"Bakit nakasimangot kayo?" Nasa company ako ngayon para sa photoshoot at naabutan ko ang mga kaibigan kong iba iba ang expression. Nagsilapitan naman sila at hinampas ako. Umiwas naman ako sa kanila habang pabiro nila akong hinahabol.
"Natalo kami sa pustahan wala kaming pera ngayon." maktol ni Shane. Nakasimangot din ang iba habang nakangiti naman sila Trisha.
"Tinotoo nyo talaga?" Natatawa kong tanong habang umuupo sa tabi nila.
"Aba syempre." Nakairap na tugon ni Trisha bago kinuha ang pera sa bag nya at ipinaypay sa kanyang katawan. I guess iyon ang perang napanalunan nya. Lalong sumimangot sila Shane at pinagbabato sya ng tissue. Tumatawa naman si Trisha at ang mga kasamahan nyang nanalo.
"Ikaw ha napakamalihim mo. 3 months na pala kayo wala kang sinasabi grabe para kang others. Nakakatampo." Maktol ni Ella. Mukhang gulat din sila because it's really a big news.
"Well ano kasi mahirap i explain." Umirap silang lahat at pabirong kukurutin ako.
"Well ano pa nga ba. Pero hindi ko din akalain na magiging kayo after Alessa came into picture." Shane said while fanning herself. Right, I haven't seen Alessa again. Nasaan na kaya sya.
"Girl magkaibang magkaiba sila ng level. Only a fool will choose that cheap girl than Chantal." Trisha said like a matter of fact. Alam kong may pagkamatalas ang dila nya pero di ko alam na ganyan ang sentiments nya kay Alessa. They continue to bash Alessa because they hate how crybaby she is and how she's always prone to humiliation.
" Sayang naman si Engr. Radon bet ko pa naman sya para sa iyo. Kaya pala hindi na ulit namin nakikita nitong nakaraang buwan." Mica said as she much some grapes.
"Kaya nga e sayang. Bagay pa naman kayo napaka green flag nun." Shane agreed as she hands me a folder. I guess kaya bet nya si Radon e tropa ng katalking stage nya. Kidding, I know she knows how great Radon is.
"Anyway back to the topic. Grabe naman ang ante trending na trending ka lately a. Una kay fafa Cloud ngayon naman nagconfirm kayo ng relationship ni Sir Shawn. Grabe ibang level talaga ang alaga namin. Ang dami din tuloy kumukuha sa iyo for endorsement." Abby said while giggling. The other gave me the same look and I know they all think alike.
"Well napansin ko nga din." I said as I look at my schedules.
Shane look at me meaningfully.
"Kanina ko pa ito napupuja pero san ka galing?"Napakunot naman ang noo ko sa tanong nya.
" Ha? " Lumapit sya sa akin at hinawakan ang braso ko.
" Umattend ka ba ng concert at hindi kami sinabihan? " Muli ko syang tiningnan ng nagtataka.
" Bakit paos na paos ka? " Agad akong namula sa sinabi nya. Naalala ko kasi ang nangyari matapos ipakita sa akin ni Shawn yung box ng condom.
*Flashback*
"Nababaliw ka na ba ubusin mo mag-isa yan." Tumawa naman si Shawn at lumapit sa akin.
"Baby bakit parang natataranta ka hindi naman kailangan ubusin ito ng biglaan. Ikaw ha iba ang iniisip mo pero game ako dyan." Kinuha nya ang isang box at binuksan iyon.
"Huwag ka ngang lalapit sa akin." He pull me closer and put me on his lap.
"Bawasan na natin ito baby." He started to dominate my system again and before I knew it naubos namin ang dalwang box. Sa isang box tatlong condom ang laman. Namula naman ako dahil hindi ko na namalayan na naka 6 rounds kami tapos kinabukasan may kanya kanya kaming trabaho. He really has an outstanding stamina. Kaya siguro paos na paos ako.
*End of Flashback*
"I doubt concert ang inattendan nyan." Ella said at malisyosong nagsitanguan ang iba.
"Yeah it's a concert in bed." Trisha teasingly said and I blush even more. Lalo naman nila akong inasar habang pilit akong tumatanggi.
Natigil lamang sila sa pang aasar ng may pumasok at nag announce na kailangan na akong ayusan at magsisimula na ang photoshoot. The pictorial is from the known jeans brand and there are other models involve. Matapos ang tatlong oras na pagmemake up at pictorial ay sinunod naman ang brand ng sandals which also took almost 3 hours. Sobrang napagod ako ngayong araw na ito.
"So it's true." Pasakay na ako sa kotse dahil tapos na ang schedules ko ng may nagsalita sa likuran ko.
"Huh?" Pagharap ko ay hindi ko inaasahan ang makikita ko. It's Radon.
"You're really with him." He said with bitterness. I scan his body and it is a relief that he's body is in a good shape he just look a little disoriented.
"Well yeah. I'm sorry again." I apologetically said. I did him wrong so I owe him a lot.
"I really like you Chantal. No, I love you. If he hurt you then come back to me. Come to me." He seems occupied and a bit drunk.
"Are you drunk? Let's talk properly when you're sobber." I tried to approach him dahil nagbabadya na ang luha nya.
"Don't. Just don't approach me if you're not going to take responsibility." I bit my lips and stop myself from approaching him.
"When I'm with you during those short time I feel the tranquility. I feel like we have a connection and we have a chance. You gave me hope Chantal. You made me think that there might be an us." He sounds like he's in pain. I know what I did is not justifiable. All I can do now is to take all his hatred.
" I'm sorry. Believe it or not, I never meant to hurt you. I want to like you so bad. I want to like you the way you like me. " He's teeth are clenching and he refuses to look at me. I took a deep breath before I speak again.
"But I couldn't. I only like you as a friend. You don't know how much I want to reciprocate your feelings. I'm sorry it's just that I couldn't and you don't deserve half commitment." He look at me with a sad, hurt eyes. He gulp a little before he look away.
"It's fine. You don't need to be sorry. I didn't mean to come at you like this it's just that everything is mess up and I don't know what to do." He sounds like he'll break down in any minute.
"You are the girl I want to be with and it's just painful knowing that we will never happen." Tumalikod na sya sa akin at nagsimulang maglakad palayo. I want to chase him but I know I don't have the rights. Tinawagan ko na lamang si Shane at sinabihan syang i contact ang friend ni Radon para masiguro na safe syang makakauwi.
That's all I can do. I just need to stay away from his life. I shouldn't ruin him more than I already did.
