A Lover of Rain

CHAPTER FORTY-ONE

CHAPTER FORTY-ONE:

I heard news before that changed the trajectory of my life, but nothing has ever prepared me for what I had just found out. I covered my mouth while looking at Kylo distressed from the news he just broke. Tears were falling from his eyes while he was resting his palms on the hood of his car, devastated from the revelation that he got Claud pregnant. My feet started to feel heavy as I dragged myself closer to Kylo. I don't know why the news started crushing my heart and all I could feel was pain stabbing even my soul. When I touched his back, Kylo turned around to look me in the eyes. His hands found its way on my cheeks to wipe my tears away before being replaced by another since I couldn't stop crying.

"I didn't know... until a few hours ago when she called." Kylo uttered through his sobs. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders to give him a hug from the biggest news that I knew would change our lives.

"I shouldn't have done what I did when you left in Cebu... I was so lost that when she showed up that night, we ended up talking about our relationship and something happened. Although we didn't get back together–there was that one night when we were drunk and I didn't know what I had done until I woke up the next day." He tried to explain the situation on how his actions came into fruition even though he was slurring his words from all the tears falling from his eyes.

"I never wanted for anything to happen, I just... I couldn't think straight when Claud came back. I thought being with her would make the things in my life right, but she wasn't the one I needed." I closed my eyes when I realized the next words that would come out of his mouth and it only broke me apart. "All the things I said were true. I want to change who I am just so I could have you, Aryn. I love you... so much."

"But I can't," Kylo let me go so he could stare into my eyes. "It feels like our chapter's already ending before I could even have the chance to prove myself to you."

I tried to look the other way as my tears continued falling when I realized our ill-fated relationship was about to hit its end. I have loved Kylo for seven years of my life and not once have I ever loved anyone else during that point because I only saw myself having a future where he was part of it. Whether it's us being best friends or falling madly in love with each other–Kylo will always be a part of my life. After everything that happened, no matter how many times I tell myself that I don't have any ounce of feelings for him anymore, I would always find in my heart a place where I still care for Kylo. I may not be in love with him anymore, but he was still the person I spent seven years loving and that would never change.

And now things have officially put a turn in his life. This news will change everything for him and I don't know if I could stand to be a part of that change. I don't know if I could be happy for Kylo knowing that the woman who's gonna carry his child is Claud. My breath was trembling but I tried to keep myself together as I met his gaze.

"What are you gonna do?" I asked, my lower lip was trembling.

"I don't know..." Kylo mumbled while sitting on the hood of his car, still looking distraught from the news of Claud's pregnancy. "She's unsure either on what she wants to do, but a part of her wants to keep the child." I asked him the most important question I could think of.

"Do you?" It's shocking news to have since raising a child is a life-long responsibility that anyone should be prepared to face. If neither of them are prepared or even want to keep the baby and Claud still went through with it, they'll put the child in a trauma that he or she would carry for the rest of their life. Kylo dropped his head before giving an answer. "I don't know, Aryn."

"It's your–child together, so both of you need to decide." I said even though my words stuttered. His head stayed low when I tried to talk to him properly about it, so I grabbed his face to make Kylo look at me. "Remember what it feels like when you grow up without a mom, Kai."