In the heart of darkness

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  Carter's POV
 
  "Yyyyou mmmust, I will always be withhh you. I lovvve youu soo much"
 
  She gasps as her body goes still and the bond breaks. I scream as the pain of sends an acid filled dagger right through my chest and body. I would live forever without her. I pump on her chest and cry. My body was numb, all I could feel was the pain in my chest, it was unbearable. She was my everything.
 
  "No Carly, you can't leave me! You can't fucking leave me please. Anyone but you pleaseeee"
 
  I push my power into her body and I feel hers surge forward grabbing hold of mine as it dies and becomes mine.
 
  I scream pounding on her chest. Pushing it back into her, trying to grasp at the life that she had left.
 
  How had this happened? How had this happened? One minute we were celebrating, telling the boys the good news, the news that made her so happy and then the next minute she's healing Gia. I'd never seen anything like it as I watched her fight her way through her brain and then suddenly she saw it all, all the plans, all the things that she was to do and when I opened my eyes I realised blood poured from her mouth, her eyes and ears and the next thing she was gone? How the fuck could this happen? She was dead, lifeless in my arms as I pounded on her chest trying to get her back. I needed her back because there is no light without her and I couldn't do it alone. I needed her to survive. I needed her to breathe, because without her it's too painful. My power trembled in grief, Cain howled in pain as my heart broke into tiny pieces over and over again, I thought it was bad but then it managed to get worse. My arms and body burned as our bonds break. Even the Banshee and hound in me screamed.
 
  Someone tugging me off her distracted me and I saw her, her eyes opened as her blood pooled on the floor. My baby was dead. My soul and my heart, gone forever. How had this happened! I fought whoever it was to get back to her, snatching her lifeless body from the table and I held her close to my chest. I kissed her perfect face, her perfect nose and lips
 
  "Please baby, please come back to me please"
 
  I cry into the crook of her neck kissing her throat. Her skin was grey from the blood loss. My Carly cù was gone. My heart felt like it was on fire, a dark blistering fire that ran over my body, making me want to explode. I scream crying into her chest as the realisation that I'd never hear her voice again, I'd never see her laugh or smile or hear her constant stream of random thought. Hear her complain about being hungry. She was gone and I needed to go. I couldn't do this without her. I kiss her face one last time then her head and her lips pulling back I hold her head in my hands
 
  "You won't be alone for long my love, I love you so much carly cù iv waited 1000 years for you and I'm not leaving you now"
 
  I kiss her again and lift her into my arms as I hold her tight. Dads and mum were on the floor crying. I couldn't even look at Daniel, he was horrible to her. His last words to her broke her heart and I wouldn't forgive him for it. I turn to Rob who's crying on a chair, his head down as he sobs so I leave her in his arms. He looks to me, greif all over his face
 
  "What are you doing?"
 
  "I'm going to find them and let them kill me"
 
  I kissed her head again
 
  "Look after her for me and don't let him near her"
 
  I glare at Daniel who's sobbing on the ground then I walk past my parents
 
  "Son, what are you going to do?"
 
  Scott asks me grabbing my arm, I pause looking to my parents
 
  "I'm going to let them kill me"
 
  I shrug him off as mum screams falling at my feet
 
  "No Carter! please you can't! You can't fucking leave too! no please"
 
  "I can't do it without her, I'm sorry but you can't ask me to stay"
 
  I step out of her hold as the darkness hardens my heart, my humanity leaving me. But even in this state of mind all I wanted to do was die. Turn it off and never come back to the earth again. A 1000 years and I got 18 with her, how is that fair? How is that right?
 
  No when I go this time I'm not coming back. I'll die, find her and live in the darkness with her forever. Forever in my heart.
 
  "Please I can't lose you too"
 
  Jaxon pleads with me.
 
  "I'm already dead, my humanity is gone with her"
 
  I walk past them in a daze and out the front door. I watch as the pack closes in around the house as the word spreads that my carly, my entire life was gone, dead and lifeless on the kitchen table. My future gone with her, our daughter that we were meant to have. Becoming parents to a mini her, have our own Princess and watch Carly be a mother. Watch her love us both. I'd never be alpha now that she was dead. Even if they couldn't kill me I plan on finding a way to kill myself. I won't live without her. I won't ever live without her.
 
  The end..
           For now..
 
  This story continues on in book 2 of the atonement saga. Find the story on my account "the accomplishment of light"
 
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  Lots of love from J.D xx