Peace In The Noise

Void

The month following Marko's departure were, dull to say the least. My sister came back, but I was still lonely. Me and Marko managed to text occasionally, but he was so busy now he was back in Croatia that these last two weeks he had stopped texting. My house felt empty, I felt empty. I had even attempted to fill the void by spending time with my friends, including my boy 'best friend'. I quote that because, Marko had taken his place. Don't get me wrong, spending time with Erik did distract me, but everything he did I would compare to Marko. I missed him so much, and us not texting was making it so much worse. Is this what love was? Is? I hated it. I had genuinely stopped caring about most things, especially how I looked. As of right now, my hair was in a messy bun and definitely greasy and my wardrobe consisted of tank tops and pyjama shorts.

''Eva? You wanna go out? I'm bored'' Ella asked as she came downstairs. I stayed silent and shook my head. ''Why? You okay Ev?'' You know that feeling? Like, when you're not okay but you're holding it together but then someone asks if you're okay and you just break down? Well, that's exactly what happened. Ella rushed to my side as I began crying and she wrapped her arms around me. It genuinely felt like me and Marko had broken up despite never actually being together. ''Oh Ev, what's happened?'' I never actually told Ella, I knew she liked Marko and she'd kill me if she knew, but I needed to tell someone. I sighed and composed myself before I said anything. ''Ella, please don't get mad at me but, there's this boy'' I paused and pulled away from the hug and wiped my eyes. ''It's Marko, well-uh-Baby Lasagna...'' She smiled softly at me. How I loved my big sister. She pulled me close again. ''Tell me.'' I sighed and held onto her arm which was wrapped around me.

''He stayed here for the week you were gone, we-I ended up falling for him and we kissed at the airport. We texted for two weeks and now he's ghosting me.'' She rubbed my arm and sighed. ''Maybe he isn't worth it, but, he may also be very busy. Have you seen his instagram Ev? He's doing concerts all over Croatia. Maybe you should go over there?'' I shook my head. ''I don't wanna see his stupid face ever again.'' She sighed again. ''Honestly Ev, I think you need to move on. You're going out with Erik and me tonight. Go get ready.'' I sighed but did as she said as it was what she wanted and I couldn't say no now.

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I sat in the corner of the night club, drinking a vodka and coke. I wasn't even drunk, I wasn't in the mood to drink to be honest. Erik came and sat down next to me. ''Vad är fel?'' He asked and I shook my head. ''Nothing'' I told him and he tilted his head. ''Can we talk outside Ev?'' I nodded and we went out front. ''Ella told me what happened, and for the record I think he's shitty.'' I frowned and stepped away from Erik. ''Marko isn't shitty!'' I defended him, why did I defend him? What was the point in that? ''Ev, he's shitty. He's ghosting you.'' I scoffed at him. ''What would you know?'' He shook his head and grabbed my arm gently. ''I know shitty men Eva, and he seems it. Telling you he loves you and he's never been happier and he can't even be bothered to text you? That's a whole new low.'' I pulled my arm away and threw the money for my drinks to his feet. ''What would you even fucking know Erik? You didn't spend the week with him! I love him!'' Erik scoffed and ran his hand through his jet black hair. ''You can't love him Eva! You only knew him a week!'' He paused and took a breath. ''Look Ev, I like you okay? And it kills me to know he's ghosting someone like you. It's killing me knowing your wasting your love on that fåne.'' I bit my lip and let out an annoyed laugh. ''What's wrong with you? You like me so you have to get jealous? Is that it huh? Your ego can't handle that for once in your pathetic little life you can't get the girl? Grow up Erik'' I said as I began finally walking away. I went to the park that I was at the night Marko told me he loved me, when I went out with Hanna. I looked at the trees, the bushes and even the flowers that covered the grass. Somehow everything reminded me of Marko. I started crying again, I felt so pathetic. I missed him like crazy. I sniffled and wiped my eyes before I heard footsteps and a male voice.

''Jesi li to lijepa?''

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Last filler before we get into more story :)

Translations! :3

Vad är fel? - What's wrong?

fåne - Fool

Jesi li to lijepa? - Is that you beautiful?