My spider~

Chapter 14

I didnt believe him. I couldnt. After that dream nothing felt real. I told hin I would be right down there in a minute. He left smiling and I closed the door.

I sighed and cupped my face in my hands, feeling hot tears hit my palms.

I only have Ciel.

Then I lost him.

No friends, family members, nobody to care about me.

Now I have him back.. But this doesnt feel real.

I this is a dream, maybe I can get hurt without harm.

I glanced at the bathroom door and quickly locked my room door. I went into the bathroom and looked at myself from the mirror.

You are a mess.

Your eyes are not their pretty colour enymore.

Worthless.

Even a demon would stay away from your soul.

I sighed and opened a cabinet. I tooked out my razor and looked at it. Hot tears stopping their flowing, like the time would stop.

Just me and the razor.

I slowly putted it against my wrist and made a deep stedy cut.

I liked the pain.

No harm would come, right?

If you hurt yourself in a dream its okay.

I made more cuts, every cut deepening more and more.

The last cut that I made, made me scream in pain. My hands were fulm of cuts but this last cut.. It cutted deep into my flesh.

The floor under me was all bloody, so was my dress and hands.

I dropped on my knees, looking at the cuts that I made.

Knocking.

Somebody was punching the door.
Soon it was opened, or broken.
Then punching on the bathroom door. I flinched at every bunch.

The door came down right next to me, I was now shaking in fear. "Brett!" I heard a familiar voice yell in shock. "Its only a dream, no harm will come" I soothed myself.

"Im real Brett" the voice said and I quickly turned my head to face the speaker.

I couldnt speak.

Its Ciel.

His alive.

And now Im bleeding to death.

Black dot appearing in my vision.

Ciel shouting at Sebastian.

I could feel myself smiling as I was lifted up.

Well hello darkness.

I didnt want to make this longer because.. The bloody talking made me sick :p