I hate Ava so much. She's literally tearing my life apart. Like Malik probably likes her. Mia and Leah probably like her more than me and are just using me because I'm smart. Like, why? What did I do wrong? This is the depressing part of my life.
I feel like no one truly loves/likes me. if I could relive one year, I would relive Y6 because of Tyke. He has my heart, I think. But Malik is just, IDK at this point, I think I don't like Malik anymore, it's annoying. I have practically no control over myself. Im having an existential crisis because I don't know if I like anyone or no one or Tyke.
I don't think I like Malik at all anymore because he was straight up being rude and I'm putting in all the effort. But the way Tyke still stares at me is fire. I think I'm overreacting or hallucinating but now, I like him and I'm writing a whole ton of songs and poems about us in the past and present and a few of them are depressing. I'm gonna paste some of them down here :
Déja Vu (ft.Tyke) - Can we go back in time?
When are we gonna tell them
That we were an "almost"
Some people don't know
Enemies, maybe lovers
The way we spoke, the way we stared
The way you blushed, the way I smiled
When we were together
Can we go back in time and be together?
Can we go back in time, yeah?
Happier - Forever
I hope that it's not just me
Maybe you're falling really hard like me
You shouldn't love your enemy
Unspoken rule, baby
But please be mine or no one's forever
Enchanted (ft.Malik) - More than enemies
This is me hoping that
We spend more time together
Compare our grades like always
Talk to each other often
Bicker about who's better
I never thought I'd say this
Maybe, we're more than enemies
I'm in love with you, (name)
I hope you're not in love with someone else
Please tell me if you love me back, (name)
Please don't be in love with someone else
Just tell me if you love me back, (name)
*Poem*- And that's the way I loved you
Up at 1AM
Daydreaming in class
Zoning out in conversations
Because of you
Squealing in joy
Did my hair;my makeup
Sprayed perfume
Because I sat next to you
Stared at you
And acted like I hated you
To not make it obvious
Because I was madly in love with you
Could talk about you for hours
Talk to you for hours
Raced with you to classes
And that's the way I loved you
But......
Sparks flew in your eyes when you saw me
You stared back
Smiled back
Spoke back
Hated me back
Flirted with me back
Raced back
And that's the way I knew you loved me
Again......
Was all of this a hallucination?
Am I overreacting?
Were we nothing?
Or everything?
Some stories don't have happy endings
Is ours one of those?
Thinking about that makes me break down
And that's the way I loved you
YOU ARE READING
My Love Life : Y7
RomanceThis is Siyana's (my) life! *this is a real life story and the names are changed due to copyright issues* Tons of boy drama and shipping. Hope you enjoy my life! Here are a few glimpses : 1. "From today I'll call you silverboy" I said. "What?" he ex...
