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NANDINI'S POV:

I diverted my eyes from him as soon as possible because, well, that day it felt good to have someone by my side who would let me cry on their shoulder as the shoulder on which I used to weep was busy giving support to some other head but now that I think about it, the complications in my life at this point are way too many to allow another one to enter in so leisurely and fvck up the system of my life. 

ohh, by the way, if you weren't able to guess who was the so called new comer, it was none other than mr. angel. 

You must be confused as to why was I so much worried about him meeting me again. Because after that little encounter we had, I should've been happy that he was here. But the turmoil I had going on in me and all the changes what I was trying to get used to required some time where I would be prone to less new things and more of familiarity. 

familiarity. It's taken for granted most of the times. But when the world seems too confusing or when you can't trust the people around you enough, you always crave for familiar people whom you can trust. You crave for familiar embraces that could cover you and drive away all the worries. You crave for old bonds over new excitement. Because, no matter how exciting or intriguing new experiences can be, at the end, a normal person would crave to return to home. And by home, I don't mean the residence. I mean the people who feel like home. The people who make you feel protected. The people who let you know that no matter how many times you fall, they would always be there to hold your hand and lift you up to your feet once again so that you could restart. 

Familiarity is under rated. Familiar people are under rated. Familiar places are under rated. Familiar embraces are under rated. 

But what if familiarity chooses to not recognize you? what if the people whom you consider as your comfort place suddenly start to look fake? What if you walk towards home and realize that you're lost? what if you realize that the home itself has chosen not to shelter you anymore? what if the embrace which once made you feel comfortable now fails to recognize you?

You feel devastated. You feel lost. You feel confused. You're so stunned that you won't be able to distinguish or recognize what's going on in your life. There would be a hundred people telling you about the changes taking place around you, but you reject to witness it. Because, familiarity is what you crave. But sometimes, familiarity becomes poison. A poison that would eat you away from the inside and leave you hollow. You would be chipping away from the inside yet you wouldn't mind it because the feeling of familiarity is too comfortable to let go. 

But now that I've sensed that this familiarity would just leave me empty, I've been trying to strip myself away from this comfortable familiarity to the harsh looking reality and I've been doing pretty well at this. And what I want least is for this now settling flow to be disrupted. And anything new, whether its a new person or new environment or anything for that matter, I am afraid, would destroy my settling self. 

And as much as I would've appreciated his arrival if things were normal, at this moment, I just want him to not recognize me and move on. 

But by the looks of it, he definately recognizes me. And I am hating it right now. 

TEACHER: Go on dear, go get a seat for yourself. 

??: Sure ma'am. Thank you. 

I could see from the corner of my eyes that he was approaching me and it was freaking me out. Why would he even come here? wasn't he supposed to go find a seat for himself? then what- Oh, well the seat beside me is empty. 

fvck it!

I could hear the sound of his footsteps getting louder and louder as he neared the seat beside me. I made sure to not lift my head and concentrate on anything that doesn't involve him. But I guess the fate wasn't on my side today. Who was I even kidding, it hasn't been on my side from quite a while now. 

I could sense his presence beside me, which is why I turned my head to the opposite side trying to not make it look like I was avoiding him, 

keyword, trying. 

I had my eyes tightly closed believing that if I close my eyes then I won't be visible to him, just like he wouldn't be visible to me. 

foolish right? but I couldn't care less at that point. 

with my eyes closed, I kept praying to god for him to move ahead and occupy some other seat, but as I said, fate wasn't on my side. I heard someone faking a cough and it was obviously him. I still pretended to not to listen to it but he continued to do with a slight tap on the table which I again tried to ignore. 

Hopefully he would go away if he didn't sense any response from my side-

TEACHER: Nandini!

yeah sure. 

NANDINI: yes, ma'am?

TEACHER: What have you been doing there? 

NANDINI: I uh- my p-pencil. I-It fell d-down. Y-Yeah i-it fell down. I was picking it up. 

She made an annoyed face and shook her head in disbelief. 

TEACHER: Did you pick it up?

NANDINI: yes ma'am. 

TEACHER: Good. Now remove your bag from the seat and let the young man occupy it. And I hope you would help him with the lessons that he's missed as well?

It wasn't a request. She wanted me to do it. Whether I wanted to or not was out of question. 

Pathetic. 

NANDINI: yes ma'am. 

TEACHER: Very well. Let's begin the class. 

Finally. Once the lecture would start, I could peacefully ignore everyone and get lost in my own world. Pretty much what I've been doing since a long period of time. And today as well, I would use the lessons to ignore a certain someone now seated beside me comfortably. 

I could sense the movement on the seat beside me as he placed a notebook and then took out a pen. Seems like he was going to concentrate on the lessons as well. Great! 

