong said

"for the past two months, i've taught you girls difficult choreographies, i've gotten frustrated with you just as you've gotten frustrated with me, but what i can say for sure, is that the four of you were meant to be idols. the moment i saw you guys and introduced myself, i knew this would be the best group that i work with, and i'm not saying that to make you feel better, this is genuinely how i feel." minjeong let her tears fall, and went in for a hug. she knew she was right, she knew that she had to just breathe and slow down.

"now, let's go over this together, okay? no thoughts, just dance, minjeong, dance." she said, and started the music back up. minjeong taking a deep breath and getting into position. she successfully did it, without missing a step. she did it all. not. one. mistake.

"i told you, minjeong. you were too into your head. now in..well now two days because it's past midnight, you are going to do absolutely perfect. just remember to breathe. don't think about the dance, just breathe and feel the music. the music will guide you. now go home and get some rest" minjeong smiled brightly, and quickly gathered her things. she made her way back to the dorms, and straight to the shower. once she was done showering and getting dressed, she sat in the living room.

"you stayed for some time" jimin said, slightly scaring minjeong.

"i did, i lost track of time." minjeong replied.

"are you okay?" jimin asked

"yeah, yeah i'm just nervous" she said, lowering her voice.

"we're all scared, minjeongie, terrified. i think we all want this to be perfect and want it to go smoothly." jimin said

"yeah, but not everything can go perfectly. i was practicing the dance over and over, and i was so frustrated with myself because i couldn't get it anymore. i was throwing things in frustration.. well by things i mean my jacket." minjeong chuckled towards the end

"why haven't you talked to me about this?" jimin curiously asked

"i didn't want to feel like a burden to anyone. i know we're all thinking similar things with this all, but i've just have always stayed to myself on my thoughts. until our teacher saw me practicing. she helped me. i got the choreography down. she told me that no matter how this goes, it was an experience and a lesson. then we practiced the dance, and told me to just breathe and feel the music. don't focus on the dance..." she slowly started getting lost in thought

"was that all?" jimin asked

"sorry, it just, i was thinking about it and now it's making me feel like i've been living life wrong. i've been so focused on doing the harder task, and hadn't had taken time to just breathe and let life move me.. until you. you, ning, and aeri. the three of you combined. you're my music. you're who helps me get through, who helps me experience life better."

"i'm glad you found that out minjeong" jimin laughed, and couldn't help but smile at her adorable girlfriend. it was as if a lightbulb went off in her head. she sat on the couch and cuddled with minjeong.

"jimin?" minjeong asked

"yes, love?" 

"do you think we'll still be okay? even when..or if.. fame gets to us?"

"minjeong, you will always have me. no person, thing, or fame could ever change that"

"okay" was all minjeong could let out before falling into a deep sleep. after a few minutes, jimin got up and carried minjeong to bed. placing a kiss on her forehead. jimin stopped and stared at her sleeping girlfriend.

"you have no idea how much i love you" jimin whispered, before leaving the room.