𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒-Maze Runner, Thomas

𝟬𝟭𝟵.my name

It all happened too fast for me to process.

Suddenly we weren't in our part of the compound anymore. We weren't talking.

Only heavy breathing, cries in pain and loud footsteps. Dangerous silence.

I tried to concentrate on the fact that whatever I was going to see wasn't real.

It were only memories or fears of mine.

Nothing that could really harm me.

The closer we got to the simulation room, and also Thomas' room, the more I hoped for the brunette to be there.

I didn't want him to get in trouble but the fear of what would come blocked my senses and didn't let me think straight.

I saw the door and...

He wasn't there.

Thomas wasn't here to help me. And the hope was gone.

But I wasn't weak. This was just some stupid mind thing trying too hard to scare me. I'd be fine.

Why did I even think I needed a boy to protect me? What the fuck happened.

"Why can't you just behave like all the other kids?!"

I thought-

A loud noise and I was being pushed into the machine. The door closed. Darkness and silence greeted me.

But I didn't make a noise apart from my breath that I just couldn't seem to calm down.

I quickly grabbed the mask and pressed it on my face with both, shaking and cold, hands.

And then he turned the water on. Ice cold. First my ankles, then my knees. Soon it was everywhere and I had to dive under.

While I felt cold water everywhere on my body, the mask filled with hot uncontrollable tears on the inside and would have blurred my view if it wasn't all black already.

I didn't know what I was about to see. My brother? A memory? Or something that hadn't happened?

Soon I felt the familiar feeling of exhaustion and sleepiness, making my eyes close slowly.

But this time I had chosen to fight. I wouldn't let the stupid machine control me or confuse me. Now I knew what was going to come and what I had to do. Never again would I make myself vulnerable like this again.

And while trying so hard to hold on to that thought, I slowly drifted of and lost myself to the simulation.

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Darkness.

Light.

My eyes opened.

Remember. Fight.

Remember what?

A loud scream. Several shots. Blood on my hands when I looked down.

We were running away, darting through the hallway that used to be our home, sprinting down the stairs my brother and I used to play on.

I almost fell several times if it hadn't been for my mother, pulling me along on my wrist, the panic visible on my face.

My brother and my dad wouldn't help us ever again. They weren't able to do anything anymore. The thought of them made me want to throw up and rip my heart out of my chest.

Finn had once threatened to do that If I wouldn't stop talking. It hadn't been funny back then and it certainly wasn't funny now.

I had always thought that the adrenaline would make me feel numb in a situation like this but it wasn't. I was able to feel everything. And it wasn't right. I was young but not too young to know that I was too young for this.