Later in the afternoon
"Honestly, Erika is right. If you are constantly afraid of ending up like your parents, then maybe you are not ready for marriage." Clarence said.
"I am ready for marriage but sometimes it just feels like it might-" I say before getting cut off.
"It's not, and besides, your relationship is way better than your parents' was." He spoke.
"Sammy if you didn't want your mom there then why is your dad coming?"
"To be honest, I keep having second thoughts about him being there, but I need to move on from the divorce that happened a couple of years ago." I said.
"But you can't since you keep thinking about it." Clarence stated.
I sighed. "Yeah I know Clarence."
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Flashback To Yesterday
"We need to talk." Erika said as she walked into the bedroom.
I looked up from my phone. "Okay what do you want to talk about?"
"I know we have been honest with each other in our relationship but I feel like you are not so please just be honest with me when I ask you this." She states.
I nodded and she continued to talk.
"You are not over it aren't you?"
"The divorce between my mom and my dad that happened when I was a kid, of course I moved on and it got no affect on me." I said.
It kinda does a little bit....
"You are not over it Sammy and you know that."
I chuckled. "Okay look Erika, I can or can't not but all I know is that I just don't want her and maybe my dad there I guess because who knows if our relationship might end up like theirs."
"That is what you think?"
"I am scared ok and I just want to get reminded or have memories of that past because I don't want to end up like my parents who literally don't even like each other anymore."
"You are not going to end up like them."
"You don't know that alright!" I exclaimed.
Silence filled the room until one of us spoke.
" You are probably not ready for marriage if you think you are going to end up like them." She said before leaving the room.
I am though but fuck it maybe I am scared......
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Flashback ended.....
"I love Erika and want to be with her until I die old but why the fuck can't I get the divorce out of my mind." I said.
"You need to see a therapist Sammy." Clarence says.
I scoffed. "Please I don't need a therapist." I put the groceries in the car before closing the trunk.
"You know you do and besides it is better for you than just living with the fear forever ." He stated.
I sighed. "I don't know man."
"Just think about it."
"Sammy is that you?"
A random voice was heard but it felt familiar and I could hear the sound of shoes walking towards us in the store parking lot.
"Is that Peyton, I thought she was living in Arizona?" Clarence questioned.
"Yeah she was but honestly I don't really care." I spoke.
"Sammy and Clarence it been a long time." Peyton said.
"Yeah the last time I saw you was sophomore year of high school." Clarence said.
"Yeah I moved to Arizona in my junior year because of my mom's new job." Peyton said.
"Ok that's cool." He said, looking uninterested right now.
"So Sammy sad you got injured but can't wait to see you play again." Peyton told me.
"What are you doing here back in California?" I asked.
"My cousin is getting married tomorrow so anyway are you and that person still together because knowing you it probably didn't last long."
That person and she knows damn what Erika's name is.....
I rolled my eyes at her. "I am still with her and matter of fact I am engaged."
"Oh wow that's great but honestly I don't know what you see in her anyway."
"You met her like one time and also she is way better than you."
"Oh please Sammy we both know that is not true and when you are done with that poor trash give me a call even though I know you blocked my number." Peyton said as she winked at me before walking away.
"I thought Reece was bad but damn." Clarence said.
"There is no way you think Peyton is that crazy." I spoke.
"Reece is not crazy crazy but we all know that she tried to ruin your relationship with Erika." He said.
"Yeah but failed honestly." I told him.
"Yeah that is true."
