Peace In The Noise

Looking So Bloody

Hey guys! There's some pretty dark stuff mentioned in this chapter including multiple methods of abuse and assault, I'll mark with a ** where it starts and finishes again. I'm sorry for any annoyance this causes but, I never said this was a light book all the way through. I'm also sorry for anybody else who has gone through the stuff mentioned, you're not alone <3

You can't escape me Eva, see you soon my love - Oscar

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My hands trembled as I passed the phone to Marko who was watching me intently. He took it and he sighed and looked at me with concern plastered on his face, mixed with anger in his eyes. ''That dick.'' He said as he put my phone down and pulled me close. ''Why can't he leave me alone?'' I asked, beginning to tear up. ''He's going to, I'll make sure of it.'' I sighed and looked at him. ''Marko I love you, but you can't resort to violence all the time.'' He shrugged and kissed my head. ''I mean, I could.'' I shook my head. ''It's not good.'' I replied and he held me close. ''Well, if I can't beat him up again, we should go to the police.'' He said and I sighed. He was right, but I was so scared. ''I don't know Marko, what if they don't take us seriously? What if Oscar finds out and comes after me?'' I said and he kissed my head. ''We can't let him keep terrorizing us darling.'' I sighed and he gently rubbed my shoulder. I felt myself zoning out, I couldn't process anything that Marko was saying.

**I stood in a dimly lit room, there was a single light bulb and a mattress on the floor. It was cold, so, so cold. ''You think you can leave me? You're nothing without me Eva, no one will believe you.'' His voice was harsh and full of venom as he backed me up against the wall. He grabbed my arm and pulled me close. All I could feel was his hot breath on my face, the smell of alchol was strong and nausea inducing. ''I know people babe, they'll make your life hell. I'll fucking ruin you, everyone will think your crazy.'' He tightened his grip and I winced in pain, tears began to stream down my face. ''Please Osc, let me go. You're hurting me!'' I exclaimed and he chuckled darkly. ''You deserve this, it's what happens when you defy me. Remember that babe.'' He threw me to the floor and I clutched my arm. His eyes were dark, full of malice. He wasn't bluffing.

''Ev? Darling?'' I shook myself back into the present and I broke down. ''I can't do it Marko! He always said nobody would believe me and that he'd make sure of it!'' He held me tight, stroking my hair. ''Eva baby, they'll believe you. We have to try darling.'' I clung to him, pretty sure my tears were soaking his shirt. ''I'm not strong enough Marko, I can't do this.'' I replied and he lifted my chin and looked into my eyes. Cute. ''Darling, you are strong. You've been through so much shit, especially the last few months yet here you are. I'll be there with you. I refuse to let him continue to do this to you.'' He said and I sighed. ''You don't know what it was like for me Marko.'' I said and he continued stroking my hair gently. ''Then tell me baby, tell me what it was like for you.'' I contemplated it. Did he really need to know? I sighed, I hadn't told him everything. There was so much left unsaid, but how could I tell him? I was still in denial myself, how could I tell him? ''Ev?'' I had zoned out again and I felt something tight in my chest.

I sat on the bed, my hands trembling as I clutched my phone. I was glancing at the clock, he was going to be home any minute now. I had dared to go out with a friend, defying his orders to stay home. My heart was racing fast with fear and I couldn't stop fidgeting. The door suddenly burst open and Oscar burst in, his eyes blazing with anger. He spotted me and stormed over to me. ''Where the fuck were you?!'' He shouted, his voice full of venom. I stood up, my legs were shaking and I attempted to find my voice. ''I-I...'' I couldn't talk. My heart was in my mouth. ''Well then?!'' He exclaimed and I took a deep breath. ''I went out for a bit, I needed to clear my head.'' He took a step closer to me and he grabbed me by my hair, yanking me close to him. I winced in pain, his breath once again reeked of alcohol. ''Clear your head?! Who do you think you are? Pussy.''  He threw me down onto the bed and I cried out in pain as my back hit the hard mattress. He hovered over me, his eyes were blacked over. I curled up in a ball in order to protect myself. ''You really think you can just do what you want? You bitch.''  I felt him pull something out of his pocket and I began to cry as he pressed a small blade against my cheek. ''Please Oscar! I'm sorry! I won't do it again!'' I pleaded, it was no use. He lightly dragged it across my skin, just enough to draw a small amount of blood. ''You need to learn your place babe, you're fuck all without me.'' All I could do was cry. ''Pathetic. Remember this feeling. Remember who you belong to.''  He finally got up and went into the bathroom. I was left sobbing and trembling on the bed. I brought my hand to my cheek and curled back up into my ball.

''Eva darling, stay with me.'' Marko said, stroking my cheek and I flinched. ''Hey, hey it's okay, you're okay.'' He replied and I just hugged him tight. Why was this bothering me so much lately? Was it because he had came back into my life? What was going on? ''Marko, he cut me.'' I suddenly blurted out and Marko's face dropped, he didn't look angry. He looked so upset, he was on the verge of tears. ''Anything else?'' I nodded. ''He-'' I paused, unable to get my words out. ''It's okay darling, you don't need to tell me until you're ready okay?'' I nodded and he hugged me tighter than he ever had before. We were interrupted by a sudden knock on the door and I flinched. Marko kissed my head and went to answer it. Ella walked in and ran over to me and hugged me. ''I'm so sorry Ev. I'm so, so sorry.'' I returned the hug, I knew when Ella was like this that something had happened. I seen a cut on her arm. One single, thin cut that was all too familar to me. Marko seen it, and looked at me and I started crying. My big sister had been subjected to the same shit I had, and I couldn't handle it.

That bastard was gonna pay, that's for sure.

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A/N: Sorry for the extremely depressing chapter, but as I've said before I really want to use this book to raise awareness! I also use writing as a way to get my feelings out so yeah consider this almost a trauma dump with some extra drama </3

I don't mean to sound like the end of a BBC documentary but, if you or someone you know is going through abuse here are some links that may help, you're not alone :) (They are british based I think, unfortunately I can't find any others due to me being british and google knowing that </3)

https://www.nhs.uk/live-well/getting-help-for-domestic-violence/

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/abuse/domestic-violence-and-abuse.htm

https://www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk/

https://refuge.org.uk/i-need-help-now/how-we-can-help-you/national-domestic-abuse-helpline/