TERI MERI YAARI

~28~ the love letter

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LONG TIME NO SEE.

I KNOW, I KNOW, TOO MUCH TIME?? BUT I COULDN'T HELP IT. I HAD TOO MANY OTHER THINGS ON PLATE TO CARE OF AND UHH I STILL DO, SO I STILL CAN'T PROMISE REGULAR UPDATES BUT WE'LL SEE WHEN WE GET THERE. 

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KABIR'S POV:

Dear Kabir,
                hii! (that sounded vague I know, you don't have to call me out for that) maybe you're wondering as to why I've written this letter to you? well I've been wondering the same too. Umm, maybe because I didn't have the courage to approach and tell you about it face to face. 
before I tell you tho, I want you to know that you're one of the most important people of my life.

You always make me smile, make me happy, you never let me cry and even if I do, you make me smile again. I never knew what I would do with myself and my nerdy life without you but hey! "nerdy is the new trendy" okay? (bad attempt, but you still don't get to call me out) 

uhh so where was I?? ohh yeah, don't flatter yourself a lot but umm, you do mean a lot to me. I've always felt a bundle of feeling when you're around me, I feel happy, I feel excited, sometimes irritated? okay lets make it, many times irritated. But more than everything? I feel alive. You balance out my life just perfectly. My life has always been set, scheduled, in order, everything has always been perfect. But you? you came in like a chaos and tumbled everything but do you wanna know a secret?? I wouldn't have liked it any other way. You make me feel as if there's so much more to life than what I know and you make me want to explore everything. 

And beside all these feelings, there's something very new I've been feeling these days. Something so weird it makes my gut wrench with anticipation but at the same time fills my belly with butterflies. I feel as if I am lost, yet I find solace when I look in your eyes. 

every time you joke around with me, every time you take care of me, every time you protect me, it feels as if you are pulling at a string in my heart and as much as I fear this reaction, I don't want it to end. 

I've never felt like this through out my life, so I do not know what's happening with me but one thing I can assure you is that I've been feeling this only when I am around you. 

I want to be with you all the time, I want to listen to you talking, I want to talk while you listen to me, you've always been there whenever I've cried, I've never felt the need of a pillow because your shoulder has always soaked in my tears. And I want my shoulder to be there for you as well, and yeah of course I'll be there as your best friend...

But this time Kabir, I want to be more. 

I don't know where this would lead us or what would be our future, but this is something I want to take a risk for. You know how much I hate taking risks but this? I would regret my entire life if I wouldn't do anything about this. I am willing to take a risk here because as much scary does it sound about ruining what we have right now, the possibility of what could be pushes me a hundred times more to confess this to you. 

Well, I know I am rambling non sense but no one has ever had me so flabbergasted and what shocks me even more is that the person who could make me feel this has been by my side the entire time and I hadn't realized it. 

Soo... here goes nothing.

Well I know that dumb head of yours might not understand my twisted confession, so this me coming out honestly. 

I really really like you Kabir Sharma, will you be my 'bit more' than a best friend??

Nandini Verma,
march 24, 2024

My throat felt dry, I felt as if someone had sucked up the entire oxygen of this room. My heart clenched in a very unusual way and I couldn't help myself but drag in a harsh, sharp and long breath in order to survive. 

It felt as if someone had sucked up the life within me. Slowly, I felt something wet sliding down my cheeks. 

tears.

I had started crying unknowingly and no matter how many times I wiped my tears, they kept flowing. 

Nandini is not a girl who would write love letters. 

She isn't a girl who'll take a risk. 

She isn't a girl who would like someone. 

She isn't a girl who would do any of this. 

Yet she did it. 

Yet she liked a person. 

She liked me. 

All of this was so fucked up. Anyone and everyone around us believed that me and Nandu would end up together and it was inevitable. Well, I had thought so myself at a younger age but looking at the determination in her eyes for her career and her studies at that time, I thought maybe I am not the type of guy she would want to be with. 

But reading her letter now, something inside me flipped. I started having questions swarming inside my mind. 

