Sunshine (j.h/sope)

☀️nine🐱

Wednesday, October 11, 2023.

hobi:
yoongi, the craziest thing happened yesterday.

hobi:
also sorry for not texting yesterday. after school i had homework. and then i took a nap, ate dinner, and went back to sleep.

yoongi:
don't apologize. you don't owe me an explanation.

yoongi:
what happened that was so crazy?

hobi:
jaehyung approached me while i was at my locker and he asked me if i had any cards with me today, assuming i was about to get beat up.

hobi:
but then, somebody whistled at him and then he just walked away.

hobi:
he didn't even get the chance to say anything else.

yoongi:
oh really? well, who is this knight in shining armor?

hobi:
i'm not sure. i've never seen him or his friends before.

hobi:
and jaehyung looked like he had a black eye. i think that guy beat him up.

hobi:
and he smiled at me! he had a cute smile.

yoongi:
that's good! lol i'm glad he finally got beat up. someone needed to do it. i heard that guy is an asshole.

hobi:
he is.

hobi:
i want to thank that guy for helping me. maybe tomorrow? is that a good idea?

yoongi:
i'm sure he would be okay with that.

yoongi screams internally.

yoongi:
do you want to be his friend?

hobi:
maybe. i haven't decided yet.

hobi:
i'm more of a "if it happens, then it happens" kind of person.

hobi:
go with the flow kinda guy.

yoongi:
same here.

yoongi:
well how was your day?

hobi:
today was a great day! i went to all my classes. i ace two tests i took last week. i didn't have to eat lunch in the bathroom to prevent getting beat up. and most importantly, i didn't get beat up.

hobi:
jaehyung and his friends basically just ignored me all day.

hobi:
i haven't had a good day in a long time.

yoongi:
i'm really glad you had a good day hobi.

hobi:
me too!

hobi:
how was your day?

yoongi:
boring, but i don't really find joy in a lot of things these days.

hobi:
why is that?

yoongi:
server depression my dear hobi.

yoongi:
it never really goes away.

yoongi:
good family, good home, loving parents.

yoongi:
i just feel selfish sometimes because some people don't have that. i don't have a reason to be depressed.

hobi:
people are just sad sometimes, you don't need a reason to be. depression runs in some people's families so it's not your fault that you feel too much or too little.

hobi:
i think thats why we get along so well, you feel too little and i feel too much. perfect match.

hobi:
my depression comes from childhood trauma. i know what it feels like to be the one with no parents and a bad family.

yoongi:
i'm sorry you had to go through that in your childhood.

hobi:
it wasn't all bad. i don't have a lot of memories of my mom but my dad was nice sometimes. rarely but sometimes. 

yoongi:
i was fine until i turned 6. our family doctor said everyone in my family who suffers with depression got diagnosed around the same age.

yoongi:
i wasn't diagnosed with anxiety until i was 7. same time i found out i had ADHD.

hobi:
we are so fucked up.

yoongi:
agreed but we make the most out of it, or at least try to.

hobi:
i definitely will try to now.

yoongi:
it makes me happy you are happy. finally. but with that guy not bulling you anymore, i'm sure you will be so much happier.

hobi:
and i can't wait.

hobi:
hey, i will text you later. my sister just got home with groceries.

yoongi:
eat well hobi.