The vibe: travel, food, slow burn, soft, Famousrry
ONGOING!
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Eloise DuPont is one of the world's best chefs. She is thriving with a new cookbook that just came out, jump starting her cooking class tour. Her relationship just ended and the only th...
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HARRY STYLES
Sometimes I just sit and watch while everyone bustles around. Someone will be snapping a photo, another reviewing a set list, perhaps someone is panicking because they think something is wrong with the lights schematic or sound set up. Meanwhile, I'm told to just sit back, relax, and not pay any of it a piece of mind, because I have to prepare myself.
I use the little time I have, about twenty minutes, before each show mentally preparing myself in one way or another. Sometimes I work out, I'll fuss with my hair because it's being too curly or not enough, there are times I will ask Mitch to come in and just chat, sometimes I put on a pair of sunglasses and head high in the stadium seats and just get a good look at what we are dealing with that night.
Every night on stage is different.
The vibes, the atmosphere, and the energy can never be matched. Sometimes it amazes me that so many people have found a safe space here, with me, embracing this moment we share together. I always figured once the band split up my life would change, but I never expected all of this. I remember in the earlier days of our hiatus, waiting and wondering what was going to come from it.
Honestly, I thought the fans would hate me. Hate us. Hate it all. Because we were taking something away from them that they loved so much. So many people wrote things on the internet about how we betrayed them, broke their heart, or just ruined their lives. I know it was an exaggeration but it still hurts to hear and see. I wasn't expecting anyone to support me after that, because I thought they would just blame us all for separating and changing our lives.
I consider all this whenever I am alone with my thoughts before a show. I remember the last time I was at the venue, the last time I saw the fan signs, the outfits, the smiles, the tears, all of it. When I was a boyband member I was fit into such a box and I became the heart-throb, the playboy, the womanizer, and anything else they dubbed me with. Nowadays I feel appreciated for being me, for sharing my talents, and getting to be more raw and authentic.
It might be all in my head, but I tell myself this is what I have worked for and seeing the fans appreciate me the same way I appreciate them makes it all worth it. We now have a mutual love for one another, unlike when I was in One Direction and it was more of a one sided love, of me trying to fit the mold that everyone wanted to love... they loved the concept of me more than the real me, and it was hard.
Tonight's festivities were going to be great because I had a small surprise up my sleeve. It's only a few nights into the tour, having already finished the Chicago and California nights. Plus one of the NYC shows already. I love MSG, the nostalgia it brings back from a previous tour hit me like a wave tonight the moment I stepped through the doors.
Love on Tour was a previous tour where I held a fifteen night residency under the MSG roof, and since then I was able to hear about Niall and Zayn holding multiple nights in the same arena. I couldn't be more proud and feel the same energy flooding over me that I felt back when I played here with all four guys. That was well over ten years ago, and yet the same paint still covers the walls of the back rooms. There is a blue couch that has been sitting in the hallway since I've known the arena, and the most updated thing in sight is the beverage carts.