How would things be if I would've found this letter before I had started dating Mihika?

How would things be if my crush on Nandu would have never vanished?

How would things be if that new guy hadn't entered the scene?

Something swelled within my throat on the thought of the new hindrance between me and my best friend. 

Was his arrival a move played by the fate??

A sign that Nandu was supposed to be with someone like him and she was way better off than she would've been with me. 

Has she moved on? 

The thought of her moving on tasted bitter on my tongue. Such a selfish bastard I am. I've been dating Mihika for a while now and yet I have thoughts like these going on in my brain. 

I should let he bygones be bygones. The timing wasn't correct. none of it was. And maybe, just maybe, if fate permits, all of us would be with our destined partners. 

With this thought, I decided to focus on my relationship with Mihika and to work on my friendship with Nandu as well. 

I know the letter thing has complicated matters for now, but I wouldn't let any of this dampen the years old friendship we've had. And since she hadn't given me the letter by herself, I wasn't supposed to find out. 

Therefore, we would pretend that I didn't find out. 

With a jab in my heart, I looked at the date mentioned in the letter, it was the same day I had told her about me and Mihika. 

I could not believe she's been keeping things to herself since so long and yet pretending to smile. 

I am such a selfish prick. 

I wiped my face dry and forwarded my hand to put the letter back in the drawer but something inside me was stopping me from doing so.

This letter seemed private. Something only me and Nandu knew. And I wanted to keep a part of it for myself. 

But it would be wrong on my part to keep the letter, right? it was something she doesn't want me to know at this moment. It would be breaching her privacy. 

fvck it!

As if anything was going on as planned or as it should have been. I would keep this letter for myself. 

What if she finds the letter to be missing? if she does, then she would forget about it. Even if she doesn't its not like she would confront me about it. Therefore, its a win-win. 

I folded the letter and pushed it inside my pocket before deciding to leave. I know I was here to have a conversation with her, But with the newly found out things, I don't think I would be able to keep things straight. 

Therefore, it would only be sane of me to get my head straight and then return to her. 

I rushed down the stairs only to meet her at the end of them. 

NANDINI: Woahh woahh woahh where are you rushing to?

KABIR: h-home.

NANDINI: Home? you've gotta be kidding me. 

She doesn't appear to be in a good mood. Well, shit. 

NANDINI: No one's going home until we have the very conversation for which you interrupted something very important. 

I felt blind rage pouring inside of me. Important? with that guy? hell no. 

KABIR: Well, it definately wasn't that important. And even if it was, it can't be more important than me. 

Her face twisted in pure anger. Well, I had been behaving like a d!ck so it was obvious. 

NANDINI: Why are you behaving like a d!ck?

well, told you. D!ck.

KABIR: *sigh* look, I am sorry. I know I was here to talk but things right now doesn't seem right. So maybe we could talk later?

NANDINI: Well, does these "things" involve a certain girlfriend of yours?

I am so going to hate myself for this. 

KABIR: Yes. 

Her face contorted visible disbelief which was followed by a scoff. 

NANDINI: You know what??  I am done. Go tend your girlfriend and never come back. 

I swallowed the lump in my throat and tried to calm her down. 

KABIR: Nandu...

NANDINI: Nope. Don't call me that. Not when you've pissed me out majorly. 

I gave her a curt nod and wandered off towards the door. Its best for the both of us if I leave. 

I got out of the door and started walking towards my house when I heard her voice calling for me. Hope filled my chest when I turned around to look at her. 

NANDINI: I meant what I said inside. NEVER COME BACK!

With that, she shut the door, not caring if I still stood there or went away. 

Never say never Nandu, never say never. 

I am not giving up on our friendship no matter how you try to shut me out. 

I turned towards my house, and started walking. My hand lingered on the letter inside my pocket. 

That one girl I thought who would never like me, had fallen for me while I was busy chasing the campus' most popular girl. 

Just how fast the night changes. 

No matter what happens, I hope me and Nandu, both end up being happy and together. Best friends or something else, I don't care. 

I need her by my side. 
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