Taste (H.S. / A.U.)

Chapter 36

TRIPLE UPDATE: Chapter 34-36

ELOISE DUPONT

"And there you have it, a seared duck breast that is drizzled with raspberry chipotle sauce, and goat cheese mashed potatoes. Let's take a look at some of these creations!" All the attendees looked excited and giddy, their phones being pulled out to take pictures of the plates before them. There were some that rivaled my own plate, but overall we learned that drizzles are not for everyone because tonight we have heavy hands that do a bit more like a pour than a drizzle. 

I love everyone attempt though, because that's the thing with cooking, it never has to be perfect as long as you love it because the taste is far more important than anything. Everyone's tasted so perfect it blew me away, and that was what mattered to us all. I loved how happy people were with the finished product, allowing others to taste test and compliment. The kitchen comradery was in full swing and Jade was on the sidelines snapping shots of it.

Later, Jade will more than like post on Instagram the success of today's class, and that may have been why I dressed a little cuter than normal, a secondary layer of make up added, my hair touched up not once but twice. I am sure it wasn't because I was hoping Harry would see and like the post, because nowadays I have his phone number. It might seem like a simple thing, but waking up from my after-sex-nap to find a kind text from Harry before heading to catch my flight was a great surprise. 

Not that I needed the post sex affirmation, but it felt nice knowing that Harry had me on his mind. I wasn't sure how the time difference would affect us, but I tried to text him before he went on stage to tell him to break a leg and that we only had two dates of events separating us. Harry had two concerts and I had two classes and then we would be reunited and I would see him in all his glory. I knew how dangerous this was going to be, because seeing Harry in his element will only make the feelings grow somehow. I started putting almost all the parts of Chase out of  mind, pleased that he was no longer lingering in the majority of my thoughts and now Harry was the filler. I didn't know when or how it happened, but now I was here and so was Harry, occupying my mind.

Whenever Chase crossed my mind in the past it was darker thoughts, always nervous of our relationship and what dangers it held. I maybe knew he was cheating but never confronted the idea before it reared its way into my sight. Those thoughts turned into a hated for him that I could never expel, thinking that I would forever harbor those feelings and move on towards happiness. I thought loneliness was a better solution than opening myself up to anyone ever again. With Harry it was different, I didn't ever feel like something terrible was looming over me and the relationship, but instead faced the fearing of sharing my relationship with the world.

What relationship? It's not anything solid and you know that. 

Until then I was pretending in my mind that there was more to it than there was, but at least he was the perfect distraction to move on with. It's almost like Jade had this fated and planned for me from day one, making her snide jokes about me finding someone to use and move on with as I toured my way across the world. Harry because exactly what she envisioned, only I allowed feelings to start to wrap up into the scenario and now my mind was fighting with me nonstop about if this was a good idea or a recipe for me to get hurt sometime.