TERI MERI YAARI

~6~ I am with you

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NANDINI'S POV:

I regret it. I regret all of it. I freaking regret letting my emotions take a toll on me and distracting me. Because, right now, I am facing the worst nightmare of my life. The Monthly Review test. I've always been the least worried about these tests as I've always found them to be easy. It's just the revision test of everything done during that particular month and me being me, used to know everything going on in the classes , used to nail those tests. But now, looking at the question paper, I feel as if I've never even seen these concepts anywhere. I mean, I know it was done in the class but I had now idea of what that $hit was. I was completely unaware of my surroundings and now that I think about it, it was my mistake. I shouldn't have paid heed to those useless feelings I had gained. Dad was right, everyone faces challenges in life and have to choose between two things, and one must be wise enough to choose the right. But I guess I chose the wrong thing.

I was too focused on forgetting my feelings on Kabir that I forgot that I had to focus on study primarily and messed up big time. Now as I look at the question paper, I regret all of it. But was it of any use? a Big no! I prayed once before picking up my pen and just started scribbling whatever made sense to me, and by the time I ended my test, I knew just pass was a high expectation too! I came out of the exam hall with my head down and mood off. I know today's test didn't go well. it went horrible to be honest and I don't know how I am going to face dad and maa after this. I mean, they're sweet and never question me on my low grades. In fact they encourage me to do well on the next test and never lose faith in me. It's their faith in me that makes me want to work hard and score well just to see that proud smile on their face. But the fact that it won't be the case today broke my heart. Evaluation process was very fast in our school and we would get the result by the end of the day. I usually used to look forward to the results but not today. In fact, today I wished that somehow my answer script would be burnt.
But things don't go how we want them to, do they?

I came out of my own world filled with despair, when I felt a strong yet warm arm wrapping around my neck and pulling me closer.

It was my silly best friend, Kabir. No bonus points for guessing ya'll..!

I made an irritated sound with my tongue and pushed him away slightly. Yeah yeah I know it wasn't his mistake but who cares? I want to vent my anger right now. Anyhow it was because of him that I wasn't able to concentrate during classes, doesn't matter if it was indirectly or even if he didn't know anything about it.

He pulled me towards him once again, but with a stronger grip. And when I struggled to get out of his hold and wasn't able to, I shouted at him. Yeah, that's how I release my anger.

NANDINI: Kya hai tera haan? ek baar samajh nhi aata jab door kiya toh? waapis se kyu kheechraha hai? thodi buddhi bachi bhi hai yaa fir woh bhi bech aaya hai?

(what is your problem huh? don't you understand once when I pushed you away? Why are you pulling me towards you yet again huh? do you have atleast a little sense left in you or have you sold that as well?)

$hit! I went over-board! I shouldn't have been this rude. He had done nothing wrong yet I yelled at him. Normal bickering was okay but what I said just now was too rude. No justification could be given for my action.

He looked at me with a blank expression and I already felt like crying. He's the only one I who can comfort me no matter what the problem is and now I hurt him. My lower started to wobble as I was about to cry. I slowly took a step towards him while uttering his name. Hell I even stuttered.

NANDINI: K-Kabir...

He placed a finger on my lips, indicating me to stay silent and I found that gesture hella attractive. Something must be wrong with me right? as if anything was going right these days.
He held my hand and pulled me with him, indicating me walk and I followed him silently. His grip was firm but wasn't anything that could hurt me. He always behaved with care whenever he was with me. Total gentleman. He led me towards the park in front of our school and we entered it. We used to visit this park after school sometimes when weren't in the mood to return home early. He took me towards our usual place, it was the secluded part of the park with only two swings. We used to sit on these swings and while away our time by gossiping about everything and anything in this world. But today it was different. He was silent as hell and I was on the verge of crying. He made me sit on the swing while I looked up at him with puppy eyes.

KABIR: stay here. Do not move an inch. I will be back in some time.

I just nodded at him with my teary eyes while he ran out of the park to god knows where. All types of thoughts started clouding my mind. What if he leaves me? What if he's had enough? What if he thinks that I've taken him for granted? But I haven't. I really value and cherish him. He means so much to me. It was already more than 20 mins that he was gone but still he hadn't returned and now I was feeling worried. He never leaves me alone like this, no matter what the case is. If it was an emergency he would've informed any one of our friends and would've asked them to accompany me. I was about to burst out with tears when I finally heard someone running towards me and I found him when I looked at that direction.

My heart felt at ease instantly and a smile involuntarily appeared on my face. He came towards me and bent down holding his knees. He was panting harshly. Looks like he had a long run on his way back. I observed the guitar on his back and a paper cover in his hand and felt confused instantly. I had failed to notice those earlier as I was very much occupied with the fact that he was back.

I looked at him with a confused gaze as he knelt down in front of me and held both of my hands in his and started rubbing the back of my palm with his thumb fingers.

