Night Shift [h.s]

forty seven

☁️ HARRY ☁️

The past twenty four hours had felt like a complete nightmare. I hadn't slept in a ridiculous amount of time, even when Lana had rested her head down on the hospital pillow that she kept complaining was crunchy, I couldn't possibly think of closing my eyes for even a minute. I couldn't take my eyes away from Lana. I physically could not move even an inch away from her without feeling such an incessant pressing need to be back by her side within an instant.

I had such a huge fear that something was going to happen to her if I wasn't right there by her side holding her hand and keeping my eyes upon her as if I was guarding the Crown Jewels in the Tower of London. Even when I stepped outside of the room for a few minutes to phone Lana's parents, my eyes stayed trained upon her from the window in the door. I just couldn't lose sight of her. My brain was just telling me that something awful would happen the second I stepped away or the moment I simply just looked out of the window at the view of the car park rather than at the woman I love.

I didn't want to miss a thing.

I was running on empty by this point but I still couldn't stop yet, even if Lana's contractions had stopped, I knew for a fact that the next twenty four hours were still pretty crucial. The medication had worked for now. But who was to say if it would still be successful in another twelve hours time. We had been told that once Lana reaches the forty eight hour mark, then we can be a little clearer on the plan going forward, but right now it was still a little touch and go. Her contractions could start again at any point, but so far, both her and our baby seemed to be doing pretty well considering the situation we were in.

Lana's parents had just arrived to visit her and attempt to take the load away from me bearing it all upon my shoulders, allowing it to weigh me down. No one seemed to understand that I wanted this weight upon my shoulders, I wanted to be the one next to Lana, I wanted to be the one to hold her hand and to love her through this. I didn't need anyone to take the load or to tell me that I should run home and take a shower, I wanted to be with her.

I felt so much better when I was right next to her. Even if I didn't want to be in this hospital and I didn't want Lana to be in a hospital bed with monitors on both her and the baby, there wasn't anything I could do about it and all I wanted to do was be by Lana's side. There wasn't any other place I'd rather be right now.

Lana was everything and more to me, why would I want to go home to shower and close my eyes for an hour or two? I belong right next to her.

But after quite some convincing from Lana and my mum, as well as Lana's parents now, I really did need to go and check on Harmony.

My mum had been texting me non stop since I dropped her off at her house. I knew at first she didn't want to alarm me too much, especially with everything going on at the hospital, but in the past few hours my mum really hadn't stopped stressing over how badly Harmony was coping with it all. Apparently she hadn't stopped screaming since she realised where she was and that Lana and I weren't with her. My mum said she had even taken her back to my house to maybe give her a bit of comfort there and she had invited Gem and Lois over to see if she'd want to play, but all she had done is sobbed on the sofa, begging for her mum.