Kyles pov (TW⚠️ MENTION OF EATING DISORDERS, MENTION OF SELFHARM, BINGING AND THROWING UP⚠️)
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I sob in Stans shoulder. "Why? Why cant we just work it out. I swear I'll stop selfharming for you. I'll stop starving for you. I just can't handle not dating you." More tears fall down as I say that. Stan wipes my tears away and kisses my cheek.
"I still love you. And I'll miss it too. But i'm a person too. And I also have feeling. And I just can't handle loving someone that doesn't believe they can be loved." Stan explains.
"But I know you love me. I know you do!".
"Kyle just drop it. We're on a break until you get better!" Stan tells me. "Stan you don't understand! It can take years for me to recover! I might never even recover! Just choose between dating me or just leaving me.." I yell at him with tears in my eyes.
It stays silent for a while and then Stan speaks up. "Goodbye Kyle." Stan stands up and leaves the room. I just stare at him with wide eyes and mouth slightly open. I see him walk away and I break into tears.
This is all my fault. If i just never been such a fucking crybaby this would have never happened.
I go off my bed and go under ny bed to grab a box. I open it and a lot of food is there. I grab some things and start eating them while bawling my eyes out.
-time skip-
I finished all my snacks and then start drinking a shit load of water. I see blurry cause of my crying. I go to the toilet and kneel down infront of it. I just look down and cry. I start pushing my fingers down my throat hitting that one spot multiple times. I then start throwing up and i start coughing. I wipe my mouth and start laughing a little and smile to myself. I go in the shower and clean myself off while also brushing my teeth.
Stans pov"So why do you wanna change rooms" the reception asks me.
"I just dont really like my roommates." I tell her. She frowns. "Also Kyle? Aren't you two best friends?" She asks me. I stay silent. "Yes but we had a fi-" she cuts me off before i can finish. "Yeah you Kenny Butters and Kyle will make up. Go back to your room." She looks at me like she really wants me to go. I sign and go away.
I open the door from my room and still hear sniffing. I just ignore it and go to my bed. I look at kyle and just go to the toilet.
I sit down in the toilet and i smell perfume. Oh kyle.. i look at the toilet and still see some vomit there. I sign to myself and feel disappointed. Mostly in myself. Why am i so selfish that i thought it would be a good idea to do this.
I really fucked up. I really really did.
Why am i so selfish?
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Im so so sorry for not writing for so long. Im just lazy as fuck. Anyway IM GOING TO THE TRILOGY TOUR 1 OCTOBER AAAHH.
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