KABIR: Abb batayegi kya hua? kisne pareshaan kiya mere panda ko? Yeh dekh mai tere liye ice cream bhi leke aaya hu. Le khaa le aur khush hojaa.

(Now will you tell me what happened? who troubled my panda? See, I've got you ice cream, eat this and be happy now.)

I looked at the paper bag that he had now placed on my lap only to find my favorite ice cream, not one or two, but he'd bought be 3 bars of the choco bar that I love. I lifted my gaze once again to look at his face and found him smiling sheepishly at me. How could he listen to all that crap I gave him some time ago and still not be angry at me? Not only did he forgive me but also got ice cream for me. I felt emotional and pushed my face into his chest while my arms wrapped around his torso only to engulf him in a tight hug while I bawled my eyes out. I couldn't contain the tears anymore. I can't digest the fact that I was rude to him yet he was being so nice to me. I cried like a five year old baby while he hugged me back tightly and kept patting my back.

KABIR: Arree kya hua meri moti ko? ro kyu rahi hai aise? tujhe pata hai na tu roti hai tu mujhe bilkul nai pasand. Panda toh tu waise bhi lagti hai lekin jab roti hai toh gendi lagti hai.

(Aww, what happened to my fatty? why are you crying like this? you know na I don't like it when you cry. You already look like a panda but when you cry you look like a hippo.)

I whined and hit his chest lightly while he laughed at my tantrums while I continued crying for sometime.

It had been 15 mins since I had stopped crying and now we were settled down on the grass with his back against the tree and my head placed on his shoulder while my hands were tightly wrapped around his arm. He lifted his face to look at me and wiped my tears with his free hand and I sniffed at the same time. He chuckled at my action and pinched my nose lovingly to which I reacted by hitting his hand. He chuckled once again and settled down in the previous position.

KABIR: Now will you tell me what happened?

NANDINI: I-I d-did b-bad on m-my t-test t-today. I-I d-don't k-know if I'll p-pass i-it.

His body stiffened and he turned to look at me while I gulped looking at his face. He looked shocked and I could understand why he was shocked. I was never this unsure of my result in the past-

KABIR: You legit bawled your eyes out because of a silly monthly test?

Wait what? isn't he shocked that I didn't do well?

NANDINI: no. I mean partially yes, but I was more sad because I was mean to you.

He shook his head with disbelief and smacked my head and I whined again.

KABIR: You know I can't get mad at you right? no matter what you do. Even if you would commit a murder I would help you hide the body with no second thoughts and still not get mad at you.

I blushed at his statement and hid my face by pressing it on his shoulder. This guy here is making me go crazy by being caring to this extent. I'll go mad if he continues being like this.

NANDINI: So you're not mad?

KABIR: nah, I was worried instead, because I know you never react like this unless you're truly hurt. But seriously nandu, just a mere monthly test and you were bawling your eyes out?

NANDINI: its not about the monthly test. I just feel like I have failed my parents.

KABIR: In that case I should be thrown out of my house for my average grades. But my parents love me you see? And I know your parents love you too much. They'll understand.

I just nodded my head indicating that I agree but my gaze then fell on the guitar lying beside us.

NANDINI: Kabir, how and why did you get this guitar anyway?

KABIR: Uff, this thing took a lot of effort. I had to coax the music teacher a lot only then he gave me this.

NANDINI: but why did you bring this.

He excitedly took the guitar out of its case and sat back again while he cleared his throat as if he was about to announce something.

KABIR: ahem, ladies and gentlemen, today I will be singing a song to lift up my best friend's mood, who is apparently sad just of a mere monthly test. Therefore, continuing the tradition of childhood, my ms. panda, I would love to sing you our personal comfort song. Hope you'll stop sulking after that.

I giggled at his cute antics and opened the ice cream cover before eating it while he started playing the guitar.

He sang my ultimate favorite song for me, JAB KOI BAAT BIGAD JAAYE.

He used to sing this for me ever since our childhood. Whenever I used to be sad or used to cry, the little kabir would sit in front of me and sing this song only to earn a smile from me. He said that the lyrics of that song says about the promises that he made to me. And now that I think about it, he really was right.

I rested my head on his shoulder again and felt at home instantly. Maybe the feelings I have for him are justified. All he does for me, just to make me happy, just to make me smile, just to be with me, maybe they all led me to where I am today. I again wrapped my hands around his arm and closed my eyes feeling the comfortable with him.

Kabir sharma, I whole heartedly like you and today, I accept that for a fact.

All these feelings that I've been calling weird are not weird but beautiful. I don't know if I would ever be able to voice it out loud or if you'll feel the same about me, but all I know is, I don't see you as a friend only anymore. You're so much more than that.

I let all the new realization soak into my brain and sat there with my still closed. With everything feeling like a bliss, I had no idea when sleep engulfed me and I drifted away into my dreamland with the man of my dreams beside me.

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