Peace In The Noise

Sister

Me and Marko were in the kitchen. Ella was still asleep upstairs so we were trying to be quiet. I was putting some plates in the dishwasher and Marko was drying the ones that had just came out. ''Ev? I've been thinking about last night.'' I turned to look at him, to be honest I was embarrassed I had flashbacks in front of him. I mean, I must've looked so goofy just zoned out. ''I think seeing a therapist might help, yknow, work through everything.'' I sighed. I had thought about it, a lot. ''I know. It's just kinda hard to admit I need help.'' Marko dried his hands and came over and hugged me from behind. ''I'll be with you baby, every step of the way.'' He kissed my cheek and I smiled. That's when I thought, I was so close to not going with my sister that day. I nearly didn't meet Marko in the carpark. But, a part of me also thought that maybe if I hadn't met him then maybe none of this would be happening. Ella wouldn't want him, Oscar wouldn't be involved. Was this his fault? Would I have been better off without Marko? These are thoughts I didn't want to have but how can you stop yourself thinking this? You can't, not easily anyways. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the stairs. Ella emerged and flashed a smile, which both me and Marko returned.

''How'd you sleep El?'' I asked, getting her some water, she hated caffeine. ''Good, thanks.'' She replied, taking the glass out of my hand and sitting down at the table. Marko took himself into the living room, he was naturally still weary around my sister after what he found out. I watched him as he walked out until Ella winced. I looked at her and she was holding her arm. ''I think I caught it again whilst sleeping, can you check it for me?'' She asked and I nodded and took a look. I got a bandage from our medicine cupboard and put it around her arm. ''Thanks.'' She said, before taking herself back upstairs. I sighed and went into the living room and sat with Marko, who was of course watching The Office. ''You're addicted.'' I said as he put his arm around me and he nodded in agreement. ''How is she?'' He asked and I shook my head. ''Not good, I think her cut is infected too, she's gonna hate that.'' Marko tilted his head in slight confusion. ''Infections are a pain, but why would she hate it?'' He asked and I pointed at the photo of my parents that was on the tv stand. ''See my mum? She died whilst giving birth to our little sister, Charlotta. She was the oldest, so my mum and dad let her wait in the waiting room with my grandma.'' I crossed my legs and sat up a bit. ''Why don't you talk about Charlotta? You've never mentioned her before.'' I sighed and shrugged. ''I don't know really...'' I paused and had a quick drink of my coffee. ''I guess, after me, Ella and Oliver moved out to get away from dad, we just lost touch...'' I took another pause, Marko looked at me with that look you give someone when you think they're going to say something else. ''Charlotta moved to Norway with my aunt, Hanna. Think they moved to Hemsedal or somewhere near there. I don't talk about her a lot because I don't think I'll see her again.'' Marko pulled me close to him. ''Well, would you like to see her?'' He asked and I shrugged. Even though she's my sister I'd never really thought about it. My aunt was, a character to say the least. ''I mean, I would but I don't know how she'd feel about it. I mean, we left her with my shitty dad when we moved out and then she had to move to a whole new country.'' He kissed my head. ''Why don't you ask?'' I shrugged again, I hadn't thought of this either.

''Hun, I really think you should think about it. Maybe Charlotta does want to meet up?'' I shrugged for a third time. ''How would we even get there Marko? I'd want me, Ella and Oliver to go. Me and Ella definitely can't afford a flight plus return there, and Oliver never has the time with his job.'' He smiled softly at me, he had something up his sleeve. ''Let me take you, I've always wanted to go to Norway anyways. It could be fun!'' He said, he was like a child. ''I'll think about it okay? Now, I'm going to go and see if Ella wants to go and do something today.'' I said and I began walking upstairs and I heard sobbing coming from my sister's room. I sighed and knocked on the door. ''Come in.'' She said, her voice croaky. ''You okay El?'' I asked, sitting down on the bed and she wiped her eyes and let out a sniffle. ''You two are so fucking happy, and I tried to ruin that! My cut is fucking infected and I'm going to have to go to the doctor because of that fucker that convinced me.'' I pulled her into a hug, it was so crazy to me that my big sister of all people was feeling like this. ''Ev?'' She asked and I looked at her, waiting for her to ask what she was going to. ''Did he ever...do anything to you?'' She asked and I nodded, pointing to the scar on my cheek. ''That was him? You told me you fell and hit your face on the table?'' She pulled away slightly and I shook my head. ''Nope, he did to my cheek what he did to your arm and so much worse.'' Ella hugged me tight and sobbed softly. ''I'm so sorry Eva, I didn't know what he was like. I can't believe I let myself be manipulated by him.'' I smiled softly at her regret. ''It's okay El, you weren't to know.'' She pulled away and wiped her tears and blew her nose with a nearby tissue. ''Can I ask you something?'' I asked and she nodded. ''How would you ever feel about, I don't know, maybe going to Norway to visit Charlotta?'' Ella's eyes lit up. ''Really?!...'' She paused and her face dropped. ''With what money?'' I smiled at her. ''Marko offered to take me, you and Oli to see her. I know Oli will happily go, they were always close.'' She nodded. ''I'd love to!'' I sighed with relief, I had thought about it and I would love to see my little sister again.

It was just seeing if she wanted to see us after abandoning her with our abusive father...

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little calm down chapter while i work on revising for my exams + finish the next two chapters:). I also got bored and decided to make pic crews of how I imagine Eva and her siblings to look like so here you go :) (also gonna reveal ages + birthdays so things make a little bit more sense - also changed Ella to be Eva's older sister bc I think it suites better!)

Eva :) (Aged 25 - 12th April 1999)

Ella :) (Aged 29 - February 17th 1995)

Oliver :) (Aged 28 - 6th June 1996)

Annnd Charlotta :) (Aged 14 - 9th March 2010)