A Lover of Rain

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FOUR:

Kylo slowly sat down on the bed, his eyes were drooping from being drunk. I held his arms to help him sit down but he shunned me away instead. My hands froze from the sudden cold treatment Kylo was giving me. I know I deserve it since it's exactly what I did to him when I got home from running away to his party, but I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt one bit. "Bakit ka andito?" He asked before brushing his hair upward. He stared at me with coldness in his eyes, just waiting for me to give him an answer that I couldn't even properly give to myself at this moment.

I'm still sitting on the floor just looking up to him. I couldn't speak properly without letting out a heavy sigh first. "I don't know either." I mumbled, my head was slowly dropping to look at the ground instead of meeting his cold eyes. "We're fine, Aryn. I don't need you here, so you can go home." Kylo said in a calm manner which made my heart ache from how easy it was for him to shun me away. With every last bit of strength I had left, my eyes looked up just to see Kylo pointing at the door and patiently waiting for me to leave.

I let out a silent scoff and immediately turned my head when I felt a tear falling from my eyes. "I just wanted to make sure you're okay, but I guess that's wrong for me to do." I uttered as my hand secretly wiped the tear off of my cheek. Kylo mumbled something under his breath that made me take a glimpse. When our eyes met each other's gazes, Kylo repeated the words he whispered that only crushed my heart even further. "You said we're not friends anymore, Aryn. Strangers don't check on each other to see if they're okay or not."

My mouth parted ways as I stared at his face. I thought the pain I felt when I saw him with someone else was the most painful thing that I will ever experience in my life, but this is a new kind of pain I've never experienced before. The kind of pain you only feel when you're losing a friend. I knew what words my mouth said out of anger when we had an argument, and maybe it was my fault since the idea came from me first but I kept thinking if it was that easy to let me go when Kylo didn't even want to put up a fight for our friendship.

"Is that what you want?" I asked as I stood up from the ground, which made him do the same. Kylo was just standing in front of me with his eyebrows furrowed from the question I uttered. "No, Aryn... that's what you want. Hindi mo hinintay na sabihin ko sayo kung ano yung nangyari, basta mo na lang ako pinaalis na parang hindi ako mahalaga sayo tapos ngayon parang pinapaikot mo pa na ako yung may kasalanan." Every word that came out of his lips was equated with frustrations.

"Alam mo ang tanga tanga mo, Kylo." I said after being silent for a few seconds. The tone of my voice was low from how little energy I had left inside for this another fight that I'm already tired of having. "One year, Kai–that's how long you ignored me. Every second that passed by when you were gone, I kept giving myself excuses so I could understand why you're no longer in my life but when you finally came back, I didn't even hear you apologize for it! You just went on with your life like you didn't hurt me."

"Aryn—" He tried to speak but I cut him off. "I needed you in my life but you weren't there for me..." As I said these words, the tears that I was trying to hide earlier started falling when I didn't have any strength left to fight the urge. I didn't wipe them off or even exert effort to hold them back anymore. I just let myself cry in front of him. I noticed his arms trying to extend, so he could wipe my tears but I stepped back to stop him.

Kylo let his arms fall back to his side before taking a deep breath. "I thought it was okay because Eric was there for you." He said that made me look at him with disbelief. "But he's not you..." I mumbled without any hesitation. Kylo was surprised to hear it came out of my lips but I knew in my heart that it was true. I would choose him above anyone else if I have to, although I realized Kylo wouldn't do the same for me. I let out a laugh as my tears were still falling off of my eyes. "I only want to hear one thing from you, Kai–"