Just as I was having a little victory dance in my head, I could her a tap on the table. Obviously, who was I even kidding. I lifted my gaze slightly to look up on it when I saw him giving me a slight smirk while tapping the bench with his pen. I turned my gaze towards the board once again and made an attempt to ignore him. 

But I could hear the tap to be louder this time. Of course, he was doing this to gain my attention. But I continued to try my best to ignore him which went in vain. He just wouldn't stop making noise. Being annoyed, I finally turned my head towards him and lifted my eyes brows at him, questioning him about his actions. He widened his smirk and uttered. 

??: Finally, someone acknowledged me. 

NANDINI: Well, when you know someone's trying to ignore you, you just let them be. 

??: I am afraid things work different from my perspective. 

NANDINI: And I am afraid, I don't give a sh!t about your perspective?

Ouch! that was rude. I shouldn't have said that. 

??: Woahh calm down tigress. Why so rude? As long as I remember, things didn't end on a bad note when we met the last time. Why so much aggression then?

NANDINI: I-I am sorry. I didn't mean to be rude. It sounded meaner that it should have. 

??: hmmmmmmm. Good for you, I don't get offended easily. 

NANDINI: Well, it wouldn't have affected me if you would be offended anyways. 

??: ouch! now that hurt. 

NANDINI: yeah sure. Why are you talking to me anyway?

??: Well, because you are good at pretending that we haven't met before, but I guess I can't ignore the people I know. 

NANDINI: Well, you don't exactly know me?

??: I do know a good amount of information about you. No offence, you told me all of that yourself. 

Ughhhhhhh! this is what happens when you let your emotions take control of your brain. You let out everything in front of anyone and everyone and end up in a situation like mine. 

??: I am guessing this dry mood has something related to the problem you had once shared with me?

NANDINI: That doesn't matter now. I have many more things on my plate to take care of. 

??: yeah, as I said. The same reason. 

NANDINI: can't you just keep quite and listen to the class? why do you have to keep talking? if I am sane enough, we don't even know each others' name for god's sake. Why do you keep talking continuously?

??: Well, I do know your name, Nandini. 

Wait what?! how does he know my name? as long as I remember, I hadn't told him my name that day. 

NANDINI: how do you know my name?!

??: All thanks to the teacher I guess, she used your name to address you. 

Well, fvck me. How lame could I be?  

NANDINI: yeah whatever. 

I heard him giggle and that somehow brought a smile to my face. Well, he isn't that bad I guess? by recalling our encounter the last time, he was anything but bad. That is when I realized, he knew my name, but I didn't know his. 

NANDINI: What's your name?

??: And why would I tell you that?

NANDINI: Because that is what people do, its normal. 

??: I had told you before, normal is no fun. 

NANDINI: ughhh but its unfair, you know my name, but I don't know yours. 

??: Well, I never told about things being fair, did I?

NANDINI: Can't you just be normal for once and tell me your name? I know normal is not fun for you but it doesn't mean that one should never be normal. 

That was a chunk of frustration I suppose. 

??: How about we make a deal? 

NANDINI: Ughhhh not this again. Can't things be straight and sound for once?

??: This is the straightest I could get with things in my life. So, deal?

NANDINI: what is the deal anyway?

??: You'll show me the guy who left you restless, and I'll tell you my name. 

Bummer, this wasn't even a deal. He would get to know about it in a few hours anyway. Shippers couldn't keep their mouths shut. Kabir and Mihika are all over the campus, thanks to their shippers. But I was going to make use of this deal anyways. 

NANDINI: Sure! but you will have to tell me your name first. 

??: *smirk* Too interested to know my name?

NANDINI: what's with that smirk? isn't it normal for people to want to know a person's name with whom they've been talking?

??: fair enough. 

NANDINI: so?? name??

??: Siddharth. Siddharth Gupta. And no, mera naam suna nahi hoga. Kyunki mai apna naam bina matlab ka bataate nahi ghoomta. 

(you wouldn't have heard my name. Because I don't unnecessarily roam around telling people my name.)

Hmm, Siddharth Gupta, that wasn't very usual of an intro. 

I gazed at him while a twist of thoughts crowded my brain. I don't know where my life would lead me after another character has been introduced in it. 

I felt a sharp gaze piercing through my back which made me turn around only to find Kabir who was supposedly throwing daggers at the new comer beside me. 

But then, slowly, his eyes met mine. They held emotions that couldn't be comprehended. They had anger, fire, pain, jealousy so much more, but there was something else as well, which I wasn't able to read. 

NANDINI: *sigh* I want no more drama, dear god. Please give me the strength to endure all of this and guide me through all of this. 

I sighed once and looked beside me to find Siddharth now completely focused on the lesson and looked back to find Kabir still throwing daggers at him through his eyes. 

I don't know what challenges life is throwing upon me, But I will have to face them anyway. 

I just hope I have the strength to face them. 
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