His Song

Chapter 15: Love and Lectures

I get up the next day and Adrienne and John drive me to the hospital where we were going to anxiously wait for Brendan to wake up from his mini-coma. I hope he actually wakes up and doesn't...die.

We go up to his room and see him still laying in the hospital bed in the same condition he was yesterday.

Brendan's P.O.V.

"Brendan, please," I hear Brianna say. I wanted to open my eyes, but they were forced shut. I tried to sit up, but my body was stuck. Well, I know I'm not dead. I really wanted to be, but what would Brianna do without me? I was, well, I am her first love, at least that's what I think I am. I'm in love with her. I want to tell her so bad that it kills me on the inside. Will she say it back? But for now I gotta try to wake up.

I can suddenly see myself lying in the hospital bed unconscious. I lift up my arm and see that I'm there, but no one can see me, hear me, except for my pale body in the white bed. Wait. Why isn't Brianna in school? She skipped school for me.

I look around the rest of the room and see a bright light coming from the doorway. I was always told not to go into the light. Does this mean death? Does everyone do this before they die? I guess I should find out.

If I do wake up, I need to say something to Brianna.

As I walk more toward the light, I hear a heart monitor speeding up. "We need a doctor now!" my dad yells. I hear doctors and nurses talking. "He should be up any second now," one says. No. I'm not waking up. I run into the light and regret nothing except the chance to not live my life with Brianna. Everything happens for a reason. I love you, Brianna Ashley Lawrence.

My eyes fly open and I gasp loudly. Holy shit. What just happened? "Brendan!" my mom says. I'm actually glad I can live my life.

I attempt to sit up, but my body was aching. I grunt in pain trying. "Hold on a sec," my dad says as he walk over to my bed. He hits a button that pushed the bed up to wear I could lay down, but see my mom, my dad, and Brianna. I say and half-smile, "Thanks." I look over and see Brianna sitting there smiling like a fool. She was happy, and so was I. I smile back and shed a few tears. I felt terrible for doing what I did. I look at my arms to see that my scars were almost completely gone. Dang, I heal fast!

"I'm sorry," I say holding back the sob in my voice. My mom comes over and hugs me and I hug her back. My dad does the same. "We're going to leave you two alone for a minute," she says and motions towards Brianna and me. We nod and they step outside the room and shut the door. How on Earth was this going to go down?

Let's start with Brianna giving me a long lecture about suicide and yadda yadda and how I shouldn't cut. She then goes to the soft and kind side of the lecture. "Brendan, I care about you. I told you to quit. You promised...you lied." Ouch. That hurt. I scoot over in the hospital bed and tap the empty space beside me, motioning her to come lay with me. Of course, she comes over and lays down right by my side.

"I promise I'll stop. I swear," I said, and I truly meant it. I wasn't going to do it again. Ever. Brianna asks, "Do you really?" I answer, "Yes. I do. Why would I leave a girl like you?" She looks at me, then asks confused, probably trying to confirm what I'm saying, "What are you trying to say?" I hesitate for a while, thinking if I should really say it or not. Will she say it back, or will she get up and leave? There's only one way to find out. "Iloveyou." I say it so fast that no one, not even a rapper, could understand what I just said. Brianna asks, "What did you just say?" I sigh and say it at a normal speed with meaning and truth. "I love you, Brianna Ashley Lawrence."

She doesn't reply with words. She leans in and I do the same. Our lips meet and move in sync. It may be her first kiss, but wow. It was passionate and meaningful. Does this mean she loves me back?