In the heart of darkness

35

  I shrug unsure, I would call him aspen
  But I can't really use that name. But then I remember what I always wanted to call my white wolf
 
  "Ghost, after John snow's direWolf"
 
  "Ohhh I like it, hello ghost"
 
  We spent the rest of the day preparing for the wedding, getting contraception in my arm and helping dad set up the flowers. The entire pack helped, not even one person complained. My mum said when she arrived at this pack it wasn't a nice place to be. But I love my pack, it's got a family feel to it, everyone respects each other and supports each other and they have all personally loved me.
 
  They do fear Carter and rightly so but in my eyes I was there to cherish the pack as Carter was there to keep the pack safe. I know I'll be a softer Luna then my mum but I won't shy away from death. In our pack it was the law and we did not break the law. Carter had added to it over the years, especially when I was attacked and recorded for the amusement of others.
 
  Like in those cases Carter and me had the final say, kid or not. Obviously a child won't be killed but if your 16 and raping someone your definitely going to die. For one, why would we allow you to live and 2 I wouldn't allow a rapist into the world and let them do it to humans like they did to my aunt fay.
 
  When she was younger she was kidnapped and kept hostage for around a year by rogue wolves, the night she escaped she crashed her car and almost died. She crawled into Ardens land by mistake and he found her. She was in really bad shape and has scars all over her body but the mate bond saved her, the Ailm bond made her trust again. She was so lucky she found him when she did. It was fate.
 
  That night we had a huge family dinner and watched movies before having an early night. We refused to sleep in separate rooms and told my parents we would separate before I got dressed. Carter put his foot down and mum agreed so dads gave in. We snuggled into bed together but sleep was the last thing on my mind. All I could think about was sex and touching Carter and getting touched by Carter. He groans rolling onto his stomach and looking at me
 
  "You need to stop or I'm going to lose it and fuck you right now"
 
  I pout
 
  "Why can't we just do it now? I'm officially 18"
 
  "Because I want it to be perfect and not in a house full of our family. I want to love every second of you and that body and I don't want anyone getting in my damn way when I finally start"
 
  I knew he was right but it still sucked ass. I huff and turn to him
 
  "Let's watch a movie then?"
 
  He nods his head and that's what we do. We snuggle up and watch some comedies. He eventually falls asleep but I can't so I get up and smoke out the balcony. The door knocks and I open it. It's mum she holds her finger to her lips and wags me into my old room. She opens the balcony and pulls me down grabbing some blankets. Ashley's awake on her balcony so she joins us and they put me in the middle of them both and we smoke.
 
  "Why are you not asleep?"
 
  "I'm nervous to finally have sex"
 
  Mum nods as ashley cuddles in closer
 
  "It's going to be amazing sis, you will be so pissed you listened to those arseholes and waited 2 years"
 
  Mum snorts chuckling
 
  "She's right your going to be pissed, I just hope you have a better wedding day then I did"
 
  I frown looking to her
 
  "Why what happened?"
 
  She rolls her eyes smirking
 
  "Well Ailm, Isla and lilly fought the entire day, they scared everyone else away from the house so I had to get ready alone with your dads. Mum didn't realise it but she was in early labour with Luke so she just wasn't able to come have fun with me. Ailm and Isla were my bridesmaids and they fought through the ceremony and missed my wedding. It was so awkward because the rest of the family hadn't yet accepted lycans. I didn't know Fay very well so I had no idea we were best friends. It was just crazy, then we left early because it was so fucking awkward and when I finally fell asleep they woke me up to deliver baby Luke, I ended up with mums vagina juice in my mouth, and then Luke nearly died that night and everyone else were completely shitfaced. And then you have all seen the video of me and your dads changing a nappy for the first time"
 
  Yes we had all seen it and it was amazing. But that sounds like a really rough wedding day
 
  "Well that sounds awful, yours definitely won't be like that kid"
 
  Ashley tells us
 
  "Yeah I don't care if i've got to kick people out I will, nothing will ruin your day. Not ever"
 
  I grin as we stay up late talking absolute shit and laughing about the silliest things but eventually we all fall asleep together on the daybed and I don't wake up until I'm yanked out of the bed
 
  "What the fuck—"
 
  "—-me? What the fuck you Carly! don't ever fucking do that again you nearly gave me a heart attack"
 
  I was so confused and still waking up
 
  "Why what did I do?"
 
  He rolls his eyes clutching me to his chest when mark runs in
 
  "Is she here?"
 
  He looks white as a ghost
 
  "Yeah we fell asleep smoking sorry"
 
  I tell them yawning as dads rush in clutching their chests
 
  "You all nearly gave us a heart attack!"