𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒-Maze Runner, Thomas

𝟬𝟮𝟬.I'm not crying you are

My tears had dried.

An hour had passed since I was brought back to the girl's room.

I had locked myself in one of the toilet cabins and ignored the others. However they had seen my tearstrained cheeks so I guessed they had an idea of what was going on.

Sonya, Rachel and Kiara had followed me and were now sitting in front of the cabin trying to get me to talk. I was glad about the wall between us because I wouldn't want them to see me like this. Especially not Sonya.

After what felt like hours they had stopped asking me about what had happened. But they had stayed.

I didn't say one single word the whole time.

What the hell had gone wrong in my life? What was going on with the world?

But one thing I knew.

Janson was gonna pay for doing this to me. I didn't know how or when yet but it was decided.

At some point I heard the door of the bathroom opening again. I was going to tell whoever this was to piss off...until I heard his voice.

"Is she in here? The other girls told me she was here."

I held my breath. It was Thomas.

"Uh, yeah." Sonya's voice. "She's in the cabin."

"Oh."

A few whispers and footsteps.

"We will leave you two alone for a bit, okay?"

Of course it was Rachel.

"Yes, thanks...Rachel?"

"Yeah, hi."

"Hi."

The door closed. I was surprised Kiara had said nothing at all.

"Charlie?"

I hummed as an answer, not knowing how hoarse my voice was at the moment.

"Do you want to come out?"

Did I? I wanted to see him. He had tried to help me, I had to thank him.

Hesitantly, I unlocked the door and pushed down the handle.

He was close, right on the other side. His brows knitted together in worry and sadness.

"I-"

He didn't let me finish and darted forward, wrapping me up against his chest, his arms around my waist, holding me tight.

He hugged me.

It had felt weird at first and I had frozen in his arms, but then I felt myself relaxing against him. His body warmth was comforting. I wrapped my arms around his torso as well.

And the tears came without me even noticing.

I cried silently put he could definitely tell I was by my shaking shoulders.

He buried his head in my neck and stroked my back while I did the same to him. I could sense he was very upset too and wanted to comfort him.

At first it felt wrong but then it was nicer than I thought. This was the first time crying in someone's arms like this.

It was definitely gonna be a one time thing. But for now he was everything I needed and more.

My eyes burned with tears so hard I didn't even dare to glance at the bathroom mirror behind Thomas's back.

"It's going to be okay." He whispered into my hair.

A nod and I slowly sank to my knees against the wall, pulling Thomas with me into a sitting position.

"I'm sorry for saying your name in front of him."

"It's okay."

I wasn't mad at him. Not at all.

"He did hurt you this time, did he?"

"Not physically."

He pulled away to look at me, scanning my face.

"The simulation?"

"Yeah..." I trailed off, trying to push the image of my mother out of my head. "But I don't want to talk about it."

"That's okay."

I smiled, meeting his brown eyes.

I would never hurt him, I thought.

Janson, I would hurt. Kill, rather.

No one was ever going to treat me that way again. Never again was I going to let this happen.

That, I swore myself.

Traumaaaa yay