The poetry of my unspoken realm

I can't hide myself

I know you can see everything in my eyes
I know you know what I want to say
You shamelessly acknowledged
all the corners of my imagination
And you'll never give back to me
All the sleepless nights I've lost on you
Pulling the thread of happiness
Your laughter left all over my house.
I don't need to die to reach heaven
I would venerate and curse you
Because you're the one
Who made me believe
That all divinity could possibly
Hide in the eyes of a man
Who's smile bringed me back to life.
Something in me smug
It urges me to hide
My reason rejects it,
but my heart still wants you.
Let's stay here, just the two of us,
Either way, I'll leave
I'll go and I'll go
I won't see anyone,
I'll hear about nothing
Where I would share something
Only with the silence
Please,don't be a perfectionist
like someone you used to love
and something I used to be.
Dot the lines, pass past the mark
Now you are almost leaving
But I still want you to stay.
A silent exchange of glances
Who always made me feel like
I'm the Titanic on a roll
You are the infernal Iceberg,
And we all know this ending.
It took me without my consent
Because it gave me
the sweetest poison to drink
When I well knew that it would hurt
But it seemed tasty enough
To try and lose without regrets.
I like the cold sunrises
when it runs through the trees
Which grow up next to my window
And make me look towards yours,
Hoping I'll see your bliss
Until the last day of my existence.
I hope you'll be here
in every single lifetime
When I'll want you to be only mine.
Your memories of me are burning,I know.
But the ash that remains,
Is being reborn inside of me
Like a Phoenix melted by fate
Because that's what you left of me.
Since your soul touched mine
Only with your golden eyes
Only with your low voice
Everything you ever gave me
Now is coming back to you.
I am a shadow in need of your light,
Something in me insistent
That pulses from my back to my chest
With it in sync, with it in unison
In my nightmares,
it makes me believe
That I'm going to crash,
I hope you can reach for my hand.
The silence betrays us
Your smell has soaked into my skin
It's my fault that it's your fault
And sometimes I'm glad
that you don't feel the same.
There is not an antidote
That can cure me
from seeing your face
every time I close my eyes.
When you are far away
The seconds are not passing on the clock
And when you are close to me
I don't want to give up on you.
I can't hide myself anymore
From all that I feel.
I might miss adoring you one day.