Beauty and the beast

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January 3rd, 2024

        Dear diary, today is day three of me being in the psych ward. I'm only doing this shit because the therapist said it might help. I'm ready to get TF, ASAP!!! A bitch don't belong here, I ain't crazy. Unfortunately I keep thinking about Tig, of course I'm not gone ask Jay, Mimi or Kobe if they seen or heard from him.

        I find myself wondering if he thinking about me or if he wants to visit me. I do know that my parents, the girls and KD have been here to see me everyday. I wonder what Glock been doing and if he tried to reach out to me. I def wouldn't mind seeing him when I get outta here.

Oh well, I'm just ready to get the fuck outta here and smoke a fat ass blunt. I guess I'll try to continue this shit once I'm outta here. Peace out for now!

         -Love MK R.

        "So Ms. Roberts I see that you're talking about your boyfriend again." "Ex boyfriend." "Yes, your ex boyfriend. Why is that? Isn't he the reason you're here?" "Um yes, sorta. I don't know why I'm talking about him." I nervously bit my bottom lip. "You told me he abused you correct?" "Yes." "For how long? When did the abuse start if you remember."

        "He's been abusing me for seven years now, it started when we first got together at fifteen." I squirmed in my seat. "Why did you stay all of these years?" I sat trying to think of an answer but couldn't. I quickly wiped the tears that started rolling down my face. "I'd like to believe it's because he's the first boy I was ever attached to. I don't know." I shrugged.

       The therapist sat across from me jotting stuff down. I was starting to get very uncomfortable, I've never been the person to talk about my feelings or tell people what I'm going through. Especially a stranger. "Are we almost done?" My right leg started bouncing up and down. "Are you ready to go?" "I'm just not comfortable. I don't usually talk about my business." "What do you talk about?" "Not much, I don't like to feel judged or feel like I'm disappointing people."

She nodded and started writing. She picked up the journal and started reading again. "Who is Glock? I see you've mentioned him a couple times." "This dude I met through my brother." I smiled thinking about him. "Judging by that smile he seems to make you happy." "He does. He makes me feel really safe and secure." "It's good to see that you have someone other than family in your life that makes you feel good. I would like to say I believe you're clear to go home. Though I would like to continue sessions with you when you leave here."

"That's fine." I agreed. "Perfect. I'm gonna give you my card with my number on it. Please call to set up an appointment, looking at you I know there's so much to unpack. I know you're not comfortable right now but I hope that while working with me you open up more. It's not healthy to not talk to people, I want you to try to talk to someone about anything."

        "That's your homework assignment, I want you to talk about one thing you've been through in life with someone. Write about it in your journal and we'll discuss it our first session." "Yes ma'am." I nodded. "Okay you're free to go." I jumped up and damn near ran out the room. I put my journal in the room and went to the hallway to call Jade.

She answered on the first ring. "Hey baby." "Hi! What you doing?" "Girl watching tv with Man Man stank ass." I could tell she was rolling her eyes. "Well you better find yo way with Mimi cause they say I can come home!" "BITCHHHHH!" She yelled through the phone. I heard a bunch of shuffling then keys jingling. "I'm bout to go get her now! I love you baby, see you in a lil bit!" "I love you more." I laughed and hung up the phone.

       I walked back in my room and sat down on the bed. I was smiling so hard I started to feel like The Joker. If somebody walked by right now and seen me smiling that hard they would tell the therapist to keep my deranged ass so I quickly stopped. "HEY! What ya doing in here? We're about to start playing musical chairs." Arielle popped her head in the room.