Peace In The Noise

Addiction

''Will you be my girlfriend?'' I have to admit, I paused. Was I scared? Shocked? Thinking this wasn't happening? ''I-'' I couldn't even get the words out to answer. I wanted to scream yes at him but I just couldn't. I had waited so long for this moment and I just couldn't say anything. As I was attempting to speak, I seen Marko's face drop and he sat up. ''I'm sorry, I don't know why I asked that.'' He spoke softly, as if his voice was about to break. Before I could say anything, he got up off the bed and took himself downstairs. I turned around to face my pillow and screamed into it. Why couldn't I just answer? It's not that hard to just say yes. Did I want to say yes? Was that the issue? No, surely not? The door opened again, and I just stayed where I was, I heard him rummage around in his side of the drawers. I heard him getting changed, he walked out of my room and down to the front door. Seconds later, I heard the front door and I sighed and rolled over. I got changed myself and wandered downstairs. There was a note on the door. 'My love, I'm going for a walk. I'm sorry if I made you feel rushed or scared you - Marko x.' I ripped it off and threw it across the room, it didn't make it far but it made me feel better.

I went to text him to tell him to come back, but then I seen his phone on the table by the front door. I put my hair up and grabbed my car keys. I had to find him and set this straight, what if something happened to him? I began to drive around all the places I knew he knew, there was no sign of him anywhere and I started to panic. I ended up parking in the McDonald's car park  and I rested my head on the steering wheel and then I ended up accidentally pressing the horn as a crack of thunder bellowed across the sky, which just added to my worry about Marko as it began to rain heavily. I frowned, I had to find him. He didn't know his way around with me, nevermind on his own.

I got out of the car and put the hood of my coat up as I began walking through the city, wondering where he could be. I seemed to check everywhere that I could and I ended up on that one park bench where everything seems to happen. I sat there for around an hour, just listening and watching the rain, praying that the tree above me didn't get struck by lightning. I decided to begin the walk back to the car, when I heard footsteps behind me. Here we go, of course I'd get kidnapped in daylight whilst looking for someone. Just my luck. ''Eva? Är det du?'' I groaned and turned around. Erik. Of course. ''Var är Marko?'' I sighed and shrugged. ''I don't know Erik, don't suppose you've seen him?'' He shook his head. ''Why you here anyways?'' I ran my hand through my hair and then crossed my arms. ''Looking for Marko.'' I stated as I started walking again. ''Vänta! Let me help, it's the least I can do after what happened.'' I shrugged. Why the hell not. I nodded and we walked back to my car and we begun driving around Lund again.

There seemed to be no trace of Marko, then I remembered that I hadn't checked the starbucks we bumped into each other at. I started driving that way and there was still no sign on the way there and I began to panic as the weather seemed to be getting worse. We finally got to the starbucks and I didn't even bother parking the car right. I looked in, but I couldn't see him and I was ready to give up when Erik exclaimed, ''There he is! Over there!'' I looked over the car park where he was pointing and sure enough, there was Marko sat on a bench. We got out of the car and I ran over to him, Erik following on behind. ''Marko!'' I said and he turned around, his face lit up and then dulled again as he set his eyes on Erik. Shit.

''What the fuck is he doing here?'' Marko asked, getting up and Erik backed away. ''Is this why you couldn't answer me before? Is it actually Erik you want? Are you using me to make him jealous?'' I scoffed, I don't know what was worse, the fact he didn't trust me or actually thought all of this. ''Marko listen-'' He cut me off, rude bastard. ''No Eva, you listen, I'm happy to talk about what happened but he needs to go.'' I sighed and looked at Erik. ''Erik, do you mind?'' He frowned. ''Whatever this fitta has to say, he can say it in front of me. I just spent the last half hour looking for you Marko, because you left Eva worried sick about you to the point she was sat on a park bench in the rain and thunder for over an hour. You ungrateful jäkel.'' Marko frowned and stepped closer to Erik, round two? ''Odjebi Erik.'' I groaned.

''Will you apor stop? Erik, if Marko wants you to go, just go?'' He rolled his eyes. ''Fine, I'll go. But for you, not him.'' He said and he spat as he walked away and me and Marko sat on the bench. ''What did you call us?'' Marko asked, he seemed calmer now that Erik had gone. ''Apes.'' I said and he rubbed the back of his neck. ''Listen Marko, I need to talk to you about what happened before.'' He put his arm around me and kissed my forehead. ''If the offer is still there, I'd like to be your girlfriend Marko, but.'' I paused and he looked at me, just looked at me. ''This thing with Erik has to stop, you can't go around calling him all kinds just because he exists.'' He sighed but hugged me. ''Don't worry moja ljubav, I'm sorry.'' I pulled away and smiled at him. ''It's okay.'' I replied and he placed a soft kiss on my lips.

The drive home was us talking about how the next few weeks were gonna go, it seemed so unreal. We got back to the house and he opened the door while I locked the car. It didn't even take a minute before Marko was kissing me whilst gently pinning me against the wall. ''Someone's eager.'' I said with a smile and he returned the smile. ''What can I say? You're like an addiction at this point, älskling.'' I let out a little laugh at the butchered pronounciation. ''Someone's also been learning Swedish I see.'' He smiled again and kissed me, he put his hands on my waist as I wrapped my arms around his neck. ''I'm so glad you're mine now, lijepa djevojka.'' He picked me up bridal style and carried me upstairs, and I don't think it would be family friendly to tell you what happened next.......

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Translations! :3

Eva? Är det du? - Eva? Is that you?

Var är Marko? - Where's Marko?

Vänta! - Wait!

Fitta - Twat/Pussy

Jäkel -  Bastard

Odjebi Erik - Fuck off Erik

Moja ljubav - My love

Älskling - Darling

Lijepa djevojka - Pretty girl